Thursday, March 31, 2011, 9:21 PM
Slipper chase!
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooo well well whaddaya know? I woke today at 12:54! 6 minutes before my alarm was supposed to go off at 1! See~~~ I woke up earlier today somehow =x Maybe I was just anticipating lingg lingg's arrival hohoho ;D
Right, so the first thing I did was to send a message to lingg to notify her that I'm already awake :) With that, I went on to take a shower first. Well...I just felt really warm, sticky and uncomfortable so went on to take a shower.
I intended to have a hair trim today. I knew lingg would definitely wanna come along, so I waited for her after my shower ;D
There was food on the table again today, but still not mine x( Soooo that means I'll have to get my own lunch again hehe~~
I didn't had to wait long before lingg rang me up telling me to answer the door! I opened it. There she was standing there like the cutey she is and holding onto my captive jacket as well xD
I went back to my room to collect my phone, wallet, keys and off we went for my hair trim! There was suppossedly a new guy at the salon so I thought I'd try him out.
Right, so sat in, and he went straight onto my hair trim. Lingg was sitting by the side waiting for me hoho ^^
Snip snip snap snap and done! Now all that's left is to head home and check if I get the fluff ball effect xD Well before that, of course I paid for the hair trim and I had to get my lunch too :)
We walked around the market and I finally decided on wanton noodles.
Why? So after eating it, I can cause wanton destruction!! MUAHAHAHA!!!
While I ate, lingg searched for something on FUNSHION to watch later on. I swear it really sounds like FUN CUSHION LOL! I gobbled down the noodles pretty quickly and then back I went into the room. Well...lingg couldn't find anything nice. So she ended up going into her Japanese class notes.
Without much to do myself, I got some mochi and seaweed, and read the papers for today.
A little later I went to lie on my bed to read the papers. Lingg then turned around and started asking me to find something to do xD Well...not that I don't want to. But video games are pretty much the only entertainment I have at home =x So.....yeah =/
With that lingg just went back to finish up her homework for Japanese class.
Soon after, I don't know what prompted it, we ended up having a smooch session HOHOHO xD SEE!!!!???? We are the Tiko PehBu, no doubt about it :O
So so smooch smooch~~ piak piak~~ Zizu Zizu~~ and when we were done, it was like mmmmm 5 odd? =x Time flies!
Then lingg remembered she wanted to show me something, and it was this little animation about ass cancer LOL! Really lame but interesting xD See?? She is tiko too! OHOhohoho~~~
Then then lingg clicked on some movie stream on funshion and we ended up watching it. Was some ghost thingy, yeah not really scary and with comic elements in it haha ^^
2 parts were exceptionally memorable in the film. One was where this dude opened up a barrel with a captive old lady inside. The old lady WAS human, and was just simply captured by the ghost. The guy, being real afraid, simply opened up the barrel and pumped a few rounds in with his pistol. Then he checked again and the old lady jumped up, probably trying to ask for help. The guy just freaked out, kicked her away and shot her! xD
So so so the catch here was, the old lady was still alive. The ghost didn't kill her, but she ended up killed in the hands of a human xD See the irony? hoho~~ I cracked up there xD
Besides that, there was another where the guy as mentioned above, tried another "stunt" by squeezing the boobs of the female ghost. Well...not in the pervertic sense, but to blackmail the ghost LOL! "I squeeze your NINI ah!" was what the guy shouted translated in english xD Then then then.........I did the....shhh shall not say hohoho xD
The end was really stupid though, I didn't get it =/
By the time the film ended, it was about 7 odd. We waited awhile more and it was time for lingg to leave for her Japanese class.
I saw her to the bus stop and we were hugging and kissing there too PDA HOHHOHOHOHO!! ^^
Well time pretty much flies with her, so the bus seemed to arrive pretty quickly. She got on, yeah the bus was packed full of shit. As usual, I'd stand around waving and smiling at her till she was outta sight. Today was...slightly different though =p
I chased her bus! xD Well...I just wanted to look at her a little more before she left, cause I know I would miss her x(
Yeah know this, it was real hard running after a bus in slippers LOL! =x
Then then while chasing, I came to this traffic junction. The traffic light took forever to turn green. When it did, I continued chasing, and coincidentally her bus had stopped at the next stop. Unfortunately, when I was nearly there, the bus took off!! AHHH!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! SMOOCH SMOOCH SMOOCH SMOOCH!!!!
Oh well, lost the last chance to see her =/
With that, I went to get dinner. Got prawn sotong mee and back I went. I think I finished it in like...5 minutes? Or less? LOL! =x Yeah today dinner was fast lolol~
After that, I looked through the Japanese notes lingg gave me again. Revising the 46 basic ones, and then going on to the others with the " sign.
Halfway through, I wanted to log onto msn, so I turned on my ASUS lappy. Guess what? There were sounds and all that, but the screen won't light up =.= I figured it's about there to the grave :( Oh well...guess it's time to change a new computer. I've been thinking of that since 6 months ago lol!
Now I have the perfect excuse xD Well...not really an excuse...since my computer really DID die =x
So here I am, blogging with my school lappy so lingg will can read it when she gets back and use it as reference for hers. That little cutey forgetful beloved girlfriend of mine, never fails to make my heart melt hohoho =p
So that's it, highlight of the day? SLIPPER CHASE!!!! ;D
Right, so the first thing I did was to send a message to lingg to notify her that I'm already awake :) With that, I went on to take a shower first. Well...I just felt really warm, sticky and uncomfortable so went on to take a shower.
I intended to have a hair trim today. I knew lingg would definitely wanna come along, so I waited for her after my shower ;D
There was food on the table again today, but still not mine x( Soooo that means I'll have to get my own lunch again hehe~~
I didn't had to wait long before lingg rang me up telling me to answer the door! I opened it. There she was standing there like the cutey she is and holding onto my captive jacket as well xD
I went back to my room to collect my phone, wallet, keys and off we went for my hair trim! There was suppossedly a new guy at the salon so I thought I'd try him out.
Right, so sat in, and he went straight onto my hair trim. Lingg was sitting by the side waiting for me hoho ^^
Snip snip snap snap and done! Now all that's left is to head home and check if I get the fluff ball effect xD Well before that, of course I paid for the hair trim and I had to get my lunch too :)
We walked around the market and I finally decided on wanton noodles.
Why? So after eating it, I can cause wanton destruction!! MUAHAHAHA!!!
While I ate, lingg searched for something on FUNSHION to watch later on. I swear it really sounds like FUN CUSHION LOL! I gobbled down the noodles pretty quickly and then back I went into the room. Well...lingg couldn't find anything nice. So she ended up going into her Japanese class notes.
Without much to do myself, I got some mochi and seaweed, and read the papers for today.
A little later I went to lie on my bed to read the papers. Lingg then turned around and started asking me to find something to do xD Well...not that I don't want to. But video games are pretty much the only entertainment I have at home =x So.....yeah =/
With that lingg just went back to finish up her homework for Japanese class.
Soon after, I don't know what prompted it, we ended up having a smooch session HOHOHO xD SEE!!!!???? We are the Tiko PehBu, no doubt about it :O
So so smooch smooch~~ piak piak~~ Zizu Zizu~~ and when we were done, it was like mmmmm 5 odd? =x Time flies!
Then lingg remembered she wanted to show me something, and it was this little animation about ass cancer LOL! Really lame but interesting xD See?? She is tiko too! OHOhohoho~~~
Then then lingg clicked on some movie stream on funshion and we ended up watching it. Was some ghost thingy, yeah not really scary and with comic elements in it haha ^^
2 parts were exceptionally memorable in the film. One was where this dude opened up a barrel with a captive old lady inside. The old lady WAS human, and was just simply captured by the ghost. The guy, being real afraid, simply opened up the barrel and pumped a few rounds in with his pistol. Then he checked again and the old lady jumped up, probably trying to ask for help. The guy just freaked out, kicked her away and shot her! xD
So so so the catch here was, the old lady was still alive. The ghost didn't kill her, but she ended up killed in the hands of a human xD See the irony? hoho~~ I cracked up there xD
Besides that, there was another where the guy as mentioned above, tried another "stunt" by squeezing the boobs of the female ghost. Well...not in the pervertic sense, but to blackmail the ghost LOL! "I squeeze your NINI ah!" was what the guy shouted translated in english xD Then then then.........I did the....shhh shall not say hohoho xD
The end was really stupid though, I didn't get it =/
By the time the film ended, it was about 7 odd. We waited awhile more and it was time for lingg to leave for her Japanese class.
I saw her to the bus stop and we were hugging and kissing there too PDA HOHHOHOHOHO!! ^^
Well time pretty much flies with her, so the bus seemed to arrive pretty quickly. She got on, yeah the bus was packed full of shit. As usual, I'd stand around waving and smiling at her till she was outta sight. Today was...slightly different though =p
I chased her bus! xD Well...I just wanted to look at her a little more before she left, cause I know I would miss her x(
Yeah know this, it was real hard running after a bus in slippers LOL! =x
Then then while chasing, I came to this traffic junction. The traffic light took forever to turn green. When it did, I continued chasing, and coincidentally her bus had stopped at the next stop. Unfortunately, when I was nearly there, the bus took off!! AHHH!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! SMOOCH SMOOCH SMOOCH SMOOCH!!!!
Oh well, lost the last chance to see her =/
With that, I went to get dinner. Got prawn sotong mee and back I went. I think I finished it in like...5 minutes? Or less? LOL! =x Yeah today dinner was fast lolol~
After that, I looked through the Japanese notes lingg gave me again. Revising the 46 basic ones, and then going on to the others with the " sign.
Halfway through, I wanted to log onto msn, so I turned on my ASUS lappy. Guess what? There were sounds and all that, but the screen won't light up =.= I figured it's about there to the grave :( Oh well...guess it's time to change a new computer. I've been thinking of that since 6 months ago lol!
Now I have the perfect excuse xD Well...not really an excuse...since my computer really DID die =x
So here I am, blogging with my school lappy so lingg will can read it when she gets back and use it as reference for hers. That little cutey forgetful beloved girlfriend of mine, never fails to make my heart melt hohoho =p
So that's it, highlight of the day? SLIPPER CHASE!!!! ;D
Wednesday, March 30, 2011, 11:09 PM
A little nothing, means alot~
Yawn :O Ohhhh so I woke this morning at 10:15 when my phone alarm rang. Guess what was the first thing I saw again? =p
Yeah you guessed right! It was a heart warming message from my little beloved hime asking if I was already awake xD I replied, then went on to wash up, take a bath and get changed. Once I was all done, I went down to take a bus to lingg's home.
Well I was intending to have my haircut today...wait no...it's hair TRIM :O But but since lingg requested going out today, heyyyyy can't say no to her hoho! ^^
Bused down and reached there at around 11:20? Went up and by the time lingg opened the door, it was 11:27. Perfect timing isn't it? heh! xD
Lingg opened the door and she was wrapped in cloth! LOL! *shy* hehe =p
Yeah so all that, after that she went back to prepare while I sat in her room while waiting for her. Didn't take too long before she came out and dragged me out to the door, signalling that she's done and we're ready to hit the road!
We took a bus to some place, god knows where, but it was pretty near her area. Then she told me we would be waiting for her mum there, it was kinda hot outside and so happens there was macdonalds behind us. Thus we decided to go in there to seek refuge with the airconditioned restaurant :)
Soon after, lingg's mum arrived and off we go to take the colour vision checkup at some clinic. There, after getting down all the particulars, lingg went into the doctor's room. Didn't take a minute or two and she was out =.= Like so fast....and it costs a damned 7 bucks =.="" Medical practitioners nowadays sure have good ways to leech money outta the people x(
Done with that, we were...well obviously way ahead of time since the checkup ended so insanely fast. We then decided to head down to Nanyang Polytechnic to finish up her withdrawal procedures.
Walked and walked to bukit batok station and into the train we go! Train ride was pretty long but we got there eventually. I led lingg and her mum to the student admissions office and they got down to the details. Yet again, the entire thing didn't take long, way faster than I had expected =x
Well pretty much just in time, so we trained back down to west mall. Since we'll be meeting lingg's sis there to have our lunch together. We alighted from the train and I saw my secondary school friend, part of my clique. Yeah haven't seen that little bastard in a long time and he sure is looking good, still surviving JC I guess =p
Once we were there, since it's gonna take awhile more before lingg's sister arrived, we headed on to a singtel outlet to browse at phones, since lingg wanted to change one. Went around looking but nothing caught her eye =p oh well....she was on a budget too, so that kinda got in her way of choices =/
With that, we headed into west mall and we saw this shop N save promotion thingy. Soooo lingg and her mum went to get some snacks, cup noodles and stuff. Here, there was this part where lingg was holding onto her stuff, striking a pose with one of her sexy legs out and started shaking LOL! It was hilarious xD Don't know what that was for but yeah xD funny hehe~~~
We then headed to the cinema and thought of catching a movie, dilly-dallied and in the end, decided we'd get the tickets after the meal haha~~
We then went on to swensen's for our meal. Little princess wanted her hearty breakfast xD We ordered our stuff, got the usual photo snapping and straight went our faces into the food! Hungry hungry~~~~
Lingg's sister came not long after and needed her mum to walk her in =.= Right, no offense but...ya already 15, surely it ain't that hard to tell the person that ya meeting someone inside =/ oh well...
The pasta serving was honestly pathetic and I was still starving xD Well...the food there was costly, I was on a budget so didn't dare to order anything more. Oh oh and lingg's scramble egg was pathetically small today too O.O she looked really disappointed =/
After we were done with our food, or well....most of us were. Lingg's sister then decided to go off....
So no offense again but to be honest, we went around and waited for you to do your stuff slowly and all you did was to run off once you were done with our charity =.= Ok, maybe not our charity, but her mum's charity. Kinda odd too...figured you'd spend an hour or so doing make-up just to come out and have a meal, then head back home....redundant isn't it? zzzzz
In any case...yeah after that once all of us were fully done with the meal, we went on to shop N save cause lingg's mum had something else to procure for the day. Shopped shopped and voila done! While in there, lingg was cold so I gave her my jacket =p
Right, not forgetting to mention that movie plans were pretty much screwed up and we didn't had anything else to do. Lingg's mum wanted to head home already to make dinner.
For me.....yeah to be honest I was really freaking tired but but but....I hardly have time out with lingg and now that we are, I don't wanna end the day so early :( So....then we chose to go on a date instead haha YAY! We walked a little to catch a bus to IMM, yeah our destination. Along the way, came up with this thing whereby if anything goes wrong, and lingg happens to be with me, I'd just shout NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO and give lingg thousands of smooches! xD hoho~~~
Got to IMM and went to Giant cause I wanted to source for those old packet seaweed. Didn't had much luck, so we just walked on to the seafood section. Then lingg was playing with the ice with a shovel O.O there was this old dude who walked pass her and was giving the WTF? face xD Funny hehe~~ SO cute UHHHHH!!!! :O
We then passed the sushi section and I searched for tako! There was this really cheap one but the expiry date was today! x( Hey...I don't wanna have tummy upset cause it's cheap ya know? haha~~ So I skipped it. Well...after all, if I do get tummy upset cause of eating the cheap tako, the medical bills will be way more than what I bargained for =x
Next, we just went on to walk a little around IMM. Went into Mini Toons and that kinda reminded lingg of a suppossed real cute panda with blusher in one of the outlets she saw before. Then she went on to say she wanted to look for it. We then decided to try our luck at the vivo outlet ^^
Yippeeee~~~ More time for us to spend together! hehe ^^
Then we went back to the bus stop and took a bus to vivo. Initially we wanted to take the express bus that would, obviously as the name suggests, be way faster. But somehow...it never seemed to arrive, so we made do with another.
On the bus...for some REALLY ODD reason, I felt so freaking thirsty! So thirsty I could like maybe down the entire toilet bowl full of urine? :O Then the thirst got me really tired too :(
With that...I think I kinda dozed off =x While asleep, I could feel that someone was playing with my mouth! Hmm....must be the naughty lingg uhhhh xD She wants my saliva but doesn't dare to say it =p
Bus journey was pretty long, but we got there eventually. Lingg felt cold so I gave her my jacket, second time today haha =p I was freezing myself but meh, who cares? :O
We headed straight on to Mini Toons. Lingg searched and searched but didn't find what she was looking for. She looked really disappointed too and that made me sad :(
So I consoled her and stuff and finally found out that she was frowning cause she suddenly felt tired. Well kinda a relief too, cause I thought she was upset with something.
We then walked around hoping to see jeans that I might like. Browsed a couple of stores. Right...so this was the thing. The jeans with the right cutting I want doesn't have the material I'm looking for =.= ANDDDDD the jeans with the right material doesn't have the cutting I want AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That moment I so wanted to shout NOOOOOOOOOOOO and smooched lingg till she was on the floor :O
Well we ended up empty handed, since we were unable to get what we came for. We went up to the sky garden to enjoy the wind a little. Yeah...so much for wind. The air felt dead and it was so freaking humid...and hot. What a letdown :(
Despite that, me and lingg french kissed a little with people around xD WE WERE GROPING EACH OTHER'S BUTTS TOO WTH LOL!!!! =x *shy*
The heat kinda got uncomfortable so we decided to head back into the air-conditioned comfort of vivo mall. Still left with some time left, we decide to go take a look at the kawaii pups! Got there, looked around, and well...nothing much. Today's pups weren't exactly that cute =/ I miss the golden retriever we saw the last time :( It was a really beautiful creature ;D
In any case, by the time we were done, it was I believe....almost 9. I had to get back home by 10 so off we went to catch our bus.
At the interchange, lingg kept complaining about her contacts, which were apparently irritating her eyes. It kinda got so unbearable she decided to take them off, and for some reason, he fake lashes too :O
Waited a little longer and the but was ready to leave, we took the usual seats ^^
Oh oh oh oh ahhhhh and today, our bus ride home was really enjoyable. We practically chatted through the entire journey. Even by the time we got back to her area, we still had stuff to say. I almost forgot we've reached, I think lingg too xD hohoho~~
So yeah...I saw lingg back. As usual, she'd wait by the bus stop with me till my bus came :) We were hugging, kissing and um groping asses =x
My bus finally arrived, I gave lingg a final hug, a kiss and a whisper "I love you" ^^
Then I got on and lingg stood there waving at me till the bus drove off haha :) Of course, I got down to messaging lingg straight away! ;D
Reached home at 10:10 and I got straight down to eating. Well really hungry ya see =x Didn't take too long and yeah, here I am blogging after my meal :)
Right, so we didn't do much today, nothing special. Yet yet, this little nothing, accompanied with lingg beside me with that happy brilliance emanating from her, means a hell lot. This was a happy day too! Guess that explains the long post xD I remember everything! xD
Yeah you guessed right! It was a heart warming message from my little beloved hime asking if I was already awake xD I replied, then went on to wash up, take a bath and get changed. Once I was all done, I went down to take a bus to lingg's home.
Well I was intending to have my haircut today...wait no...it's hair TRIM :O But but since lingg requested going out today, heyyyyy can't say no to her hoho! ^^
Bused down and reached there at around 11:20? Went up and by the time lingg opened the door, it was 11:27. Perfect timing isn't it? heh! xD
Lingg opened the door and she was wrapped in cloth! LOL! *shy* hehe =p
Yeah so all that, after that she went back to prepare while I sat in her room while waiting for her. Didn't take too long before she came out and dragged me out to the door, signalling that she's done and we're ready to hit the road!
We took a bus to some place, god knows where, but it was pretty near her area. Then she told me we would be waiting for her mum there, it was kinda hot outside and so happens there was macdonalds behind us. Thus we decided to go in there to seek refuge with the airconditioned restaurant :)
Soon after, lingg's mum arrived and off we go to take the colour vision checkup at some clinic. There, after getting down all the particulars, lingg went into the doctor's room. Didn't take a minute or two and she was out =.= Like so fast....and it costs a damned 7 bucks =.="" Medical practitioners nowadays sure have good ways to leech money outta the people x(
Done with that, we were...well obviously way ahead of time since the checkup ended so insanely fast. We then decided to head down to Nanyang Polytechnic to finish up her withdrawal procedures.
Walked and walked to bukit batok station and into the train we go! Train ride was pretty long but we got there eventually. I led lingg and her mum to the student admissions office and they got down to the details. Yet again, the entire thing didn't take long, way faster than I had expected =x
Well pretty much just in time, so we trained back down to west mall. Since we'll be meeting lingg's sis there to have our lunch together. We alighted from the train and I saw my secondary school friend, part of my clique. Yeah haven't seen that little bastard in a long time and he sure is looking good, still surviving JC I guess =p
Once we were there, since it's gonna take awhile more before lingg's sister arrived, we headed on to a singtel outlet to browse at phones, since lingg wanted to change one. Went around looking but nothing caught her eye =p oh well....she was on a budget too, so that kinda got in her way of choices =/
With that, we headed into west mall and we saw this shop N save promotion thingy. Soooo lingg and her mum went to get some snacks, cup noodles and stuff. Here, there was this part where lingg was holding onto her stuff, striking a pose with one of her sexy legs out and started shaking LOL! It was hilarious xD Don't know what that was for but yeah xD funny hehe~~~
We then headed to the cinema and thought of catching a movie, dilly-dallied and in the end, decided we'd get the tickets after the meal haha~~
We then went on to swensen's for our meal. Little princess wanted her hearty breakfast xD We ordered our stuff, got the usual photo snapping and straight went our faces into the food! Hungry hungry~~~~
Lingg's sister came not long after and needed her mum to walk her in =.= Right, no offense but...ya already 15, surely it ain't that hard to tell the person that ya meeting someone inside =/ oh well...
The pasta serving was honestly pathetic and I was still starving xD Well...the food there was costly, I was on a budget so didn't dare to order anything more. Oh oh and lingg's scramble egg was pathetically small today too O.O she looked really disappointed =/
After we were done with our food, or well....most of us were. Lingg's sister then decided to go off....
So no offense again but to be honest, we went around and waited for you to do your stuff slowly and all you did was to run off once you were done with our charity =.= Ok, maybe not our charity, but her mum's charity. Kinda odd too...figured you'd spend an hour or so doing make-up just to come out and have a meal, then head back home....redundant isn't it? zzzzz
In any case...yeah after that once all of us were fully done with the meal, we went on to shop N save cause lingg's mum had something else to procure for the day. Shopped shopped and voila done! While in there, lingg was cold so I gave her my jacket =p
Right, not forgetting to mention that movie plans were pretty much screwed up and we didn't had anything else to do. Lingg's mum wanted to head home already to make dinner.
For me.....yeah to be honest I was really freaking tired but but but....I hardly have time out with lingg and now that we are, I don't wanna end the day so early :( So....then we chose to go on a date instead haha YAY! We walked a little to catch a bus to IMM, yeah our destination. Along the way, came up with this thing whereby if anything goes wrong, and lingg happens to be with me, I'd just shout NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO and give lingg thousands of smooches! xD hoho~~~
Got to IMM and went to Giant cause I wanted to source for those old packet seaweed. Didn't had much luck, so we just walked on to the seafood section. Then lingg was playing with the ice with a shovel O.O there was this old dude who walked pass her and was giving the WTF? face xD Funny hehe~~ SO cute UHHHHH!!!! :O
We then passed the sushi section and I searched for tako! There was this really cheap one but the expiry date was today! x( Hey...I don't wanna have tummy upset cause it's cheap ya know? haha~~ So I skipped it. Well...after all, if I do get tummy upset cause of eating the cheap tako, the medical bills will be way more than what I bargained for =x
Next, we just went on to walk a little around IMM. Went into Mini Toons and that kinda reminded lingg of a suppossed real cute panda with blusher in one of the outlets she saw before. Then she went on to say she wanted to look for it. We then decided to try our luck at the vivo outlet ^^
Yippeeee~~~ More time for us to spend together! hehe ^^
Then we went back to the bus stop and took a bus to vivo. Initially we wanted to take the express bus that would, obviously as the name suggests, be way faster. But somehow...it never seemed to arrive, so we made do with another.
On the bus...for some REALLY ODD reason, I felt so freaking thirsty! So thirsty I could like maybe down the entire toilet bowl full of urine? :O Then the thirst got me really tired too :(
With that...I think I kinda dozed off =x While asleep, I could feel that someone was playing with my mouth! Hmm....must be the naughty lingg uhhhh xD She wants my saliva but doesn't dare to say it =p
Bus journey was pretty long, but we got there eventually. Lingg felt cold so I gave her my jacket, second time today haha =p I was freezing myself but meh, who cares? :O
We headed straight on to Mini Toons. Lingg searched and searched but didn't find what she was looking for. She looked really disappointed too and that made me sad :(
So I consoled her and stuff and finally found out that she was frowning cause she suddenly felt tired. Well kinda a relief too, cause I thought she was upset with something.
We then walked around hoping to see jeans that I might like. Browsed a couple of stores. Right...so this was the thing. The jeans with the right cutting I want doesn't have the material I'm looking for =.= ANDDDDD the jeans with the right material doesn't have the cutting I want AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That moment I so wanted to shout NOOOOOOOOOOOO and smooched lingg till she was on the floor :O
Well we ended up empty handed, since we were unable to get what we came for. We went up to the sky garden to enjoy the wind a little. Yeah...so much for wind. The air felt dead and it was so freaking humid...and hot. What a letdown :(
Despite that, me and lingg french kissed a little with people around xD WE WERE GROPING EACH OTHER'S BUTTS TOO WTH LOL!!!! =x *shy*
The heat kinda got uncomfortable so we decided to head back into the air-conditioned comfort of vivo mall. Still left with some time left, we decide to go take a look at the kawaii pups! Got there, looked around, and well...nothing much. Today's pups weren't exactly that cute =/ I miss the golden retriever we saw the last time :( It was a really beautiful creature ;D
In any case, by the time we were done, it was I believe....almost 9. I had to get back home by 10 so off we went to catch our bus.
At the interchange, lingg kept complaining about her contacts, which were apparently irritating her eyes. It kinda got so unbearable she decided to take them off, and for some reason, he fake lashes too :O
Waited a little longer and the but was ready to leave, we took the usual seats ^^
Oh oh oh oh ahhhhh and today, our bus ride home was really enjoyable. We practically chatted through the entire journey. Even by the time we got back to her area, we still had stuff to say. I almost forgot we've reached, I think lingg too xD hohoho~~
So yeah...I saw lingg back. As usual, she'd wait by the bus stop with me till my bus came :) We were hugging, kissing and um groping asses =x
My bus finally arrived, I gave lingg a final hug, a kiss and a whisper "I love you" ^^
Then I got on and lingg stood there waving at me till the bus drove off haha :) Of course, I got down to messaging lingg straight away! ;D
Reached home at 10:10 and I got straight down to eating. Well really hungry ya see =x Didn't take too long and yeah, here I am blogging after my meal :)
Right, so we didn't do much today, nothing special. Yet yet, this little nothing, accompanied with lingg beside me with that happy brilliance emanating from her, means a hell lot. This was a happy day too! Guess that explains the long post xD I remember everything! xD
Tuesday, March 29, 2011, 11:53 PM
The next step
Well well, what do we have? ME!!!! LOL =x
Right, ya know, the way I see things. With all my blog posts, each and every one seemed like a seasoned essay, I feel like a writer! xD
Ooooh yeah a writer....pretty much so ain't it? I'm writing a love novel here after all xD To top things off, I have a partner writer too! Anddddd she's none other then my beloved girlfriend ----- linggg!!!!! hohoho~~ Be sure to read up her blog if you ever read mine =p Cause no love story ain't complete without the perceptions from both sides :)
Alright, little dreamies aside, let's see. I'll be blogging bout today. Hmm...so I woke up this afternoon at 1? All thanks to the handy alarm I set, or I'd probably have slept till god knows when =x Woke up earlier today cause lingg will be coming over :)
I opened my eyes, and the next instant sent a message to lingg to notify her of my AWAKENING MUAHAHAHA =x So I'd ask her if she was sliding on her tummy or flying around her room....and her answer was she was farting! Hot damn! Never knew she had a new addition! I'm missing so much goodness xD
After that, went on to wash up then walked to the dining table. Well at first glance there were like lotsa food there, so I expected one of it to be mine! Waking up to prepared lunch, awesome~~~ but I didn't touch it YET since when I was about to, lingg rang me up and told me she was already outside :O
LIKE WOW! She's real fast today o.o considering how slow she was yesterday xD So I went on to answer the door. I opened it and didn't see anyone, so I assumed she was well...trying to play hide n seek or something, so I thought to close the door instead xD Then on second thoughts....that was kinda mean :( I ended up opening the gate to check where she really was =p
Yeah, saw her standing by the lift lobby, she walked towards me and well...being the mischievious me, I shut the gate xD So she stood outside and I was on the other side. We were like staring and laughing ;D Well though it felt more like I was a convict behind bars and she was paying me a visit =x
In any case, didn't want my beloved gal to be hogging outside for too long, so I eventually opened the gate and showed her in :) off we went to my room!
As usual, you'd expect us to be crapping, laughing, chatting, smooching xD Damn these things we do never get old do they? ;D
Soon after, I got hungry so went out to check on the food on the table. It was then my dad told me my lunch wasn't there! D; Why? Cause the little something I wanted wasn't opened today! AHHH!!!!!! Sigh...left with no choice, I will have to get my lunch on my own =/
Lingg went on down with me :) We headed off to macdonalds and on the way I just couldn't stop ZIZU ZIZU lingg xD I got a doublecheese burger meal! Though this time, looks like their shaker fries promotion was off :( Oh well...
So got the stuff, threw in an extra apple pie for lingg and a strawberry sundae and off we went back home! I munched and munched ^^ While munching I was still ZIZU'ing lingg LOL! =x
After I was done, lingg started on her apple die. Then I remembered I haven't watched naruto for the last 2 weeks! Meant 2 episodes :O So yeah, I went on to watch it xD
Then then lingg was going CHILDISH! LOL!!! Aww c'mon, it's not that childish! I'm just young at heart mi'lady :)
Well...the annoying thing was this ponyo advertisement kept replaying again and again =.= God dammit I've already seen the ad once at the front, how many times ya gotta play that damn thing god....
After the little anime we went back to the usual stuff yeah xD Not much details here for you =p Oh and of course, we threw in huggies this round! hohoho~~
That was all done it was already 7.30. Then I had the itch to munch on snacks =x The ones I got the yesterday was mostly gone already =x So yeah, got permission to go down for a little food shopping and off we went! We got lotsa crap YEAH LOTSA CRAP TO STUFF MYSELF WITH WAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!
Paid up the stuff and off back we went. Along the way I saw this guy who squirted milk outta his damned nipples! Holy shit~~~~ That guy is already an expert in public crime....better hide my face x(
Hell so embarrasement aside, back we went. Put away all the tidbits nicely and back to my room to munch on those we have on hand! hehehehe~~~
Then lingg went on to stream Big Momma! So we munched as we watched the movie. Then came this part Big Momma was freaking dancing on the table, "she" slipped, fell over her back and broke the table in half LOL! I totally LMAO!!!!! Was ridiculously funny xD
Watched and watched, by the time it was done, I don't know 11 already? =p Along the show we were smooching too =x With chocolate in lingg's mouth at that! xD Cool eh? hohoho~~
Yeah after that we just chilled out abit and finished off the remaining snacks. Then it was 11.30. OH WAIT! Before going to the end, I must add that I have officially ended at least 2 dozen lives today. Not that I feel guilty.....but they were my tiny indian ants after all...they deserve a mention for their honorouble deaths for invading my private space. Rest In Peace my fellas!
ALright, so it was 11.30 and lingg had to go off, last bus soon ya know? haha~~ So I saw her down. At the bus stop, I was still hugging onto her, and we were PDA'ing xD
157 took a little longer today, but still came pretty fast. Lingg boarded it and as she went. She were still smiling, waving at each other! ^^ hehehe~~
Ya just gotta love this girl ya know? :)
So off she went, I watched as the bus went outta sight before heading back home. Blogging the minute I got back so lingg could read this as soon as possible. Considering she'd have to turn in earlier today for tomorrow's event.
Alright, adios amigo!
Right, ya know, the way I see things. With all my blog posts, each and every one seemed like a seasoned essay, I feel like a writer! xD
Ooooh yeah a writer....pretty much so ain't it? I'm writing a love novel here after all xD To top things off, I have a partner writer too! Anddddd she's none other then my beloved girlfriend ----- linggg!!!!! hohoho~~ Be sure to read up her blog if you ever read mine =p Cause no love story ain't complete without the perceptions from both sides :)
Alright, little dreamies aside, let's see. I'll be blogging bout today. Hmm...so I woke up this afternoon at 1? All thanks to the handy alarm I set, or I'd probably have slept till god knows when =x Woke up earlier today cause lingg will be coming over :)
I opened my eyes, and the next instant sent a message to lingg to notify her of my AWAKENING MUAHAHAHA =x So I'd ask her if she was sliding on her tummy or flying around her room....and her answer was she was farting! Hot damn! Never knew she had a new addition! I'm missing so much goodness xD
After that, went on to wash up then walked to the dining table. Well at first glance there were like lotsa food there, so I expected one of it to be mine! Waking up to prepared lunch, awesome~~~ but I didn't touch it YET since when I was about to, lingg rang me up and told me she was already outside :O
LIKE WOW! She's real fast today o.o considering how slow she was yesterday xD So I went on to answer the door. I opened it and didn't see anyone, so I assumed she was well...trying to play hide n seek or something, so I thought to close the door instead xD Then on second thoughts....that was kinda mean :( I ended up opening the gate to check where she really was =p
Yeah, saw her standing by the lift lobby, she walked towards me and well...being the mischievious me, I shut the gate xD So she stood outside and I was on the other side. We were like staring and laughing ;D Well though it felt more like I was a convict behind bars and she was paying me a visit =x
In any case, didn't want my beloved gal to be hogging outside for too long, so I eventually opened the gate and showed her in :) off we went to my room!
As usual, you'd expect us to be crapping, laughing, chatting, smooching xD Damn these things we do never get old do they? ;D
Soon after, I got hungry so went out to check on the food on the table. It was then my dad told me my lunch wasn't there! D; Why? Cause the little something I wanted wasn't opened today! AHHH!!!!!! Sigh...left with no choice, I will have to get my lunch on my own =/
Lingg went on down with me :) We headed off to macdonalds and on the way I just couldn't stop ZIZU ZIZU lingg xD I got a doublecheese burger meal! Though this time, looks like their shaker fries promotion was off :( Oh well...
So got the stuff, threw in an extra apple pie for lingg and a strawberry sundae and off we went back home! I munched and munched ^^ While munching I was still ZIZU'ing lingg LOL! =x
After I was done, lingg started on her apple die. Then I remembered I haven't watched naruto for the last 2 weeks! Meant 2 episodes :O So yeah, I went on to watch it xD
Then then lingg was going CHILDISH! LOL!!! Aww c'mon, it's not that childish! I'm just young at heart mi'lady :)
Well...the annoying thing was this ponyo advertisement kept replaying again and again =.= God dammit I've already seen the ad once at the front, how many times ya gotta play that damn thing god....
After the little anime we went back to the usual stuff yeah xD Not much details here for you =p Oh and of course, we threw in huggies this round! hohoho~~
That was all done it was already 7.30. Then I had the itch to munch on snacks =x The ones I got the yesterday was mostly gone already =x So yeah, got permission to go down for a little food shopping and off we went! We got lotsa crap YEAH LOTSA CRAP TO STUFF MYSELF WITH WAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!
Paid up the stuff and off back we went. Along the way I saw this guy who squirted milk outta his damned nipples! Holy shit~~~~ That guy is already an expert in public crime....better hide my face x(
Hell so embarrasement aside, back we went. Put away all the tidbits nicely and back to my room to munch on those we have on hand! hehehehe~~~
Then lingg went on to stream Big Momma! So we munched as we watched the movie. Then came this part Big Momma was freaking dancing on the table, "she" slipped, fell over her back and broke the table in half LOL! I totally LMAO!!!!! Was ridiculously funny xD
Watched and watched, by the time it was done, I don't know 11 already? =p Along the show we were smooching too =x With chocolate in lingg's mouth at that! xD Cool eh? hohoho~~
Yeah after that we just chilled out abit and finished off the remaining snacks. Then it was 11.30. OH WAIT! Before going to the end, I must add that I have officially ended at least 2 dozen lives today. Not that I feel guilty.....but they were my tiny indian ants after all...they deserve a mention for their honorouble deaths for invading my private space. Rest In Peace my fellas!
ALright, so it was 11.30 and lingg had to go off, last bus soon ya know? haha~~ So I saw her down. At the bus stop, I was still hugging onto her, and we were PDA'ing xD
157 took a little longer today, but still came pretty fast. Lingg boarded it and as she went. She were still smiling, waving at each other! ^^ hehehe~~
Ya just gotta love this girl ya know? :)
So off she went, I watched as the bus went outta sight before heading back home. Blogging the minute I got back so lingg could read this as soon as possible. Considering she'd have to turn in earlier today for tomorrow's event.
Alright, adios amigo!
A fresh start~
OooOOOoooo so I haven't blogged for so many days, and I don't really know how to start =/ Well not because I was lazy, but...circumstances hasn't been too friendly to me the pass few days. Life and internet, especially the internet, never fails to piss me off once in awhile =.=
So what happened to my internet? Hmm...ask that to singtel, god knows what they do on their side to screw things up so much. Maybe a line or two loose =.=
Yeah, and cause of that, my connection apparently shows I am freaking connected but I can't load a single web page or even go onto msn for whatever reason lol...really odd. This happened a few times already, and each time it is solved after a few technicians made a trip down. The last time it took 3 trips of those boons to solve the problem, now it's back zzzzz D;
Alright, enough of my internet rant. Better get back to topic and blog about the important stuff before the damn thing dies on me again :( Sooooo to start, let's see, oh yeah I'll start with 24th March. Does 24th ring any bells? Well to any avid stalkers out there of my blog, you should know then, 24th is the date me and my love began writing our story. Well....OFFICIALLY started writing our story xD We started writing a long way back ya know? =p
Yeah! 24th March, that was our anniversary, well....1st month anniversary to be exact! =p Lingg, that silly girl actually thought I forgot about it xD Well I didn't...just kinda mixed the days up arararara =/ ALRIGHT I KNOW I'M SILLY TOO! D; Well...that's what makes us a silly couple right? xD
Haha yeah...so let's get down to what we did on that day. Well, I went on to lingg's house real early in the morning, got there at around 8? Then I went to macs to get big breakfast cause...yet again, I was expecting to miss lunch xD
So we slept and slept after my meal till god knows what time.... I think I woke at 3.30? Lingg woke earlier cause she had to do her make-up =p OK! Leeway for her, let her look the way she wants since it's our anniversary xD Though I think she's more beautiful without it ehehehehe xD Or maybe I just appreciate her natural beauty? =x
Hmm....after her preps, we went out to take a bus at around 4? Well the plan for the day was to eat at Nihon Mura at The Cathay since lingg really likes that restaurant =p And and after that, we'd catch World Invasion. Always wanted to catch it, but didn't really had the time, and of course...I didn't know if lingg would watch it with me :( But she agreed ohhohohohohoho =D
Somehow the journey was pretty slow and we arrived a little short of the time we expected to be there. Either way, we went on to grab the tickets first! No student price! D; Cause after 5 araraararara!!!! What a waste xD
Then after that, we went down to the basement for dinner at Nihon Mura! We ordered lotsa food. Or or or, I think...I ordered the majority =x Hey what can I say? The last time I was here I only had like a bowl of ramen? Had to make up for it right? xD So we picked our food and went back to our seats! Didn't take long for our food to arrive since the place was pretty empty. Not peak hour yet I guess =/
Then then as usual, lingg would fish out her camera and start snapping away! This time, not only our food, but us too! She uh! Always secretly snap photos of me ehehehe I'm so shy ooOoOoOOOooo xD
Right, so we ate and ate. Oh oh oh and I ordered this salmon belly thingy. Never tried it before and was expecting it to taste different from your usual sashimi, but...oh well to my dismay...it tasted exactly like any salmon sashimi....so much for salmon belly LOL! Either way, I gobbled up my food real quick and lingg was complaining why I ate so fast! Well...can't be helped, that's my normal speed xD Yum yum~~~~
Then waited for lingg to slowly savour her food ohoho~~~ Then....................that little lingoo will start mixing all the stuff together =x End product looked like some kinda vomit xD So playful right? Next time should buy her all these little ingredients let her slowly mix at home hehe~~ Then get her a toy kitchen with the toy cutlery. There we have it, our very own baby chef! Baby hime linggg!!!! OOohhhh nice idea isn't it? hehe~~~
After the mixing session, was around 6.30? Time to head up for the movie! We paid the bill first at a whopping 50 bucks =x Right, kinda overspent there xD We checked in and down we sat. Sadly....the seats weren't couple seats :( I wanted to hug lingg! Oh well =/
So we watched and watched. Ya know, I really enjoyed the movie. Honestly, it's one of the best military sci-fi films I have ever watched. And of course, can't forget the soundtrack that went along with the film, t'was perfect! Really matched the atmosphere! Well, worth my money although we didn't had student prices for the ticket, it's good :)
Show was pretty tense throughout, and kinda saddening too...I mean I could imagine myself in a warzone, and seeing your buddies pass on one by one....ya know? sobs sobs :(
Right, so after the movie was done, yeah I was freezing! I wanted to get mochi!!!! MOCHI MOCHI!!!!! So lingg suggested we head down to search carrefour at plaza sing. Searched high and low, lingg took the low one while I took the high one =p Well.....end result? NOTHING D; No mochi!!!! I was so sad arararara :( After that, it was around 8 odd? nearly 9. So then we decided to head back :)
So tonight, since it's our anniversary, I shall be staying over with her :) Got back, can't really remember what we did...OH!! Yeah she made me learn my japanese since I have been slacking off xD Then then after learning for a little while, I got distracted and started doodling! OHOHO I drew this really odd thing. Looks nice, but I have no idea what it was =x cool eh? I'd show you what I drew, but kinda lazy to resize and host the picture up =x Sooooo too bad for ya!
Then lingg wanted to "test" me =/ Well...yeah did a final revision cause I wasn't confident enough! If fail....later lingg rape me how!!??? D; ok, so finally I finished the "test', 42/46 okok ahh!!! Still A ;D Right, after that I don't really remember what else we did, all the usual playing and smooching I guess =p AND OFF TO BED!!! LOL! Sleep sleep~~ Next day....well I shan't talk about that....just really shit filled nothing to talk about yeah =p
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SO!!! Skipping the shit filled part which....of course, made me real upset, broken.... Came to this part where lingg, who was really worried about me....but yeah I wouldn't tell her where I was cause I didn't wanna meet her...I was just...bah =/
So then...she told me she would be waiting at the swing area near her house, and she won't leave till I'm there. Stubborn girl ain't she? :) Well...didn't had a choice, I can't possibly leave my beloved girlfriend out there cold and alone. I did that once...and I will not do it again.
So I went to look for her. For some reason, she didn't see me till I was really close, maybe her eyes were closed? =/ Yeah so she was swinging...then when she saw me, she stopped. Jumped off the swing, ran towards me and hugged mee.... :O I hugged her too.
Well yeah PDA'ing in front of thousands of little indian ants wasn't exactly my idea of romantic, so I suggested we go to a nearby bench instead :) There, we just hugged, and maybe did a little kissing? LOL =x
Then I felt hungry, cause I haven't eaten. So went on to west mall, hoping to get mochi! Searched and searched and nothing! sigh......so decide to drop by old chang kee instead. Guess what? Nothing much left!!! AHHH!!!!! Sigh...so no choice, go back to lingg's area with an empty stomach.
Then lingg wanted to eat the fish burger thingy, I was hungry too, so we went on to grab it :) After that lingg walked real fast and suddenly popped into 7-11 to get slurpee o.o Right, so done with the little stuff, we went back to lingg's house. Overnight again =x
Since I didn't really had anywhere else to go =/ I just laid down on her bed and somehow fell asleep. I don't know why, my whole body just shut down when I laid down on her bed :( I guess I was just exhausted with all that has happened recently =/
Woke up at around 3? Maybe cause my tummy was hungry. Then I remembered my fish burger! Luckily there was still food, so yeah I gobbled it down xD After that, we smooched a little~~~~~ And and off we go to sleep! Snore snore snore~~~
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Next day, I went back pretty early in the morning at 11 odd. Shan't go into detail why so, cause it's just all sadness, the rest of the day was. So I'll just leave it at that.
So skipping it, let's move on to Monday, which is today :) So the previous day....suppossedly, it was to have been the end of the story we were writing. Well...cause I was outta options, there was nothing left I could do, I was totally defeated. But lingg, lingg actually suggested an option I thought, but never considered, cause it might involve tiring her :(
So with that, we decide we would give it a shot! That brings us to today. I woke up at....um 2:45? Right well...cause I slept real late with lingg. Phone was dead when I woke, so I plugged in the charger and went it came back to live, there were tons of miss calls and messages. From who? Well, anyone would have guessed xD It's my beloved lingg!!!! ;D
Now she wanted to come over, but I woke up late...so ummmm yeah scrap that xD My dad then came into my room, gave me 50 bucks, told me to grab a bite at jurong point and maybe stock up on some snacks for the next few days since I can't go out much =/
Right yeah, so jurong point it is then! That will be our meeting place for today :) Yeah lingg was real late, no idea what she was doing back home xD When I called her at 4 she was still flying around her room O.O Don't ask me how, I'm curious too. When she wakes, she will slide all around her bed on her tummy, then after that somehow....start flying o.o I'd love to see how all that is done...but uh....well don't think she'd show it to me :( She even denied doing those D;
Either way, she finally reached jurong point at 4.40? Then we went on to pepper lunch for my lunch...yeah lunch at near 5 xD So ordered and makan makan!!! After my meal lingg was there again playing with the food O.O LOL!
Oh and lingg won't let me look at her sexy legs! D;
After failing to see her legs, we went on to fairprice for tidbits! I got umumumumum MOCHI! OMG MOCHI WE FINALLY FOUND MOCHI! DAMN I LOVE JURONG POINT WHO DOESN'T???!!!!! And...hmm pringles? Seaweed flavoured o.o and and and a packet of fried seaweed and I got some tako too! And lingg was playing with the ice at the seafood section. So kind of her to bury the dead clam......IN ICE! :D
Then went to pay for the stuff oh WAIT I forgot I got chupa candies too! hehehehe xD So after paying, went to get crispy chicken!!!!! We had some time left, so took a walk around jurong point. 6.30 came, and it was time to head back. Got back to my doorstep, I went in first to put down the groceries then went back out.
Me and lingg then went downstairs to the nearby playground. And we just sat there, talking about everything! Or rather, we were just crapping and PDA'ing =x
So let's see. Right so expected us to be there, so I da'bao'ed a packet of char siew earlier today and hid it at the playground. Hmm...I already had my dinner so I offered it to lingg, lingg wouldn't eat it either D; So it was just left there to rot :( Then there was this indie baby kid that came along, saw some plastic shit on the floor, picked it up and I think almost ate it o.o But her indie dad came to the rescue!!!! Indies can be noble ok!? :)
Then after a huge circle of waddling around, the kid found my char siew! She toddled towards it like some gorilla, she was nearly there, it was at arm's reach! THEN!!!! INDIE PAPA FLEW OUT FROM NOWHERE AND GRABBED HER!! D; Then the kid was like...NOOOOO MY CHAR SIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT THE CHAR SIEW!!!! PAPA!!! YOU DON'T LET ME EAT PLASTIC MUST LET ME TASTE THE STROFOAM AND CHAR SIEW!!! AHHH!!! NOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then she disappeared...poor thing. So near yet so far
:( Yeah so we went on to um PDA? xD
Then then lingg stole my slippers and took photos of it xD CUTE RIGHT?!! HOHO~~~~ Oh then there were this whole group of peeps playing catching at their age, they look 18~2x? So there was this...um person? Who looked neither guy nor girl =.= It was only through her voice did we know IT was a SHE LOL! =x
Oh and there was this other guy trying to chase this girl. The girl climbed onto the slide and jumped off long before the guy came. And and and for some unknown reason, the guy still try act cool climb onto the slide =.= Like fail you know? LOL!! You wanna act also find a better reason to act uhhhhh!!! No one there already still act.... aiyohyoyo~~~~
After that we started PDA'ing again =x It's getting kinda outta hand xD She touched my butty ah!!!! I touch hers uhh of course, revenge ya know? xD Then then everytime pretend push me then purposely attack my pebble! So naughty right? :O Not fair ah! I can't!!!! x(
After a huge row of kissing, we saw this ah peh! He looked like in his late 40s maybe early 50s? Then he was walking so damn slow he looked like a zombie O.O Like maybe 1cm per step? =/ Yeah seems like he was taking forever to get somewhere it was so damn hilarious. Then when we weren't looking, he on hack fast forward uh!!! CHEAT!!!!! :(
Oh oh oh and did I mention, luckily today no bloodshed. Cause not much kids around. No explosion, no cannibalism, no floor licking and no brangras running all over the place half naked, bearing their amazon rainforest chest, with their tougues sticking out chasing kids =x Phew =/ Or else would have scared lingg half dead :(
So so so so so after that, was 8:45? I had to head back home, so I saw lingg to her bus-stop. 157 came pretty fast today and off she went :O We were still staring at each other and waving :)
So that was the end of today. It was short, nothing much, nothing special....but but but I felt so happy :O And lingg told me she was too, and yeah...I really felt the genuine happiness emanating from her heart like she used to. I felt it...and it was really good.
Somehow, it seems like we were back to the old times :) I never thought that feeling would ever come back...but it did :) It's here again! I'm so happy ;D So like lingg said, after a big round of running in circles, we're back to where we were :) back to the happy times :) Although we can't meet as much now, but yet....we still feel happy :)
Lingg, I hope you'll be happy as you are right now :) I know I am! Let us both keep the smiles alive for each other ok!?
And and and...lingg!!!
I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love you lingg!!!!!!!! :)
This shall be a brand new start, a fresh start~~ for the cute couple, silly couple, tiko pehbu and and and....um can't remember! xD
So what happened to my internet? Hmm...ask that to singtel, god knows what they do on their side to screw things up so much. Maybe a line or two loose =.=
Yeah, and cause of that, my connection apparently shows I am freaking connected but I can't load a single web page or even go onto msn for whatever reason lol...really odd. This happened a few times already, and each time it is solved after a few technicians made a trip down. The last time it took 3 trips of those boons to solve the problem, now it's back zzzzz D;
Alright, enough of my internet rant. Better get back to topic and blog about the important stuff before the damn thing dies on me again :( Sooooo to start, let's see, oh yeah I'll start with 24th March. Does 24th ring any bells? Well to any avid stalkers out there of my blog, you should know then, 24th is the date me and my love began writing our story. Well....OFFICIALLY started writing our story xD We started writing a long way back ya know? =p
Yeah! 24th March, that was our anniversary, well....1st month anniversary to be exact! =p Lingg, that silly girl actually thought I forgot about it xD Well I didn't...just kinda mixed the days up arararara =/ ALRIGHT I KNOW I'M SILLY TOO! D; Well...that's what makes us a silly couple right? xD
Haha yeah...so let's get down to what we did on that day. Well, I went on to lingg's house real early in the morning, got there at around 8? Then I went to macs to get big breakfast cause...yet again, I was expecting to miss lunch xD
So we slept and slept after my meal till god knows what time.... I think I woke at 3.30? Lingg woke earlier cause she had to do her make-up =p OK! Leeway for her, let her look the way she wants since it's our anniversary xD Though I think she's more beautiful without it ehehehehe xD Or maybe I just appreciate her natural beauty? =x
Hmm....after her preps, we went out to take a bus at around 4? Well the plan for the day was to eat at Nihon Mura at The Cathay since lingg really likes that restaurant =p And and after that, we'd catch World Invasion. Always wanted to catch it, but didn't really had the time, and of course...I didn't know if lingg would watch it with me :( But she agreed ohhohohohohoho =D
Somehow the journey was pretty slow and we arrived a little short of the time we expected to be there. Either way, we went on to grab the tickets first! No student price! D; Cause after 5 araraararara!!!! What a waste xD
Then after that, we went down to the basement for dinner at Nihon Mura! We ordered lotsa food. Or or or, I think...I ordered the majority =x Hey what can I say? The last time I was here I only had like a bowl of ramen? Had to make up for it right? xD So we picked our food and went back to our seats! Didn't take long for our food to arrive since the place was pretty empty. Not peak hour yet I guess =/
Then then as usual, lingg would fish out her camera and start snapping away! This time, not only our food, but us too! She uh! Always secretly snap photos of me ehehehe I'm so shy ooOoOoOOOooo xD
Right, so we ate and ate. Oh oh oh and I ordered this salmon belly thingy. Never tried it before and was expecting it to taste different from your usual sashimi, but...oh well to my dismay...it tasted exactly like any salmon sashimi....so much for salmon belly LOL! Either way, I gobbled up my food real quick and lingg was complaining why I ate so fast! Well...can't be helped, that's my normal speed xD Yum yum~~~~
Then waited for lingg to slowly savour her food ohoho~~~ Then....................that little lingoo will start mixing all the stuff together =x End product looked like some kinda vomit xD So playful right? Next time should buy her all these little ingredients let her slowly mix at home hehe~~ Then get her a toy kitchen with the toy cutlery. There we have it, our very own baby chef! Baby hime linggg!!!! OOohhhh nice idea isn't it? hehe~~~
After the mixing session, was around 6.30? Time to head up for the movie! We paid the bill first at a whopping 50 bucks =x Right, kinda overspent there xD We checked in and down we sat. Sadly....the seats weren't couple seats :( I wanted to hug lingg! Oh well =/
So we watched and watched. Ya know, I really enjoyed the movie. Honestly, it's one of the best military sci-fi films I have ever watched. And of course, can't forget the soundtrack that went along with the film, t'was perfect! Really matched the atmosphere! Well, worth my money although we didn't had student prices for the ticket, it's good :)
Show was pretty tense throughout, and kinda saddening too...I mean I could imagine myself in a warzone, and seeing your buddies pass on one by one....ya know? sobs sobs :(
Right, so after the movie was done, yeah I was freezing! I wanted to get mochi!!!! MOCHI MOCHI!!!!! So lingg suggested we head down to search carrefour at plaza sing. Searched high and low, lingg took the low one while I took the high one =p Well.....end result? NOTHING D; No mochi!!!! I was so sad arararara :( After that, it was around 8 odd? nearly 9. So then we decided to head back :)
So tonight, since it's our anniversary, I shall be staying over with her :) Got back, can't really remember what we did...OH!! Yeah she made me learn my japanese since I have been slacking off xD Then then after learning for a little while, I got distracted and started doodling! OHOHO I drew this really odd thing. Looks nice, but I have no idea what it was =x cool eh? I'd show you what I drew, but kinda lazy to resize and host the picture up =x Sooooo too bad for ya!
Then lingg wanted to "test" me =/ Well...yeah did a final revision cause I wasn't confident enough! If fail....later lingg rape me how!!??? D; ok, so finally I finished the "test', 42/46 okok ahh!!! Still A ;D Right, after that I don't really remember what else we did, all the usual playing and smooching I guess =p AND OFF TO BED!!! LOL! Sleep sleep~~ Next day....well I shan't talk about that....just really shit filled nothing to talk about yeah =p
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SO!!! Skipping the shit filled part which....of course, made me real upset, broken.... Came to this part where lingg, who was really worried about me....but yeah I wouldn't tell her where I was cause I didn't wanna meet her...I was just...bah =/
So then...she told me she would be waiting at the swing area near her house, and she won't leave till I'm there. Stubborn girl ain't she? :) Well...didn't had a choice, I can't possibly leave my beloved girlfriend out there cold and alone. I did that once...and I will not do it again.
So I went to look for her. For some reason, she didn't see me till I was really close, maybe her eyes were closed? =/ Yeah so she was swinging...then when she saw me, she stopped. Jumped off the swing, ran towards me and hugged mee.... :O I hugged her too.
Well yeah PDA'ing in front of thousands of little indian ants wasn't exactly my idea of romantic, so I suggested we go to a nearby bench instead :) There, we just hugged, and maybe did a little kissing? LOL =x
Then I felt hungry, cause I haven't eaten. So went on to west mall, hoping to get mochi! Searched and searched and nothing! sigh......so decide to drop by old chang kee instead. Guess what? Nothing much left!!! AHHH!!!!! Sigh...so no choice, go back to lingg's area with an empty stomach.
Then lingg wanted to eat the fish burger thingy, I was hungry too, so we went on to grab it :) After that lingg walked real fast and suddenly popped into 7-11 to get slurpee o.o Right, so done with the little stuff, we went back to lingg's house. Overnight again =x
Since I didn't really had anywhere else to go =/ I just laid down on her bed and somehow fell asleep. I don't know why, my whole body just shut down when I laid down on her bed :( I guess I was just exhausted with all that has happened recently =/
Woke up at around 3? Maybe cause my tummy was hungry. Then I remembered my fish burger! Luckily there was still food, so yeah I gobbled it down xD After that, we smooched a little~~~~~ And and off we go to sleep! Snore snore snore~~~
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Next day, I went back pretty early in the morning at 11 odd. Shan't go into detail why so, cause it's just all sadness, the rest of the day was. So I'll just leave it at that.
So skipping it, let's move on to Monday, which is today :) So the previous day....suppossedly, it was to have been the end of the story we were writing. Well...cause I was outta options, there was nothing left I could do, I was totally defeated. But lingg, lingg actually suggested an option I thought, but never considered, cause it might involve tiring her :(
So with that, we decide we would give it a shot! That brings us to today. I woke up at....um 2:45? Right well...cause I slept real late with lingg. Phone was dead when I woke, so I plugged in the charger and went it came back to live, there were tons of miss calls and messages. From who? Well, anyone would have guessed xD It's my beloved lingg!!!! ;D
Now she wanted to come over, but I woke up late...so ummmm yeah scrap that xD My dad then came into my room, gave me 50 bucks, told me to grab a bite at jurong point and maybe stock up on some snacks for the next few days since I can't go out much =/
Right yeah, so jurong point it is then! That will be our meeting place for today :) Yeah lingg was real late, no idea what she was doing back home xD When I called her at 4 she was still flying around her room O.O Don't ask me how, I'm curious too. When she wakes, she will slide all around her bed on her tummy, then after that somehow....start flying o.o I'd love to see how all that is done...but uh....well don't think she'd show it to me :( She even denied doing those D;
Either way, she finally reached jurong point at 4.40? Then we went on to pepper lunch for my lunch...yeah lunch at near 5 xD So ordered and makan makan!!! After my meal lingg was there again playing with the food O.O LOL!
Oh and lingg won't let me look at her sexy legs! D;
After failing to see her legs, we went on to fairprice for tidbits! I got umumumumum MOCHI! OMG MOCHI WE FINALLY FOUND MOCHI! DAMN I LOVE JURONG POINT WHO DOESN'T???!!!!! And...hmm pringles? Seaweed flavoured o.o and and and a packet of fried seaweed and I got some tako too! And lingg was playing with the ice at the seafood section. So kind of her to bury the dead clam......IN ICE! :D
Then went to pay for the stuff oh WAIT I forgot I got chupa candies too! hehehehe xD So after paying, went to get crispy chicken!!!!! We had some time left, so took a walk around jurong point. 6.30 came, and it was time to head back. Got back to my doorstep, I went in first to put down the groceries then went back out.
Me and lingg then went downstairs to the nearby playground. And we just sat there, talking about everything! Or rather, we were just crapping and PDA'ing =x
So let's see. Right so expected us to be there, so I da'bao'ed a packet of char siew earlier today and hid it at the playground. Hmm...I already had my dinner so I offered it to lingg, lingg wouldn't eat it either D; So it was just left there to rot :( Then there was this indie baby kid that came along, saw some plastic shit on the floor, picked it up and I think almost ate it o.o But her indie dad came to the rescue!!!! Indies can be noble ok!? :)
Then after a huge circle of waddling around, the kid found my char siew! She toddled towards it like some gorilla, she was nearly there, it was at arm's reach! THEN!!!! INDIE PAPA FLEW OUT FROM NOWHERE AND GRABBED HER!! D; Then the kid was like...NOOOOO MY CHAR SIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT THE CHAR SIEW!!!! PAPA!!! YOU DON'T LET ME EAT PLASTIC MUST LET ME TASTE THE STROFOAM AND CHAR SIEW!!! AHHH!!! NOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then she disappeared...poor thing. So near yet so far
:( Yeah so we went on to um PDA? xD
Then then lingg stole my slippers and took photos of it xD CUTE RIGHT?!! HOHO~~~~ Oh then there were this whole group of peeps playing catching at their age, they look 18~2x? So there was this...um person? Who looked neither guy nor girl =.= It was only through her voice did we know IT was a SHE LOL! =x
Oh and there was this other guy trying to chase this girl. The girl climbed onto the slide and jumped off long before the guy came. And and and for some unknown reason, the guy still try act cool climb onto the slide =.= Like fail you know? LOL!! You wanna act also find a better reason to act uhhhhh!!! No one there already still act.... aiyohyoyo~~~~
After that we started PDA'ing again =x It's getting kinda outta hand xD She touched my butty ah!!!! I touch hers uhh of course, revenge ya know? xD Then then everytime pretend push me then purposely attack my pebble! So naughty right? :O Not fair ah! I can't!!!! x(
After a huge row of kissing, we saw this ah peh! He looked like in his late 40s maybe early 50s? Then he was walking so damn slow he looked like a zombie O.O Like maybe 1cm per step? =/ Yeah seems like he was taking forever to get somewhere it was so damn hilarious. Then when we weren't looking, he on hack fast forward uh!!! CHEAT!!!!! :(
Oh oh oh and did I mention, luckily today no bloodshed. Cause not much kids around. No explosion, no cannibalism, no floor licking and no brangras running all over the place half naked, bearing their amazon rainforest chest, with their tougues sticking out chasing kids =x Phew =/ Or else would have scared lingg half dead :(
So so so so so after that, was 8:45? I had to head back home, so I saw lingg to her bus-stop. 157 came pretty fast today and off she went :O We were still staring at each other and waving :)
So that was the end of today. It was short, nothing much, nothing special....but but but I felt so happy :O And lingg told me she was too, and yeah...I really felt the genuine happiness emanating from her heart like she used to. I felt it...and it was really good.
Somehow, it seems like we were back to the old times :) I never thought that feeling would ever come back...but it did :) It's here again! I'm so happy ;D So like lingg said, after a big round of running in circles, we're back to where we were :) back to the happy times :) Although we can't meet as much now, but yet....we still feel happy :)
Lingg, I hope you'll be happy as you are right now :) I know I am! Let us both keep the smiles alive for each other ok!?
And and and...lingg!!!
I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love you lingg!!!!!!!! :)
This shall be a brand new start, a fresh start~~ for the cute couple, silly couple, tiko pehbu and and and....um can't remember! xD
Thursday, March 24, 2011, 12:55 AM
Mash-up!
Ohhrighty, wednesday...oh wait...it's 1 in the morning now, so that means it's thursday :O In any case, I'll be blogging events till wednesday since thursday hasn't actually really begun yet, means that won't make much of a difference there =p
Let's see, we'll start with Monday, continuing from the Sunday post.
Right...so on Monday, there wasn't much going on. I woke at 2 in the afternoon? Then I turned on my com and did the usual stuff of lunch, washing up etc etc. Didn't go over to lingg's today, well I mean I just got "grounded" not too long ago and I don't wanna be running off too many days in a row at the start =x
So after waking up...hmm can't recall what I had for lunch. Then then I went online to talk to lingg on msn. She then initiated video calls. Here the frustration comes :(
I can't freaking click on the accept button! Cause it's freaking greyed out! So lingg kept spamming, and well on my side, I spammed too. I spammed click the greyed button. After tons of tries, the video call still couldn't get through =.=""
Then after that lingg initiated a voice call instead. Well that worked o.o So I suspected my webcam to be faulty. When to tweak some settings. I don't even really know what I did, then the next time lingg initiated the video call, it FREAKING worked :O But but but her screen was black =.= She was covering the camera lens. So she could see me, but I can't see her! UNFAIR!! x( So so so so to even things out....I closed mine too! xD
So 2 black screens =x So much for video call. Then then we were like going on about who should let go of the camera lens first. Went on for awhile and eventually we were cleared of it lol~~ Can't remember who let go first xD Lingg was then playing her PS2. She was also typing in the chat box when she could just speak to me o.o odd girl =p
This went on for I don't know how long, then I think at 5 odd, I received a call from my grandma asking me to go over to help her carry some stuff to my house. Since she wanted to see both me and my sister, and knowing my sister, her ass won't move the moment she sits LOL!
Yeah, so we ended the video call and off I went to my grandma's house. She tricked me uh! When I got there, she was still cooking xD Then she said she misses me AHAHAHA =x Well by the time she was done, there was a hell lotta food on the table. We'll all die finishing them =/
So went back over at 7 odd? Then I tried to get back online. Something more frustrating happened here, my internet wouldn't work!!!! I went on to try and work things out but but but ARGH!!!! The settings showed I am connected but I can't access the web or log onto msn at all :(
I tried and tried for about nearly an hour odd? Then I gave up, I was really on the verge of tearing my hair out, I will be hage then o.o
Right yeah, the internet still wouldn't work when i tried again at 11 odd zzzzzzz =.= So no choice, I can't go onto msn, and I can't blog either sigh x(
Went to bed pretty early cause I will be going to lingg's house dead early in the morning haha ^^ Missed her :O
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Woke up at 6 odd? Washed up, prepared, then went to macs for big breakfast! After I was done with my meal, I messaged lingg to ask if she wanted big breakfast as well. I then went on to wait for about half an hour for lingg's reply. It never came =/ It was 8 then, so I just headed down to lingg's.
Reached there at 8.40? Went in with her, then she prepared the bed for me ohohoho =D
I was pretty tired, admittedly =x Slept only 3 hours? Then lingg wanted to play I think ahahaha xD I was reluctant at first, didn't had much energy =/ Then lingg stopped :O I sensed something was wrong so I was like, ah hell let's go LOL! I climbed up and yeah we smooched xD After I don't know how long, I think it was lingg's turn to get tired, cause she asked if I wanted to sleep xD I wasn't sleepy then, but since she was, let's sleep! =p
Right so slept and slept till I don't know what time, lingg then woke me up o.o We did something I don't know what xD for less than 15 minutes or so? Then lingg went on to prepare LOL. As for me, I dropped back down to sleep.
Prepare for? I hear you ask? Well the itinery for the day was to go collect lingg's O level certificate then head down to ngee ann poly for her enrolment package and finally, to her uncle's house to get the memory card for the PS2. Oh oh oh and she wore the new panda hoody today!!! ;D
So first we headed down to baboon vista for her certificate. Was pretty fast. Went in, got a queue number, collect her cert and we were done o.o We then left astala vista by train and back to west mall. Since we didn't know any buses from bibibobo vista that would take us directly to ngee ann poly. Well, we do know there were buses from west mall, so back we went xD
Took 61 from west mall and off we went to ngee ann. Block 1 was easy to find, since it was at the entrance. Then lingg was commenting how it looked like a hospital =x yeah it kinda does lololol~~~
So went in, collected her enrolment package and yeah, real fast we were done too o.o By then it was only 4 odd? Next destination was her uncle's house. We didn't wanna bus back to west mall AGAIN so lingg decided to walk along. Along the way, we saw this food market thingy and lingg was like telling me the food there was good, those stalls with newspapers xD If it isn't good? Lingg will have to let me put my arm into her panda pocket! xD
Went there, walked round and round and round and the only store with newspapers pasted in them was one selling beancurd =/ SO LING LOSSTTTT MKUAHAHAHA POCKET HERE I COME!!!
So we walked with my arm in her panda hoodie pocket. Likeaaaaa weird and funny! xD When we got to the bus stop, the bus we had to take was there! So I suggested we make a run for it. I wanted to pass lingg the stuff so I could catch it but then she ran off first xD So I tagged behind. We missed the bus ohohohohoohoho xD
No choice, gotta wait for the next. So we took a sit and I put my arm in her pocket again ehheeheh~~~~ Didn't take long for the next bus to come and then lingg stood up, pulling my arm and me along. Was like so weird LOL! Bet people were watching and going WTF is that couple doing?? xD
Sooooo we took the bus and off we went to her uncle's house. Got there and it was drizzling slightly :O It wasn't till we entered the house did I realise her uncle was living with her grandparents. I always had the impression he lived alone since lingg always said her uncle's house instead of grandparents lol. So we collected the memory card and sat for awhile. Not too good to leave straight after arriving isit? =p
Her grandpa came back home soon and started talking to her. Though it sounded more like a lecture =/ Scary guy :O
Then my back was hurting for some reason. Alright, no exactly hurting, but feels really uncomfortable and tired. Lingg was real sweet to give me a massage :O Damn why can't I put the heart sign here!!! It was so comfortable I'd thought she learnt it somewhere. She's a natural LOL! Felt like some massage chair :)
Soon after her grandma came along and ask where she was gonna have her dinner. Back home or downstairs? Lingg said we were eating out. Not too sure if her grandma didn't hear it or she ignored it on purpose xD Cause she asked the same question again LAWLS. I was giggling inside haha. Lingg then replied that we were eating downstairs, this time her grandma was like oh alright. =x I was expecting her to ask again, but she didn't haha~
We went to wear our shoes. At the gates, her grandma suddenly asked the same question again LOL! Well looks like my expectation happened after all =/ haha~~ Real cute of her. Reminds me of my own grandma. She's a little like this too xD
Well, lingg wanted to get eyeliner. So we went to west mall AGAIN xD Got there, lingg went to get her eyeliner at watsons. We then went on to have our meal at swensen's cause lingg wanted her hearty breakfast set xD Waited for quite awhile. After we were done, lingg did the usual again, ingredient mixing LOL =x
Payed the bill and off we went back to her house since it was already 8 odd near 9. Got back her mum started talking to her about her enrolment thingy. Then lingg was still busy trying to kill a boss in Legend of Zelda. She failed so many times she looked so depress LOL! So I gave her a helping hand. 1 attempt, and I won OHOHOHOHO :) She she smiled ;D No more depression! ^^
Then after her mum went out, lingg have me a massage again ^^ cause my back was still really tired. Awhile later lingg wanted huggies. But mmmm couldn't really do it with her parents outside =/ She waited and waited till her mum went to sleep and we hugged! xD
11.30 came by pretty fast and I had to go. At the doorstep, lingg dragged me to a corner and we started to hug and smooch again :O hahaha PDA! Well, then I had to go, gotta get back by 12 =/
Got back home, luckily internet worked and I got online. Then....something happened, shall not elaborate on it. Don't wanna bring up the unhappy stuff. But yeah after that, around 2 I believe? I went down to the park downstairs to catch a breather, to clear my head a little cause I was upset. Took a walk then sat down somewhere. Then I waited for lingg's reply cause she was ignoring me from what happened earlier. I sat, waited, stared at the night sky and waited. Nothing came. Eventually, I felt kinda tired so I went back up. Didn't fall asleep till 6 odd though sigh....
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Next day, I woke and slept and woke and slept multiple times. Each time sending a message to lingg and hoping she'd reply. Nothing ever came :( Wasn't till 5 odd did she finally talk to me again, requesting me to go over :O
So I did. Bused down to her house and somehow her front gate was opened, so I just walked in. She was doing some stuff on the computer, so I just sat on her bed =/
Then she went out to play her PS2, well I knew she was unhappy with me, so I just stayed where I was. Awhile later, she came in and asked me to go out :O So yeah, ice broke and we started talking again. Her sis then went into her room to emo I think =/
Lingg then played final fantasy X. I had like 4 mochis? xD
Then then it was real hilarious, she "played" till this part where 2 of the characters got stuck together and the game hung. Like literally together LOL! It looked freaking wrong =.= Then I started cracking a joke on it =x haha~~ But honestly, the way the 2 characters combined, looks like they were having sex =.= Gay sex at that LOL!!!! Right let's skip that.
Lingg wouldn't give up. She kept trying and trying and the game hangs at the same spot every time LOL. She wasn't bored of retrying, but I kinda got bored of looking at the same sequence again and again =/ And someone was telling me she doesn't have patience =x In her shoes, I would have stopped after like 4 to 5 tries? I couldn't even count how many times she tried lol~~
Then then soon her sis came back out and played DOA2 with her. Didn't take long before I had to leave. =/
So got back home, here I am blogging away, and I kinda made a huge blunder =.=
In any case, sorry lingg I mixed things up!
And and and...
HAPPY 1st MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!! I LOVE YOU LINGG!! MUACKS!!!!!!
If only I could spam those hearts....arararara
Let's see, we'll start with Monday, continuing from the Sunday post.
Right...so on Monday, there wasn't much going on. I woke at 2 in the afternoon? Then I turned on my com and did the usual stuff of lunch, washing up etc etc. Didn't go over to lingg's today, well I mean I just got "grounded" not too long ago and I don't wanna be running off too many days in a row at the start =x
So after waking up...hmm can't recall what I had for lunch. Then then I went online to talk to lingg on msn. She then initiated video calls. Here the frustration comes :(
I can't freaking click on the accept button! Cause it's freaking greyed out! So lingg kept spamming, and well on my side, I spammed too. I spammed click the greyed button. After tons of tries, the video call still couldn't get through =.=""
Then after that lingg initiated a voice call instead. Well that worked o.o So I suspected my webcam to be faulty. When to tweak some settings. I don't even really know what I did, then the next time lingg initiated the video call, it FREAKING worked :O But but but her screen was black =.= She was covering the camera lens. So she could see me, but I can't see her! UNFAIR!! x( So so so so to even things out....I closed mine too! xD
So 2 black screens =x So much for video call. Then then we were like going on about who should let go of the camera lens first. Went on for awhile and eventually we were cleared of it lol~~ Can't remember who let go first xD Lingg was then playing her PS2. She was also typing in the chat box when she could just speak to me o.o odd girl =p
This went on for I don't know how long, then I think at 5 odd, I received a call from my grandma asking me to go over to help her carry some stuff to my house. Since she wanted to see both me and my sister, and knowing my sister, her ass won't move the moment she sits LOL!
Yeah, so we ended the video call and off I went to my grandma's house. She tricked me uh! When I got there, she was still cooking xD Then she said she misses me AHAHAHA =x Well by the time she was done, there was a hell lotta food on the table. We'll all die finishing them =/
So went back over at 7 odd? Then I tried to get back online. Something more frustrating happened here, my internet wouldn't work!!!! I went on to try and work things out but but but ARGH!!!! The settings showed I am connected but I can't access the web or log onto msn at all :(
I tried and tried for about nearly an hour odd? Then I gave up, I was really on the verge of tearing my hair out, I will be hage then o.o
Right yeah, the internet still wouldn't work when i tried again at 11 odd zzzzzzz =.= So no choice, I can't go onto msn, and I can't blog either sigh x(
Went to bed pretty early cause I will be going to lingg's house dead early in the morning haha ^^ Missed her :O
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Woke up at 6 odd? Washed up, prepared, then went to macs for big breakfast! After I was done with my meal, I messaged lingg to ask if she wanted big breakfast as well. I then went on to wait for about half an hour for lingg's reply. It never came =/ It was 8 then, so I just headed down to lingg's.
Reached there at 8.40? Went in with her, then she prepared the bed for me ohohoho =D
I was pretty tired, admittedly =x Slept only 3 hours? Then lingg wanted to play I think ahahaha xD I was reluctant at first, didn't had much energy =/ Then lingg stopped :O I sensed something was wrong so I was like, ah hell let's go LOL! I climbed up and yeah we smooched xD After I don't know how long, I think it was lingg's turn to get tired, cause she asked if I wanted to sleep xD I wasn't sleepy then, but since she was, let's sleep! =p
Right so slept and slept till I don't know what time, lingg then woke me up o.o We did something I don't know what xD for less than 15 minutes or so? Then lingg went on to prepare LOL. As for me, I dropped back down to sleep.
Prepare for? I hear you ask? Well the itinery for the day was to go collect lingg's O level certificate then head down to ngee ann poly for her enrolment package and finally, to her uncle's house to get the memory card for the PS2. Oh oh oh and she wore the new panda hoody today!!! ;D
So first we headed down to baboon vista for her certificate. Was pretty fast. Went in, got a queue number, collect her cert and we were done o.o We then left astala vista by train and back to west mall. Since we didn't know any buses from bibibobo vista that would take us directly to ngee ann poly. Well, we do know there were buses from west mall, so back we went xD
Took 61 from west mall and off we went to ngee ann. Block 1 was easy to find, since it was at the entrance. Then lingg was commenting how it looked like a hospital =x yeah it kinda does lololol~~~
So went in, collected her enrolment package and yeah, real fast we were done too o.o By then it was only 4 odd? Next destination was her uncle's house. We didn't wanna bus back to west mall AGAIN so lingg decided to walk along. Along the way, we saw this food market thingy and lingg was like telling me the food there was good, those stalls with newspapers xD If it isn't good? Lingg will have to let me put my arm into her panda pocket! xD
Went there, walked round and round and round and the only store with newspapers pasted in them was one selling beancurd =/ SO LING LOSSTTTT MKUAHAHAHA POCKET HERE I COME!!!
So we walked with my arm in her panda hoodie pocket. Likeaaaaa weird and funny! xD When we got to the bus stop, the bus we had to take was there! So I suggested we make a run for it. I wanted to pass lingg the stuff so I could catch it but then she ran off first xD So I tagged behind. We missed the bus ohohohohoohoho xD
No choice, gotta wait for the next. So we took a sit and I put my arm in her pocket again ehheeheh~~~~ Didn't take long for the next bus to come and then lingg stood up, pulling my arm and me along. Was like so weird LOL! Bet people were watching and going WTF is that couple doing?? xD
Sooooo we took the bus and off we went to her uncle's house. Got there and it was drizzling slightly :O It wasn't till we entered the house did I realise her uncle was living with her grandparents. I always had the impression he lived alone since lingg always said her uncle's house instead of grandparents lol. So we collected the memory card and sat for awhile. Not too good to leave straight after arriving isit? =p
Her grandpa came back home soon and started talking to her. Though it sounded more like a lecture =/ Scary guy :O
Then my back was hurting for some reason. Alright, no exactly hurting, but feels really uncomfortable and tired. Lingg was real sweet to give me a massage :O Damn why can't I put the heart sign here!!! It was so comfortable I'd thought she learnt it somewhere. She's a natural LOL! Felt like some massage chair :)
Soon after her grandma came along and ask where she was gonna have her dinner. Back home or downstairs? Lingg said we were eating out. Not too sure if her grandma didn't hear it or she ignored it on purpose xD Cause she asked the same question again LAWLS. I was giggling inside haha. Lingg then replied that we were eating downstairs, this time her grandma was like oh alright. =x I was expecting her to ask again, but she didn't haha~
We went to wear our shoes. At the gates, her grandma suddenly asked the same question again LOL! Well looks like my expectation happened after all =/ haha~~ Real cute of her. Reminds me of my own grandma. She's a little like this too xD
Well, lingg wanted to get eyeliner. So we went to west mall AGAIN xD Got there, lingg went to get her eyeliner at watsons. We then went on to have our meal at swensen's cause lingg wanted her hearty breakfast set xD Waited for quite awhile. After we were done, lingg did the usual again, ingredient mixing LOL =x
Payed the bill and off we went back to her house since it was already 8 odd near 9. Got back her mum started talking to her about her enrolment thingy. Then lingg was still busy trying to kill a boss in Legend of Zelda. She failed so many times she looked so depress LOL! So I gave her a helping hand. 1 attempt, and I won OHOHOHOHO :) She she smiled ;D No more depression! ^^
Then after her mum went out, lingg have me a massage again ^^ cause my back was still really tired. Awhile later lingg wanted huggies. But mmmm couldn't really do it with her parents outside =/ She waited and waited till her mum went to sleep and we hugged! xD
11.30 came by pretty fast and I had to go. At the doorstep, lingg dragged me to a corner and we started to hug and smooch again :O hahaha PDA! Well, then I had to go, gotta get back by 12 =/
Got back home, luckily internet worked and I got online. Then....something happened, shall not elaborate on it. Don't wanna bring up the unhappy stuff. But yeah after that, around 2 I believe? I went down to the park downstairs to catch a breather, to clear my head a little cause I was upset. Took a walk then sat down somewhere. Then I waited for lingg's reply cause she was ignoring me from what happened earlier. I sat, waited, stared at the night sky and waited. Nothing came. Eventually, I felt kinda tired so I went back up. Didn't fall asleep till 6 odd though sigh....
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Next day, I woke and slept and woke and slept multiple times. Each time sending a message to lingg and hoping she'd reply. Nothing ever came :( Wasn't till 5 odd did she finally talk to me again, requesting me to go over :O
So I did. Bused down to her house and somehow her front gate was opened, so I just walked in. She was doing some stuff on the computer, so I just sat on her bed =/
Then she went out to play her PS2, well I knew she was unhappy with me, so I just stayed where I was. Awhile later, she came in and asked me to go out :O So yeah, ice broke and we started talking again. Her sis then went into her room to emo I think =/
Lingg then played final fantasy X. I had like 4 mochis? xD
Then then it was real hilarious, she "played" till this part where 2 of the characters got stuck together and the game hung. Like literally together LOL! It looked freaking wrong =.= Then I started cracking a joke on it =x haha~~ But honestly, the way the 2 characters combined, looks like they were having sex =.= Gay sex at that LOL!!!! Right let's skip that.
Lingg wouldn't give up. She kept trying and trying and the game hangs at the same spot every time LOL. She wasn't bored of retrying, but I kinda got bored of looking at the same sequence again and again =/ And someone was telling me she doesn't have patience =x In her shoes, I would have stopped after like 4 to 5 tries? I couldn't even count how many times she tried lol~~
Then then soon her sis came back out and played DOA2 with her. Didn't take long before I had to leave. =/
So got back home, here I am blogging away, and I kinda made a huge blunder =.=
In any case, sorry lingg I mixed things up!
And and and...
HAPPY 1st MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!! I LOVE YOU LINGG!! MUACKS!!!!!!
If only I could spam those hearts....arararara
Sunday, March 20, 2011, 11:50 PM
Every second counts
Woke up today at 9.30, and then went to take a shower and get changed. Why? Cause I'll be going over to lingg's later. I know I shouldn't be going out so often now anymore, but I really miss her ya know? =/
So after I was done, coincidentally my dad wanted to go IMM too. Hence he offered to give me a lift to lingg's house instead! Saved time waiting for the bus as well as the freakishly long half an hour journey. Reached lingg's at around 10.35 or so? Then I went up. Gave her a call when I got there and when she opened the door, voila! There she was! ;D I miss her!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!
Afte that we went back to her room and just laid down, hugging and just looking at each other. I just can't describe how much I missed her :(
Then then after awhile of hugging, lingg asked if I wanted to sleep. Well since it was like only 11 odd? I wanted to hug her to sleep but but she said she couldn't sleep that way :( Oh well...looks like down I go to the lower bed xD Maybe it wasn't a good idea either, since her mum was at home, don't want any major misunderstanding xD
So I held her hand and then we both fell asleep. Not too long later I heard some ruckus about tution and stuff. My eyes were too tired to open, so I continued sleeping, ignoring what was going on =x
ANNDDDDDD not too long lingg woke me up xD oh oh and it was raining too! Nice weather, so tempted to keep on sleeping but since lingg was awake, oh well xD Then after that we played a little and I pulled lingg down to the lower bed! muahahh!!
After that was just an hour long of smooching session =x Hey to be honest, it felt more like 15 minutes instead of an hour.... lolol~~
By the time the session ended it was 3 odd? Lingg then suggested I eat her bee bee hoon with her. I haven't had any food yet so I agreed xD We sat down and ate and ate nomnom~~~ Then later on I realise there was very little bee hoon left and I think I ate most of it =x SORRY LINGG!!! When I realised that I immediately stopped and gave the rest to lingg haha :) Pretty nice O! ;D
Next, lingg went on to take her bath and of course, do her make-up. Oh oh oh and before that, her uncle came with his PS2 since lingg requested xD With nothing to do, I laid back on lingg's bed, plugged in my earpiece, turned on some music and napped a little =p
I woke soon after though, room was really bright and kinda hard to sleep in xD Then just nice, lingg was done too! She then came into the room and started searching for a shirt of hers. Saying how it was missing and all when it was just rightin front of her xD silly girl! ~~~~ :)
Next she brought in a whole load of PS2 games. Yeah tons of them, lingg is gonna be spending a hell lotta time playing those LOL! =x She browsed through it, shaked her hair (???) and then off we went for her work!
So as usual, mass PDA xD
Then met Ernest at west mall and then trained down to pioneer. At sakura's doorstep, we hugged each other real and tight, and of course, can't forget the wonderful kiss xD Then off she goes! As usual again, I couldn't bear to leave till she was outta sight =x
After she went in, I then went back home. Ice-cream along the way was tempting, but lingg wouldn't lemme eat x( ahhhh!!!!!
Then at home, had spaghetti for dinner (dad cooked it himself o.o) and then had a slight headache so slept awhile. Waking in between a few times to send lingg messages =x Maybe I just miss her lol haha~~~
Now, of course, I'm just blogging! Almost done at that!
Now that we can't spend as much time together, every second counts huh? :)
So after I was done, coincidentally my dad wanted to go IMM too. Hence he offered to give me a lift to lingg's house instead! Saved time waiting for the bus as well as the freakishly long half an hour journey. Reached lingg's at around 10.35 or so? Then I went up. Gave her a call when I got there and when she opened the door, voila! There she was! ;D I miss her!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!
Afte that we went back to her room and just laid down, hugging and just looking at each other. I just can't describe how much I missed her :(
Then then after awhile of hugging, lingg asked if I wanted to sleep. Well since it was like only 11 odd? I wanted to hug her to sleep but but she said she couldn't sleep that way :( Oh well...looks like down I go to the lower bed xD Maybe it wasn't a good idea either, since her mum was at home, don't want any major misunderstanding xD
So I held her hand and then we both fell asleep. Not too long later I heard some ruckus about tution and stuff. My eyes were too tired to open, so I continued sleeping, ignoring what was going on =x
ANNDDDDDD not too long lingg woke me up xD oh oh and it was raining too! Nice weather, so tempted to keep on sleeping but since lingg was awake, oh well xD Then after that we played a little and I pulled lingg down to the lower bed! muahahh!!
After that was just an hour long of smooching session =x Hey to be honest, it felt more like 15 minutes instead of an hour.... lolol~~
By the time the session ended it was 3 odd? Lingg then suggested I eat her bee bee hoon with her. I haven't had any food yet so I agreed xD We sat down and ate and ate nomnom~~~ Then later on I realise there was very little bee hoon left and I think I ate most of it =x SORRY LINGG!!! When I realised that I immediately stopped and gave the rest to lingg haha :) Pretty nice O! ;D
Next, lingg went on to take her bath and of course, do her make-up. Oh oh oh and before that, her uncle came with his PS2 since lingg requested xD With nothing to do, I laid back on lingg's bed, plugged in my earpiece, turned on some music and napped a little =p
I woke soon after though, room was really bright and kinda hard to sleep in xD Then just nice, lingg was done too! She then came into the room and started searching for a shirt of hers. Saying how it was missing and all when it was just rightin front of her xD silly girl! ~~~~ :)
Next she brought in a whole load of PS2 games. Yeah tons of them, lingg is gonna be spending a hell lotta time playing those LOL! =x She browsed through it, shaked her hair (???) and then off we went for her work!
So as usual, mass PDA xD
Then met Ernest at west mall and then trained down to pioneer. At sakura's doorstep, we hugged each other real and tight, and of course, can't forget the wonderful kiss xD Then off she goes! As usual again, I couldn't bear to leave till she was outta sight =x
After she went in, I then went back home. Ice-cream along the way was tempting, but lingg wouldn't lemme eat x( ahhhh!!!!!
Then at home, had spaghetti for dinner (dad cooked it himself o.o) and then had a slight headache so slept awhile. Waking in between a few times to send lingg messages =x Maybe I just miss her lol haha~~~
Now, of course, I'm just blogging! Almost done at that!
Now that we can't spend as much time together, every second counts huh? :)
Saturday, March 19, 2011, 6:53 PM
What does not kill us, makes us stronger
Right right, so after the first night when I got "grounded", I shouldn't exactly be going running around on the first day of it. Yet...ya know, I really miss lingg so much, I didn't really care. I mean, well, I'll be back at night anyway right?
With that in mind, I decided to go over to lingg's house the next day. Especially so when she told me it was her mum's birthday and she wanted to do something about it :)
I woke up at 9.30, then had roti prata for breakfast. Hmm...actually I woke up, walked to the diner and saw it on the table. No one else was at home so I suppose it's meant for me? =x In any case, I just ate it, hope it wasn't meant for anyone else xD
After the hearty breakfast I went to change, prepare blabla and waited for my dad to get back home so I could at least notify him I'd be going out. Don't wanna risk any wrong ideas anywhere ya know? =.=
Next, I bused right down to lingg's house. When she opened the door, and when I saw her, I was like....there was this huge sense of relief in me ;D I really missed her so much x( Well it was still pretty early in the day so we laid down together. We then hugged, kissed, played etc etc! hehehehe~~~
It seemed like only awhile but after we were done, it was like about 2? Time passes like nothing whenever I'm with lingg :O Guess it just shows we enjoy and appreciate each other's company no? ^^ Well especially now that we can't be with each other as often anymore, the times we spend together now will be ever more precious to us. Then then well we prepared to go out. Lingg went for a bathe and before that I told her she could just skip her make-up.
Mmmmm actually I prefer lingg without her make-up =p Don't ask me why, I just think she is more beautiful that way. Maybe I just prefer to see her in her natural beauty, I mean...that is the real her right? haha~~
While she went for her bathe, I don't know what got into me. I got up from her bed and started taking photographs of her room. Hmm...I don't know, maybe we have spent so much time in that little room of hers I just want something to remember it? =x After she was done, I requested she wear the new panda hoodie she got not long ago. I think she looks really nice in it =D Then then I started taking photos of her again.
After changing, she went to grab a bite. She had roti prata too! LOL! Such coincidence xD Then I took a video of her, well....something with her moving instead of just inanimate images haha~
Well hey....life is unpredictable that way no? Things might happen when you least expect and you just want to remember as much as you can, while you still can :)
Done with her meal, she went and dug out all the old photographs of herself and her sister. The initial idea of her mum's birthday gift was to make a collage of their photos when they were young till now. But but but she didn't had the soft copies of those images soooooo we decided to do up a cake personally instead.
We waited for her sister to be done with her make-up then went down to jurong point. There, we went down to icing room and ordered a 6" blackforest cake. Then we got down to decorating it, or well....lingg got down to decorating it =p I wanted to do a little, but the mother is theirs, best let the two sisters do it up instead :) I did my part by paying for half of the cake, well....ALMOST half xD Lingg paid 80 cents more! I gave a few ideas here and there and while lingg was busy with the decoration, I felt hungry so went to breadtalk to grab a bite.
Took awhile before the cake was done. Lingg did everything LOL! Her sister ahhhhhh!! Not sincere :O Anyway, after that, went to KFC cause her sister wanted to eat something. I got myself a drink, and then went to wash up hands. When I returned to the table, my drink was missing...lingg attempted to hide my drink but it was so god damn obvious LOL! hehehehe xD
Then we went out cause her sis wanted to smoke =x Then me and lingg were hugging away, PDA!!! Hey hey tell you guys a secret. *pst pst* I just upgraded myself! My best public crime skill was swallowing saliva, now...it's PDA within the banned compound where PDA isn't allowed MUAHAHAHAHA xD Time to recruit more students~~~ Lingg shall be my next! =D
We then bused back. Lingg wanted to walk a little more, but well...the cake can't wait. Don't want it to become blackforest drink by the time we get home now do we? haha~~
So back at home, I started coughing real badly again. My chest started hurting. Then then I don't know why lingg cried a little :( Then she got all worried about me :O So it was hurting but yet it still felt kinda good ya know? To see lingg's concern for me :) Thanks lingg ^^
Then I wanted to hug her, soooooo yeah we laid down and hugged each other xD Face to face, mouth to mouth LOL! Then I think somehow we just dozed off =x hehehe~~
The next time I woke up, lingg wasn't anywhere to be found. So I got out of her room. Her mum was already home :O !! I found lingg in the kitchen. There was pizza and stuff. So we ate. I ate only a little cause it hurt when I swallowed the food =x While eating, lingg's sister and her boyfriend was quarrelling away zzzzzz
Anyway, didn't take long before her mum helped herself to the cake LOL! Lingg snapped away at the cake and after it was done, they lit the candles and cut the cake! I had a slice and then watched television. Time flies and soon it was 8.30. Well...I had to go. Lingg saw me down and waited for the bus with me :) Bus came, I gave lingg a tight hug and kissed her ^^ Sigh I can't bear to leave :( She stood there at the bus-stop and we waved to each other until I was outta sight.
Got back home, pain was still bugging me so I took a nap. Woke up at 12am so I could keep lingg company but she kept chasing me to sleep :( Yeah...I know she is concerned about my well-being :) So so I did as told LOL! Slept and slept till I started coughing againa and it woke me up! It was 4am. I missed lingg so messaged her to see if she was still awake. SHE WAS! :O She was getting ready to sleep so well, we went to sleep together :) I'll be seeing her to work tomorrow too! Can't wait to see her again :)
Next day, woke up at 1.30? Was supposed to go to the doctor's but dad didn't wake me up =x The nasi lemak meant for my breakfast became my lunch instead lol =x After my meal and washing up, I went down to lingg's house. She opened the door and well...I felt playful so pulled the door back so she couldn't open xD Anyway, mmmmm after that we went in. We laid down and hugged again xD missed her O!
Awhile later, lingg had to go prepare for work. So I laid on her bed to sleep a little since there wasn't anything else to do. The next thing I knew was lingg waking me up haha~ So we bused down to West Mall to get her sister working shoes. Then trained down to pioneer. While on the train, we kept rubbing our noses and smooching =x PDA FTW!! Well I don't care how others think or whatever, we share mutual affections and all it matters to us is each other right lingg? :)
Saw lingg to the doorstep of sakura, gave her a huge hug! A forceful passionate kiss! And off she went =p I raised my hand when she looked back into the window cause I wanted to ask her to stop so I could say I love you to her, but she mistook it as me bidding goodbye LOL! Then I saw her skip into the back, like a kid uh! SO CUTE!!! =D
I love her to bits!!!
Hey lingg, don't be sad whenever I'm not around okay? We'll get through this together! What does not kill our bond, serves to only make it stronger, make us stronger!
I love you lingg!!!! ^^ Muacks!!
With that in mind, I decided to go over to lingg's house the next day. Especially so when she told me it was her mum's birthday and she wanted to do something about it :)
I woke up at 9.30, then had roti prata for breakfast. Hmm...actually I woke up, walked to the diner and saw it on the table. No one else was at home so I suppose it's meant for me? =x In any case, I just ate it, hope it wasn't meant for anyone else xD
After the hearty breakfast I went to change, prepare blabla and waited for my dad to get back home so I could at least notify him I'd be going out. Don't wanna risk any wrong ideas anywhere ya know? =.=
Next, I bused right down to lingg's house. When she opened the door, and when I saw her, I was like....there was this huge sense of relief in me ;D I really missed her so much x( Well it was still pretty early in the day so we laid down together. We then hugged, kissed, played etc etc! hehehehe~~~
It seemed like only awhile but after we were done, it was like about 2? Time passes like nothing whenever I'm with lingg :O Guess it just shows we enjoy and appreciate each other's company no? ^^ Well especially now that we can't be with each other as often anymore, the times we spend together now will be ever more precious to us. Then then well we prepared to go out. Lingg went for a bathe and before that I told her she could just skip her make-up.
Mmmmm actually I prefer lingg without her make-up =p Don't ask me why, I just think she is more beautiful that way. Maybe I just prefer to see her in her natural beauty, I mean...that is the real her right? haha~~
While she went for her bathe, I don't know what got into me. I got up from her bed and started taking photographs of her room. Hmm...I don't know, maybe we have spent so much time in that little room of hers I just want something to remember it? =x After she was done, I requested she wear the new panda hoodie she got not long ago. I think she looks really nice in it =D Then then I started taking photos of her again.
After changing, she went to grab a bite. She had roti prata too! LOL! Such coincidence xD Then I took a video of her, well....something with her moving instead of just inanimate images haha~
Well hey....life is unpredictable that way no? Things might happen when you least expect and you just want to remember as much as you can, while you still can :)
Done with her meal, she went and dug out all the old photographs of herself and her sister. The initial idea of her mum's birthday gift was to make a collage of their photos when they were young till now. But but but she didn't had the soft copies of those images soooooo we decided to do up a cake personally instead.
We waited for her sister to be done with her make-up then went down to jurong point. There, we went down to icing room and ordered a 6" blackforest cake. Then we got down to decorating it, or well....lingg got down to decorating it =p I wanted to do a little, but the mother is theirs, best let the two sisters do it up instead :) I did my part by paying for half of the cake, well....ALMOST half xD Lingg paid 80 cents more! I gave a few ideas here and there and while lingg was busy with the decoration, I felt hungry so went to breadtalk to grab a bite.
Took awhile before the cake was done. Lingg did everything LOL! Her sister ahhhhhh!! Not sincere :O Anyway, after that, went to KFC cause her sister wanted to eat something. I got myself a drink, and then went to wash up hands. When I returned to the table, my drink was missing...lingg attempted to hide my drink but it was so god damn obvious LOL! hehehehe xD
Then we went out cause her sis wanted to smoke =x Then me and lingg were hugging away, PDA!!! Hey hey tell you guys a secret. *pst pst* I just upgraded myself! My best public crime skill was swallowing saliva, now...it's PDA within the banned compound where PDA isn't allowed MUAHAHAHAHA xD Time to recruit more students~~~ Lingg shall be my next! =D
We then bused back. Lingg wanted to walk a little more, but well...the cake can't wait. Don't want it to become blackforest drink by the time we get home now do we? haha~~
So back at home, I started coughing real badly again. My chest started hurting. Then then I don't know why lingg cried a little :( Then she got all worried about me :O So it was hurting but yet it still felt kinda good ya know? To see lingg's concern for me :) Thanks lingg ^^
Then I wanted to hug her, soooooo yeah we laid down and hugged each other xD Face to face, mouth to mouth LOL! Then I think somehow we just dozed off =x hehehe~~
The next time I woke up, lingg wasn't anywhere to be found. So I got out of her room. Her mum was already home :O !! I found lingg in the kitchen. There was pizza and stuff. So we ate. I ate only a little cause it hurt when I swallowed the food =x While eating, lingg's sister and her boyfriend was quarrelling away zzzzzz
Anyway, didn't take long before her mum helped herself to the cake LOL! Lingg snapped away at the cake and after it was done, they lit the candles and cut the cake! I had a slice and then watched television. Time flies and soon it was 8.30. Well...I had to go. Lingg saw me down and waited for the bus with me :) Bus came, I gave lingg a tight hug and kissed her ^^ Sigh I can't bear to leave :( She stood there at the bus-stop and we waved to each other until I was outta sight.
Got back home, pain was still bugging me so I took a nap. Woke up at 12am so I could keep lingg company but she kept chasing me to sleep :( Yeah...I know she is concerned about my well-being :) So so I did as told LOL! Slept and slept till I started coughing againa and it woke me up! It was 4am. I missed lingg so messaged her to see if she was still awake. SHE WAS! :O She was getting ready to sleep so well, we went to sleep together :) I'll be seeing her to work tomorrow too! Can't wait to see her again :)
Next day, woke up at 1.30? Was supposed to go to the doctor's but dad didn't wake me up =x The nasi lemak meant for my breakfast became my lunch instead lol =x After my meal and washing up, I went down to lingg's house. She opened the door and well...I felt playful so pulled the door back so she couldn't open xD Anyway, mmmmm after that we went in. We laid down and hugged again xD missed her O!
Awhile later, lingg had to go prepare for work. So I laid on her bed to sleep a little since there wasn't anything else to do. The next thing I knew was lingg waking me up haha~ So we bused down to West Mall to get her sister working shoes. Then trained down to pioneer. While on the train, we kept rubbing our noses and smooching =x PDA FTW!! Well I don't care how others think or whatever, we share mutual affections and all it matters to us is each other right lingg? :)
Saw lingg to the doorstep of sakura, gave her a huge hug! A forceful passionate kiss! And off she went =p I raised my hand when she looked back into the window cause I wanted to ask her to stop so I could say I love you to her, but she mistook it as me bidding goodbye LOL! Then I saw her skip into the back, like a kid uh! SO CUTE!!! =D
I love her to bits!!!
Hey lingg, don't be sad whenever I'm not around okay? We'll get through this together! What does not kill our bond, serves to only make it stronger, make us stronger!
I love you lingg!!!! ^^ Muacks!!
Friday, March 18, 2011, 12:41 AM
De Dreamoi~
Alright since lingg kept requesting, and I kept forgetting about it, I shall blog about the dream I told lingg I had like mmmm a week back? xD Right luckily the dream left quite a deep impression so I could remember most of it. Well by deep impression, you'll know why later.
So! After falling asleep, everything was just dark like how anyone asleep would "see". Then after awhile, I kinda opened my eyes (In my dream here! Can you imagine if I really opened my eyes and still dreaming? creepy =x) and I was in this really dark place.
Couldn't see much so felt my way around. Floor was wet, my shoes were a really moist. As I felt around, the walls felt kinda rugged, and had a really rough texture to it. Coupled with the darkness and wet floor, I figured it was some kinda cave. Yeah...was hellish, with my eyes opened but could barely see anything. I couldn't even see my damn hand had I put it in front of me =.=
I walked and walked and all of a sudden, I tripped and fell over. Yeah sure it hurt, and I scratched my elbow. I checked my elbow to make sure there weren't any fractures of sorts then turned back to figure what I tripped over. I touched the object and it was soft O.O Then I was like...gosh what in the world am I touching? Then suddenly I heard a moan from the 'object' and it moved. Damn that freaked me out. I got up, ready to make a run for it if it was something monstrous. Then the 'object' spoke. It asked "Kelvin?"
Then I was like O.O and thought "how did it know my name?" Then I recognised the voice. So I asked in return "uhhhh lingg???" Then she gave me the usual response, "YAR O.O" Hmm I wondered where did I touch her just now LOL =x
Right, so I was here in this cave for no apparent reason and lingg was lying there for another no good reason LOL! Either way, we found each other and then tried to make our way around. While moving I felt there was something in my pocket. Curious, I reached in and pulled something out. Turns out it was a torch, like hell yeah I had a freaking torch with me all along!
I turned it on and it was a real huge relief for us. Now at least, we have a light source and we can move around better without having to feel our way slowly =.=
The cave formation was just huge. We walked like forever and still we don't seem to be getting anywhere. We started to despair. Then we saw another light source emitting from a corner of the cave formation. Well we followed it and found a tiny crack in the wall. We squeezed on through slowly....see? Lingg can squeeze through, she ain't fat then is she? o.o
We finally reached the end of the crack. Exited and we were like WOW :O
We were in some sorta ancient palace thingy? The place was well lit with flame torches. Then there was this really huge dragon statue not too far from us. On the sides were towering pillars. It didn't make sense to go back through the crack, so despite the place not looking very welcoming, we chose to go on anyway.
Along the way, there were like skeletons all over. We climbed the stairs and reached the dragon statue. Then then then, nightmare came. The skeletons started moving O.O So I was like "GREAT! MOVING SKELETONS?!! I only have a damn torch for god's sake!"
Lingg was beside me screaming away, then she picked up this rock. =x Don't know what good that'll do but in such a situation, anything helps :O At this moment, this really fat dud dressed in some weird fancy clothing ran out from this area behind us, brandishing 2 swords. He passed one to me.
fat dude: "hoy! whatcha lads doing here oi? Tis not a place for kids, and skinny ones at that! Let the real deal show you how fats are done!"
With that, he jumped into the sea of walking skeles and landed on a couple of them. Smashing them to bits in the process. Hand in hand, me and lingg fought off a couple of skeles attempting to scale the stairs.
The fatso then started rolling around O.O I felt like laughing. The situation wasn't exactly funny but the scene was hilarious! =x Then the fatso shouted for me and lingg to make a run for it.
I grabbed lingg's hand and dashed towards the area the fatso came out from. We ran and ran till we came to a dead end. We then desperately searched for an exit. Then that moment we saw it! A ray of light between two walls, and it was getting dimmer. The walls were closing up! D;
I immediately grabbed lingg and made a dash for it. We ran so fast till my legs felt like it could give way any moment. When we were almost at the exit, the gap was so small it'd fit just one person at best. That moment, I turned back to look at lingg, she was in tears. There, I made my decision. I pulled lingg forward in front of me, then pushed her real hard.As she fell forward, she shouted "What are you doing??" and she fell through the gap just in time. Then.....it closed. :(
I turned back, everything was dark again. I reached for my torch and shone it around. All of a sudden, I heard this sharp high pitch whistle, and the next moment, before I knew it I felt this sharp pain in my chest. I flew backwards and slammed into the wall....
Then...then I woke up! I looked around at the familiar sight of lingg's room, and then felt my chest. Well everything was in place, it was...just a dream....
So yeah...I don't know what exactly happened in the end since my dream never finished. But my guess was the blow to my chest most probably killed me =x
So! After falling asleep, everything was just dark like how anyone asleep would "see". Then after awhile, I kinda opened my eyes (In my dream here! Can you imagine if I really opened my eyes and still dreaming? creepy =x) and I was in this really dark place.
Couldn't see much so felt my way around. Floor was wet, my shoes were a really moist. As I felt around, the walls felt kinda rugged, and had a really rough texture to it. Coupled with the darkness and wet floor, I figured it was some kinda cave. Yeah...was hellish, with my eyes opened but could barely see anything. I couldn't even see my damn hand had I put it in front of me =.=
I walked and walked and all of a sudden, I tripped and fell over. Yeah sure it hurt, and I scratched my elbow. I checked my elbow to make sure there weren't any fractures of sorts then turned back to figure what I tripped over. I touched the object and it was soft O.O Then I was like...gosh what in the world am I touching? Then suddenly I heard a moan from the 'object' and it moved. Damn that freaked me out. I got up, ready to make a run for it if it was something monstrous. Then the 'object' spoke. It asked "Kelvin?"
Then I was like O.O and thought "how did it know my name?" Then I recognised the voice. So I asked in return "uhhhh lingg???" Then she gave me the usual response, "YAR O.O" Hmm I wondered where did I touch her just now LOL =x
Right, so I was here in this cave for no apparent reason and lingg was lying there for another no good reason LOL! Either way, we found each other and then tried to make our way around. While moving I felt there was something in my pocket. Curious, I reached in and pulled something out. Turns out it was a torch, like hell yeah I had a freaking torch with me all along!
I turned it on and it was a real huge relief for us. Now at least, we have a light source and we can move around better without having to feel our way slowly =.=
The cave formation was just huge. We walked like forever and still we don't seem to be getting anywhere. We started to despair. Then we saw another light source emitting from a corner of the cave formation. Well we followed it and found a tiny crack in the wall. We squeezed on through slowly....see? Lingg can squeeze through, she ain't fat then is she? o.o
We finally reached the end of the crack. Exited and we were like WOW :O
We were in some sorta ancient palace thingy? The place was well lit with flame torches. Then there was this really huge dragon statue not too far from us. On the sides were towering pillars. It didn't make sense to go back through the crack, so despite the place not looking very welcoming, we chose to go on anyway.
Along the way, there were like skeletons all over. We climbed the stairs and reached the dragon statue. Then then then, nightmare came. The skeletons started moving O.O So I was like "GREAT! MOVING SKELETONS?!! I only have a damn torch for god's sake!"
Lingg was beside me screaming away, then she picked up this rock. =x Don't know what good that'll do but in such a situation, anything helps :O At this moment, this really fat dud dressed in some weird fancy clothing ran out from this area behind us, brandishing 2 swords. He passed one to me.
fat dude: "hoy! whatcha lads doing here oi? Tis not a place for kids, and skinny ones at that! Let the real deal show you how fats are done!"
With that, he jumped into the sea of walking skeles and landed on a couple of them. Smashing them to bits in the process. Hand in hand, me and lingg fought off a couple of skeles attempting to scale the stairs.
The fatso then started rolling around O.O I felt like laughing. The situation wasn't exactly funny but the scene was hilarious! =x Then the fatso shouted for me and lingg to make a run for it.
I grabbed lingg's hand and dashed towards the area the fatso came out from. We ran and ran till we came to a dead end. We then desperately searched for an exit. Then that moment we saw it! A ray of light between two walls, and it was getting dimmer. The walls were closing up! D;
I immediately grabbed lingg and made a dash for it. We ran so fast till my legs felt like it could give way any moment. When we were almost at the exit, the gap was so small it'd fit just one person at best. That moment, I turned back to look at lingg, she was in tears. There, I made my decision. I pulled lingg forward in front of me, then pushed her real hard.As she fell forward, she shouted "What are you doing??" and she fell through the gap just in time. Then.....it closed. :(
I turned back, everything was dark again. I reached for my torch and shone it around. All of a sudden, I heard this sharp high pitch whistle, and the next moment, before I knew it I felt this sharp pain in my chest. I flew backwards and slammed into the wall....
Then...then I woke up! I looked around at the familiar sight of lingg's room, and then felt my chest. Well everything was in place, it was...just a dream....
So yeah...I don't know what exactly happened in the end since my dream never finished. But my guess was the blow to my chest most probably killed me =x
Thursday, March 17, 2011, 3:50 PM
I love you lingg
Well nothing else much is important here, but a very important event occured on Wednesday, so I shall start with that.
I stayed over at lingg's on Tuesday night so we both woke up at around 3 odd the next afternoon. I felt hungry so suggested going to get some food to fill the stomach. Yeah "some" food. I ended up getting 3 curry puffs, a bottle of green tea and a pack of chicken rice =x
Right I was just real hungry I think. After getting the stuff, we headed back to lingg's. By the time I got back I was already done with 2 curry puffs xD Didn't wanna eat the last one yet just in case I didn't had enough space in my stomach left for the chicken rice. So while I ate my chicken rice, lingg went on to cook fried rice for herself.
Well she cooked ALOT of it =x By the time I was done with my rice I felt so bloated it was like as if my stomach could burst any minute. Yeah t'was kinda uncomfortable....
Later on at 6 odd. Lingg's jie came over with roasted pork I think? Then they started eating the fried rice since there was so much of it. Then lingg's mum came back not long after and showed us an essay written by some kid. It was about a family of cockroaches and a touching event that occured within them. So much for touching, it was so damn hilarious instead =x Then again, if I was the marker, I would give him a pretty high score xD I mean, hey, it's creative, and there IS a touch of touching moment there, just well....not done in the conventional way that's all =p
Then at 7:15, I had to leave first to help with my mum carry her shopping at jurong point. I got there and yeah...she was late =x So bought bought and then we went home. Got back at around 9 and then she asked if I will be staying at home tonight...and I said no =/
That moment she flared up, and kinda gave me a dressing down. But in the end, I still left anyway, cause I made a promise to lingg....and I don't wanna break it :(
Then I bused down to lingg's house. Yeah I was really moody, and sad and all. Then then I gave my mum a call and she gave me 3 choices. Either I continue with her, but be back home everyday, break up with her, or don't bother coming home anymore. For anyone else, they would have shrugged it aside right? After all, which parent wouldn't want their child? Not for me, my mum may be one of the nicest people I know, but when she is serious, she mean what she say. I have experienced it firsthand before and have no wish to test her patience :(
That said, of course, I'm left with 2 choices. I really don't know what to do, which to choose. Then lingg somehow sensed that I was upset, and kept on bugging me about what was going on. Well maybe I shouldn't use the word bug....she is showing her concern right?
So after awhile, I finally told her what was going on. I broke down, cause I was really at a lost, it seems like either way this could not continue. She was alright initially, but then her entire expression changed. Then I saw tears building up in her eyes. She....was crying... :(
I know this decision is about myself, my life. But when it concerns us both, I don't care about my life anymore, especially not when her happiness was at stake. I would sacrifice my own happiness if it would materialise her own. So I gave my choices to her, I let her decide how she wants it to be. To stay on or to leave.
That moment, I really wished she would compromise, and stay on with me. But if we can't meet everyday anymore, would she truly be happy? That thought bugged me. Then I turned and looked at the second option. What if......I let her go? Set her free, let her find another guy who can give her the true happiness I cannot give. If letting her go now would bring her happiness later, I would do it. Keeping her no longer means anything to me, all I want now, is to see her happy. I just want to see those true smiles again.....even if it means losing her.
I cried even more with this thought. It was hard enough to see her go, and even worse if I have to be the one to usher her along. Yet I knew any pain would be worth it, she's all that matters to me now.
Then out of my expectations....she told me she wanted the first choice. She....actually wanted to stay on, despite knowing it's gonna be a hard road for herself. I was happy...and I was speechless. Then we hugged each other and cried for the next hour or so.
After we calmed down, did a little other stuff and went on to sleep. We gave each other a couple of passionate kisses before going to bed :)
Next morning I woke up, was cause of vibration from my phone. My mum got my message and said I was to be home by 3 if I intend to keep that promise. After that I went back to sleep. Then both of us woke up at 1:45. We then hugged each other cause I had to go soon. For some reason...lingg cried again. It really broke my heart to see those teary eyes.....
We continued hugging and at 2:27, I had to go. I packed up and lingg saw me out. At her doorstep, I hugged her again, and gave her another kiss. Deep down...I don't wanna leave, I wanna be with her. But....circumstances forbid sigh...
After a few more tight hugs, I had to go. Looking at her teary eyes...I really couldn't bear to leave, I had to force myself. As I walked down the corridoor, I cried a little....then I turned back to look at her a couple of times till I was at the lift lobby. Then I turned into the corner and she was gone from my sight. I called for the lift and walked back around the corner again, hoping to catch a last glimpse of lingg, but she had already went back into her house :(
With that, I bused back home.
This is the first major obstacle, and I hope....it will serve to make our bond stronger. Cause I know this had made me realise how deep my love for lingg was. I never knew I could let you go, or even sacrifice myself for you. But yesterday night showed myself that I could. I believe in my love for you even more now.
I love you lingg.
I stayed over at lingg's on Tuesday night so we both woke up at around 3 odd the next afternoon. I felt hungry so suggested going to get some food to fill the stomach. Yeah "some" food. I ended up getting 3 curry puffs, a bottle of green tea and a pack of chicken rice =x
Right I was just real hungry I think. After getting the stuff, we headed back to lingg's. By the time I got back I was already done with 2 curry puffs xD Didn't wanna eat the last one yet just in case I didn't had enough space in my stomach left for the chicken rice. So while I ate my chicken rice, lingg went on to cook fried rice for herself.
Well she cooked ALOT of it =x By the time I was done with my rice I felt so bloated it was like as if my stomach could burst any minute. Yeah t'was kinda uncomfortable....
Later on at 6 odd. Lingg's jie came over with roasted pork I think? Then they started eating the fried rice since there was so much of it. Then lingg's mum came back not long after and showed us an essay written by some kid. It was about a family of cockroaches and a touching event that occured within them. So much for touching, it was so damn hilarious instead =x Then again, if I was the marker, I would give him a pretty high score xD I mean, hey, it's creative, and there IS a touch of touching moment there, just well....not done in the conventional way that's all =p
Then at 7:15, I had to leave first to help with my mum carry her shopping at jurong point. I got there and yeah...she was late =x So bought bought and then we went home. Got back at around 9 and then she asked if I will be staying at home tonight...and I said no =/
That moment she flared up, and kinda gave me a dressing down. But in the end, I still left anyway, cause I made a promise to lingg....and I don't wanna break it :(
Then I bused down to lingg's house. Yeah I was really moody, and sad and all. Then then I gave my mum a call and she gave me 3 choices. Either I continue with her, but be back home everyday, break up with her, or don't bother coming home anymore. For anyone else, they would have shrugged it aside right? After all, which parent wouldn't want their child? Not for me, my mum may be one of the nicest people I know, but when she is serious, she mean what she say. I have experienced it firsthand before and have no wish to test her patience :(
That said, of course, I'm left with 2 choices. I really don't know what to do, which to choose. Then lingg somehow sensed that I was upset, and kept on bugging me about what was going on. Well maybe I shouldn't use the word bug....she is showing her concern right?
So after awhile, I finally told her what was going on. I broke down, cause I was really at a lost, it seems like either way this could not continue. She was alright initially, but then her entire expression changed. Then I saw tears building up in her eyes. She....was crying... :(
I know this decision is about myself, my life. But when it concerns us both, I don't care about my life anymore, especially not when her happiness was at stake. I would sacrifice my own happiness if it would materialise her own. So I gave my choices to her, I let her decide how she wants it to be. To stay on or to leave.
That moment, I really wished she would compromise, and stay on with me. But if we can't meet everyday anymore, would she truly be happy? That thought bugged me. Then I turned and looked at the second option. What if......I let her go? Set her free, let her find another guy who can give her the true happiness I cannot give. If letting her go now would bring her happiness later, I would do it. Keeping her no longer means anything to me, all I want now, is to see her happy. I just want to see those true smiles again.....even if it means losing her.
I cried even more with this thought. It was hard enough to see her go, and even worse if I have to be the one to usher her along. Yet I knew any pain would be worth it, she's all that matters to me now.
Then out of my expectations....she told me she wanted the first choice. She....actually wanted to stay on, despite knowing it's gonna be a hard road for herself. I was happy...and I was speechless. Then we hugged each other and cried for the next hour or so.
After we calmed down, did a little other stuff and went on to sleep. We gave each other a couple of passionate kisses before going to bed :)
Next morning I woke up, was cause of vibration from my phone. My mum got my message and said I was to be home by 3 if I intend to keep that promise. After that I went back to sleep. Then both of us woke up at 1:45. We then hugged each other cause I had to go soon. For some reason...lingg cried again. It really broke my heart to see those teary eyes.....
We continued hugging and at 2:27, I had to go. I packed up and lingg saw me out. At her doorstep, I hugged her again, and gave her another kiss. Deep down...I don't wanna leave, I wanna be with her. But....circumstances forbid sigh...
After a few more tight hugs, I had to go. Looking at her teary eyes...I really couldn't bear to leave, I had to force myself. As I walked down the corridoor, I cried a little....then I turned back to look at her a couple of times till I was at the lift lobby. Then I turned into the corner and she was gone from my sight. I called for the lift and walked back around the corner again, hoping to catch a last glimpse of lingg, but she had already went back into her house :(
With that, I bused back home.
This is the first major obstacle, and I hope....it will serve to make our bond stronger. Cause I know this had made me realise how deep my love for lingg was. I never knew I could let you go, or even sacrifice myself for you. But yesterday night showed myself that I could. I believe in my love for you even more now.
I love you lingg.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011, 10:19 AM
A day without you
I don't know where to start really....nor do I know the point of even continuing this blog at all. Since...well...the only person this blog is dedicated to won't be coming back here anymore...
But I guess I won't let this blog die, especially when it's the only thing she left for me. The only thing that penned and stored all my happy memories with her. We won't be writing this story together anymore I guess....
Ever since the last incident, she had began to doubt my feelings towards her. Yesterday dealt another, one that might just end this fairytale I had hoped for, for good.
I went out to meet my junboon, well haven't seen him in months since the last time we met during the september holidays. Kinda missing this buddy, we decided to just meet up and catch up on old times. So we did.
Halfway through, lingg looked for me cause she was alone. She was....sad, cold and lonely. I tried coaxing her till she hung up on me. Then I guess...on a moment of impulse, somehow we sparked a quarrel. Yes...you saw it right, a quarrel....
It was not after the quarrel did I realise how foolish I was. She was my girlfriend. Lingg....was my beloved girl. That moment, when she was all sad, cold and lonely, and when it seemed everything else had abandoned her, I was her only refuge....yet....yet I had been an asshole. Debating about stuffs that shouldn't be there when I should instead have been there to hold her hand, cuddle her, comfort her and reassure her. But I didn't....I left her out there....
I may not be entirely wrong with what I have told her, but I guess.....what she said was right too. That...I cannot deny.
She said this "Love is not about possession, it's about the happiness, care and concern for the other party". That....really woke me up when it did. From the start, before I got together with her, her happiness was all I truly cared for. It was genuine, I would make her happy at the expanse of anything. But after getting together, I guess....the fear of losing her turned that genuine care into possession. I never realised that....till she said it. How wrong I have been. I wanted to continue the story, I wanted to build that beautiful future with her, so badly that I guessed it made me possessive...after all, that future cannot be there without her can it? Then maybe it went too far, that the genuine care I once had for her, waned and turned into possession instead.
I have realised my folly....you woke me up from this mistake. I always found out my mistakes from you and worked hard to correct them. Yet I guess...this time, this mistake, is so huge I don't think I'll get the chance to correct it. This mistake...had erazed all hope she ever had in me. If only I had realised this sooner....it wouldn't have came to this.
With that, lingg, if you are even reading this far....I just wanna say I'm sorry.
I'm very very sorry.
I won't ask for your forgiveness, because I know this can no longer be remedied. This is my fault and I shoulder the blame, I won't push it, I won't deny it.
Now I just wish...I had been a better boyfriend. If only that genuine care never altered itself into a twisted form....if only I had realised this sooner....if only I had given up the entire world fully. We would have had such a beautiful future ahead of us. Yet all this has now turned into ashes, and it was all my doing.
You were right, I deserved it, I reap what I sowed.
I know you may hate me now, in fact, I don't know if we can still be together. But I have awoken now, and regardless of what may become of us, if you ever need me again for anything....tell me....I'll be there. It feels good ya know lingg? That genuine care I used to feel for you, that feeling I have lost for 3 weeks....it's back. I feel it again.
Alas, I'm sorry lingg, I should never have let those tears flow down your cheeks. I'm sorry for what I have done.
Today....today will be my first day without her. Without her presence, her smile and without a place for the care to go back to. Our couple ring, when I look and cuddle it again, it feels like as if you were here with me. I can still hear your voice, your laughter when I crack those really lame jokes, and the moments that made you, you.
ごめんなさい lingg, 愛してる.
You'll always have a place in my heart, and always be in my memories.
But I guess I won't let this blog die, especially when it's the only thing she left for me. The only thing that penned and stored all my happy memories with her. We won't be writing this story together anymore I guess....
Ever since the last incident, she had began to doubt my feelings towards her. Yesterday dealt another, one that might just end this fairytale I had hoped for, for good.
I went out to meet my junboon, well haven't seen him in months since the last time we met during the september holidays. Kinda missing this buddy, we decided to just meet up and catch up on old times. So we did.
Halfway through, lingg looked for me cause she was alone. She was....sad, cold and lonely. I tried coaxing her till she hung up on me. Then I guess...on a moment of impulse, somehow we sparked a quarrel. Yes...you saw it right, a quarrel....
It was not after the quarrel did I realise how foolish I was. She was my girlfriend. Lingg....was my beloved girl. That moment, when she was all sad, cold and lonely, and when it seemed everything else had abandoned her, I was her only refuge....yet....yet I had been an asshole. Debating about stuffs that shouldn't be there when I should instead have been there to hold her hand, cuddle her, comfort her and reassure her. But I didn't....I left her out there....
I may not be entirely wrong with what I have told her, but I guess.....what she said was right too. That...I cannot deny.
She said this "Love is not about possession, it's about the happiness, care and concern for the other party". That....really woke me up when it did. From the start, before I got together with her, her happiness was all I truly cared for. It was genuine, I would make her happy at the expanse of anything. But after getting together, I guess....the fear of losing her turned that genuine care into possession. I never realised that....till she said it. How wrong I have been. I wanted to continue the story, I wanted to build that beautiful future with her, so badly that I guessed it made me possessive...after all, that future cannot be there without her can it? Then maybe it went too far, that the genuine care I once had for her, waned and turned into possession instead.
I have realised my folly....you woke me up from this mistake. I always found out my mistakes from you and worked hard to correct them. Yet I guess...this time, this mistake, is so huge I don't think I'll get the chance to correct it. This mistake...had erazed all hope she ever had in me. If only I had realised this sooner....it wouldn't have came to this.
With that, lingg, if you are even reading this far....I just wanna say I'm sorry.
I'm very very sorry.
I won't ask for your forgiveness, because I know this can no longer be remedied. This is my fault and I shoulder the blame, I won't push it, I won't deny it.
Now I just wish...I had been a better boyfriend. If only that genuine care never altered itself into a twisted form....if only I had realised this sooner....if only I had given up the entire world fully. We would have had such a beautiful future ahead of us. Yet all this has now turned into ashes, and it was all my doing.
You were right, I deserved it, I reap what I sowed.
I know you may hate me now, in fact, I don't know if we can still be together. But I have awoken now, and regardless of what may become of us, if you ever need me again for anything....tell me....I'll be there. It feels good ya know lingg? That genuine care I used to feel for you, that feeling I have lost for 3 weeks....it's back. I feel it again.
Alas, I'm sorry lingg, I should never have let those tears flow down your cheeks. I'm sorry for what I have done.
Today....today will be my first day without her. Without her presence, her smile and without a place for the care to go back to. Our couple ring, when I look and cuddle it again, it feels like as if you were here with me. I can still hear your voice, your laughter when I crack those really lame jokes, and the moments that made you, you.
ごめんなさい lingg, 愛してる.
You'll always have a place in my heart, and always be in my memories.
Monday, March 14, 2011, 12:03 AM
Relief~
Right, long post below, longest ever in fact. LOLOL okay so um let's not digress. I shall start this post from yesterday night.
So yesterday night, lingg was doing her stuff on the computer. I suddenly had a splitting headache, so laid down for awhile. After awhile, she was done with her stuff and it was pretty much lights out! Real early too =O I mean, haven't seen her go to bed that early before.
After all went dark, lingg laid down and I rested my head on her bed. I....well couldn't fall asleep...again. Just a lotta things going on in my mind. Then lingg rolled over and carressed my head =x We stoned for awhile and I said some things, and lingg was telling me not to worry too much. Yet yet....I don't know....
Next I rested my head on her and then...I kinda broke down....right in front of her ~.~ I was really really really afraid she'll leave me. I don't wanna lose her :(
She then consoled me and stuff. Well...I still couldn't fall asleep. We had to wake real early the next day and so I told lingg to go to bed first, cause I don't wanna see her so tired :( Then she just refuses to go to sleep unless I did =x So so....well didn't had much of a choice. I laid down, closed my eyes and tried to sleep. She patted me too! Guess it was kinda helpful? I think I fell asleep eventually.
The next thing I knew was hearing some noises. I assumed it was lingg and that it was already 8.30, since we were supposed to wake at that time. I didn't take much notice and continued snoozing away ~~~~
Then I woke up at 10:15 when my alarm rang. Waited for lingg to finish up her preparations and off we went to my house! We will be going out with my family for a steamboat meal at vivo hohoho! We bused down and met my family at the carpark, they were already in the car! And and and I was hoping I could have a little time to prepare a little since my hair was in a damn mess =x
In any case, we drove down to vivo and then my mum alighted first to get tickets for the movie later on after the meal. Car got parked, we all got down and off we went to the restaurant!
We sat down, browsed the menu and placed our orders. Then then me and lingg went to mix up some sauce LOL. Yeah it was pretty much just a random mash-up of lotsa ingredients =x
The food arrived soon after and then I tried the "mash-up" sauce LOL. Looks odd but tasted okay, not too bad =p Lingg didn't try it though haha =/ So we ate and ate and ate yum yum ^~^
We gobbled up everything pretty quickly and at the end, my dad started his lame jokes LOL! Saying something about my sis being Erlang Shen cause she had a pimple smacked right in the middle of her forehead LOL! Then my mum suggested applying pimple cream for my sis. My dad then came in and said "EHHHH don't, the cream ah, apply already instead of making the pimple disappear, will make it swell instead, then later explode!"
Yeah that was freaking hilarious and I totally cracked up! Everyone was laughing! I laughed till I practically teared xD As always LOL!
So meal done, jokes done, off we went to the cinema! We watched red riding hood OoOOoooooooOOo. Not too bad, pretty interesting show though it kinda ruins the suppossed kiddy reputation of a fairytale LOL! =x By the time the show was done, it was around 4?
Lingg had work, so my dad drove us back. Sent us right to lingg's house, dropped me and lingg off before heading to jurong point to get dinner. I accompanied lingg up to her house and waited for her to prepare for work. Didn't take long and off we went! We met up with Ernest at bukit batok station and then trained down to pioneer. At sakura's doorstep, like yesterday, we kept waving to each other till she was outta sight hehe ^^
Then after that, on my way back to pioneer station, my Iphone died O.O It was at 48% battery when I last looked at it a few minutes ago and I couldn't turn it on =.= I kept trying and trying till it finally "revived" when I was almost at my doorstep. Naughty phone ah! Bully me! x(
So at home, I had dinner and pretty much stoned around. I closed my eyes and napped a little too. Like 1 hour or so I believe. Then I woke up, prepared and went back out to fetch lingg off work!
Got there and stood at the window area looking at lingg going on with her work. She looked up once in awhile and we smiled at each other hehe ^^ So I waited and waited till she was finally dismissed! Oh oh and I saw this dude with this huge belly, his face seems to give the expression "I'm having a bloody hard time lugging this lump of fats around AHHHH!" =x Yeah one of the staff in sakura LOL!
We went back to lingg's house. Then she started complaining haha~ I thought she was upset so cracked some really mean jokes about the dude I mentioned above =x Yeah those were pretty funny but mean so I shan't say it here. It was only meant for lingg's ears though, so yeah, if ya wanna know, go ask her xD
Ummmm BUT I'M STILL TEMPTED TO SAY IT! SO HERE GOES!
So the guy likes to jump around, bouncing his tummy up and down, left and right. Don't know what that does, but maybe to see how flexible it is? Maybe he wants to take part in some high jump contest and use the tummy as a bouncer =x
Then then he would whack his tummy and vomit crap out to deflate it. Gets in the way at times ya know? Deflation is the only way. And since he sweats so much, he just had to pump gazillion gallons of water in and pewwww back up comes the tummy! Well he can't go whacking his tummy every single time so off he goes to the toilet to let the tsunami out! Then rub the cubicle seat with his ass. Cause the water can still be used to wash the ass =D Round and round the cubicle we go~~~
Oh my god, think I better stop...damn mean =x
But ah hell who cares!? xD Left and right he will look and each time he turns, hair will fly off his head! Kinda explains why he is half bald? =x Head turning is necessary when he does his belly dance.
Hmm...alright serious, I should stop joking about this =x What goes around comes around ya know? I might end up a joke someday. YO THERE! SORRY MATE! I had to cheer my beloved lingg up, and you just unfortunately happened to be the funniest thing today...so yeah =x NO OFFENSE GOOD SIR!
Then then she went to wash her face and here I am bloggingggggg. Here's a little heads-up, today it was lights out even earlier than yesterday. Lights out at 12:20!! HAHAHAH xD Hmm pretty much cause the bulb blew =x So blogging in darkness xD Hey....it's pretty fun xD Are you afraid of the dark~~~?? Ohh linggg~~~~~ xD
Alright, so before ending this post. Just gonna say this.
Lingg, I'm back to my normal self, sorry about all the sadness and weird behaviour of mine the pass 2 days. I was just....really really afraid ya know? But know that you have reassured me, I feel so much better :) Thanks lingg ^^
What a relief! ;D
So yesterday night, lingg was doing her stuff on the computer. I suddenly had a splitting headache, so laid down for awhile. After awhile, she was done with her stuff and it was pretty much lights out! Real early too =O I mean, haven't seen her go to bed that early before.
After all went dark, lingg laid down and I rested my head on her bed. I....well couldn't fall asleep...again. Just a lotta things going on in my mind. Then lingg rolled over and carressed my head =x We stoned for awhile and I said some things, and lingg was telling me not to worry too much. Yet yet....I don't know....
Next I rested my head on her and then...I kinda broke down....right in front of her ~.~ I was really really really afraid she'll leave me. I don't wanna lose her :(
She then consoled me and stuff. Well...I still couldn't fall asleep. We had to wake real early the next day and so I told lingg to go to bed first, cause I don't wanna see her so tired :( Then she just refuses to go to sleep unless I did =x So so....well didn't had much of a choice. I laid down, closed my eyes and tried to sleep. She patted me too! Guess it was kinda helpful? I think I fell asleep eventually.
The next thing I knew was hearing some noises. I assumed it was lingg and that it was already 8.30, since we were supposed to wake at that time. I didn't take much notice and continued snoozing away ~~~~
Then I woke up at 10:15 when my alarm rang. Waited for lingg to finish up her preparations and off we went to my house! We will be going out with my family for a steamboat meal at vivo hohoho! We bused down and met my family at the carpark, they were already in the car! And and and I was hoping I could have a little time to prepare a little since my hair was in a damn mess =x
In any case, we drove down to vivo and then my mum alighted first to get tickets for the movie later on after the meal. Car got parked, we all got down and off we went to the restaurant!
We sat down, browsed the menu and placed our orders. Then then me and lingg went to mix up some sauce LOL. Yeah it was pretty much just a random mash-up of lotsa ingredients =x
The food arrived soon after and then I tried the "mash-up" sauce LOL. Looks odd but tasted okay, not too bad =p Lingg didn't try it though haha =/ So we ate and ate and ate yum yum ^~^
We gobbled up everything pretty quickly and at the end, my dad started his lame jokes LOL! Saying something about my sis being Erlang Shen cause she had a pimple smacked right in the middle of her forehead LOL! Then my mum suggested applying pimple cream for my sis. My dad then came in and said "EHHHH don't, the cream ah, apply already instead of making the pimple disappear, will make it swell instead, then later explode!"
Yeah that was freaking hilarious and I totally cracked up! Everyone was laughing! I laughed till I practically teared xD As always LOL!
So meal done, jokes done, off we went to the cinema! We watched red riding hood OoOOoooooooOOo. Not too bad, pretty interesting show though it kinda ruins the suppossed kiddy reputation of a fairytale LOL! =x By the time the show was done, it was around 4?
Lingg had work, so my dad drove us back. Sent us right to lingg's house, dropped me and lingg off before heading to jurong point to get dinner. I accompanied lingg up to her house and waited for her to prepare for work. Didn't take long and off we went! We met up with Ernest at bukit batok station and then trained down to pioneer. At sakura's doorstep, like yesterday, we kept waving to each other till she was outta sight hehe ^^
Then after that, on my way back to pioneer station, my Iphone died O.O It was at 48% battery when I last looked at it a few minutes ago and I couldn't turn it on =.= I kept trying and trying till it finally "revived" when I was almost at my doorstep. Naughty phone ah! Bully me! x(
So at home, I had dinner and pretty much stoned around. I closed my eyes and napped a little too. Like 1 hour or so I believe. Then I woke up, prepared and went back out to fetch lingg off work!
Got there and stood at the window area looking at lingg going on with her work. She looked up once in awhile and we smiled at each other hehe ^^ So I waited and waited till she was finally dismissed! Oh oh and I saw this dude with this huge belly, his face seems to give the expression "I'm having a bloody hard time lugging this lump of fats around AHHHH!" =x Yeah one of the staff in sakura LOL!
We went back to lingg's house. Then she started complaining haha~ I thought she was upset so cracked some really mean jokes about the dude I mentioned above =x Yeah those were pretty funny but mean so I shan't say it here. It was only meant for lingg's ears though, so yeah, if ya wanna know, go ask her xD
Ummmm BUT I'M STILL TEMPTED TO SAY IT! SO HERE GOES!
So the guy likes to jump around, bouncing his tummy up and down, left and right. Don't know what that does, but maybe to see how flexible it is? Maybe he wants to take part in some high jump contest and use the tummy as a bouncer =x
Then then he would whack his tummy and vomit crap out to deflate it. Gets in the way at times ya know? Deflation is the only way. And since he sweats so much, he just had to pump gazillion gallons of water in and pewwww back up comes the tummy! Well he can't go whacking his tummy every single time so off he goes to the toilet to let the tsunami out! Then rub the cubicle seat with his ass. Cause the water can still be used to wash the ass =D Round and round the cubicle we go~~~
Oh my god, think I better stop...damn mean =x
But ah hell who cares!? xD Left and right he will look and each time he turns, hair will fly off his head! Kinda explains why he is half bald? =x Head turning is necessary when he does his belly dance.
Hmm...alright serious, I should stop joking about this =x What goes around comes around ya know? I might end up a joke someday. YO THERE! SORRY MATE! I had to cheer my beloved lingg up, and you just unfortunately happened to be the funniest thing today...so yeah =x NO OFFENSE GOOD SIR!
Then then she went to wash her face and here I am bloggingggggg. Here's a little heads-up, today it was lights out even earlier than yesterday. Lights out at 12:20!! HAHAHAH xD Hmm pretty much cause the bulb blew =x So blogging in darkness xD Hey....it's pretty fun xD Are you afraid of the dark~~~?? Ohh linggg~~~~~ xD
Alright, so before ending this post. Just gonna say this.
Lingg, I'm back to my normal self, sorry about all the sadness and weird behaviour of mine the pass 2 days. I was just....really really afraid ya know? But know that you have reassured me, I feel so much better :) Thanks lingg ^^
What a relief! ;D
Saturday, March 12, 2011, 6:19 PM
What the future holds
Haven't posted for a couple of days. Was intending to so last night....well at least, until something cropped up. I'll elaborate a little on this first, then tell you about the happenings for the past few days.
So to start things off, this little unfortunate event occured in late friday. At night I presume. Lingg requested I work with her at sakura. Well...to be honest, I was pretty put off with that thought. Could be maybe I'm too spoilt for manual labor and that I really haven't any interest in doing such stuff. That said...yeah I rejected her request.
As you might have guessed, that ticked her off real bad. So she went along to ignore me. Later on, she requested again...of which....well I rejected again. That was the decisive blow I guess. After that, I had to leave for home, and before parting with her, told her to look out for her phone cause I had something on my mind that needed answers.
So I asked, what am I to her exactly? Shit was the answer I got. Gotta admit...I felt really heartbroken. All that I ever was to her, well...no more than just shit. Then we went on to debate about my feelings towards her. With that, got a "you won't even sacrifice this little bit for me" ticket smacked right on my face. That really hurt me too ya know? I sacrificed so much, things I did for you I never did for anyone else. Yet all you could see was the little bit left that I couldn't do, and turned a blind eye to everything else I gave to you. Much less to say, yeah....she said she was.....disappointed in me....
Every word from her broke my heart again and again till there was nothing else left to shatter. The final straw came when I realised....she never actually did love me...at least....she was trying but never loved from the beginning. Having knew that, I literally broke down. Everything I did for her, was because I believed she loved me. To hold on to that love, to see her smiles, those were my driving forces to do whatever I have done all this time. Yet....at the end of the day...it seems like....all of it were for naught. Cause there was no love from her to begin with.
Then the thought of giving up came to my mind, since....the girl I have been loving all along, never felt the same way towards me. Even if winning her back won't have much a point...since there won't be any love I could regain from her. Yet somehow, there was this part of me that didn't want to let go.
That part of me told me that if I did, I'll regret it, I'll miss her, I'll be back to the life I used to lead. That part of me knew that if I let go, I'll never find another girl like her, she is....well....that special you know? I was really torn apart. I want to go back to her....but I knew she doesn't want me anymore...since she no longer trust the love I had for her.
I was in a dilemma, should I try going back...depsite knowing that she'll never love me? With that, I closed my eyes for a little bit. Then a whole chain of thoughts flashed through my mind. There was still so much I have yet to do, so much more that we have yet to do together. We haven't been to the zoo....she hasn't taught me jap like she promised to....I have yet to get myself a driving license so I could drive her around and she'll no longer need to crowd with people. There was so much so much more...and if I let go now....all of these, will only ever remain as a dream.
Then I saw visions. Visions of me and lingg...
I saw us entering the zoo, chatting, laughing and rotted the entire day away there happily.
I saw lingg wearing my specs tilted downwards and teaching me jap. She looked so much like a teacher and I was the good student...haha... *I smiled here*
I saw myself running out of the driving center with my driving license and hugging lingg. Then we went for a spin, and I made her a promise that I'll always be the ferry in her life. A boat that will never capsize.
Then I saw ourselves in the late 20s. Lingg was wearing her wedding gown, and I was in my suit, she looked....really really beautiful. Then we walked down the aisle, with crowds of people cheering. We gave our vows, exchanged rings and embraced in a passionate kiss. We were husband and wife....I saw us....get married.... *I smiled again*
Next I saw this sea of purple flowers. Lavenders....france....I turned around and saw lingg dancing in the bed of flowers. She was so graceful, then I joined in. We danced hand in hand, laughing away, we looked so....blissful.
Then I saw this kid, this little girl. It was our child, our daughter. She was a beautiful little lass, just like her mother. Can't really remember what we named her....Serah if I recall correctly.
She grew up to a beautiful lady, she was really obedient and filial too.
Next, I saw this image...a family picture. I was on the left, lingg was on the right and our daughter right in the middle. She was dressed in graduation clothes and behind us was harvard university. Could you believe it? Our daughter....graduated from harvard...haha....
Alas, I saw our daughter got married to wonderful guy. She was contented and happy, our role as parents was finally accomplished....
Finally...I saw both us, real old haha....I was hage~~ Yet...despite our age. Me and lingg were still holding hands, chatting and laughing like how we used to when we were young. We were so old...yet still so loving....
Seeing all those visions...they just seemed a little too perfect. At that moment....I really wished we could have gone that far, till the day we die. But looking back at my current situation....I knew it was impossible. Lingg doesn't trust me anymore, so that means there is no way any of that could happen.
That moment, I knew I was going to lose lingg for good. I...never thought I'd live my life without her. Yet...now it seems like I'll be going back to my old life. A life without her...without her smiles and her presence. Everything I had hoped for....it was all gone. In just one night.
Then....when about all hope was lost...and all the visions were fading away. Lingg asked if I wanna go out tomorrow. She seemed...cheerful all of a sudden....saying that she had already gotten what she was after. I asked, but she wouldn't say. It seems like....she forgave me all of a sudden....the hopes started coming back...
So when I met her today, which was saturday, she seemed...perfectly fine. It was like as if nothing had happened, and that it was all just a bad dream. Yet....it was as real as reality could get, it wasn't a dream.
Lingg, I am really confused....I don't know what to believe now. Should I believe that you actually still trust my love for you? Should I believe that one day you'll love me too? Or should I believe we still have a future together, that all I have hoped and dreamt, is still possible? My driving force was my believe of your love for me, if it's not there....what should I believe in? Please tell me lingg....
This is the very reason why I was so quiet the whole day. I just can't get the thought out of my mind....I don't know what I should believe in...after you shattered the only believe I had. Please lingg...give me something else to believe in. Even if it's a lie, deceive me, make me believe that we will have a future together. Just....just don't kill off the final hopes I have left....
Lingg, you are a very nice girl. You said you thought I was the one who wouldn't make you upset. But I seem to be making you sad every now and then......if that's the case...lingg....it's not that you are a hard girlfriend. But rather....I have been a lousy boyfriend. It's all my fault...I'm so sorry for any kind of sadness I have ever given you.
I don't know if you still want me....if you still wanna believe in the love I have for you. But I wanna let you know, my feelings for you, none of them were fake. Every drop of emotion and love I showered on you, came right from my heart. I love you...I really do...I really wanna spend my whole life with you...no one else but you. Sure, we don't know what the future holds, but I know what I want, what I feel in me. It's the love and certainty that we will be together always, all that's left...is you....whether you still believe in it or not...
Lingg....I need your answer, I need something to believe in again, something.....to bring the fading visions back. I know it may be hard for you to tell me face to face...so maybe...you could do it on your blog yeah? Tell me....what exactly is it that you feel in you? Do we still stand that chance? Can we still build our future together? You and me?
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Alright...so enough about the sad stuff, now I'll move onto the events like I promised. So Thursday morning, I went over to lingg's house at 8. Got myself big breakfast from the nearby macs since I expected myself to miss lunch.
So got there, gobbled up my breakfast and went to sleep =x Yeah real tired haha~~
Then then woke up at 12 odd? Cause of lingg's alarm. Since we intended to catch a movie before heading for lingg's class. But maybe cause we were just too damn tired? We actually got back to sleep and slept till 2? haha~~ then we really woke up and played with each other a little. Then lingg started using my phone, and for some odd reason I felt tired again. So so so I laid on lingg's lap and fell asleep xD hehe~~~
I don't know what went on afterwards but the next time I woke up, I was on her bed and I thought I was in some sorta office. Well yeah, lingg was typing and all that HAHA! Then we watched sleepy hollow till 6 odd? After which lingg went to take a bathe before heading down to take pics for her school stuff and the her jap lesson.
We got down to west mall at 7.30 and went to take her photographs first. She really still looked beautiful even without her makeup :)
After that was done, Ernest came and off we went for lingg's jap class! weee~~~
I bid her goodbye, gave her a kiss and she told me not to PDA xD someone shy OOOoooOoOOoo xD
Next I went back to westmall hoping to get a meal cause I was starving. I saw an ice-cream stand along the way and got myself one xD well lucky I did, cause west mall was so packed I couldn't eat there, at least not alone, since I couldn't book any seats =.=
So I rotted and stoned till lingg was finally out!
Then went back to lingg's house, yeah overnight ^^ Then then we watched liar game. Pretty interesting show, just maybe a tad bit confusing at times LOL! We watched till 3 I think? Then went to bed arararara =p
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The next day, we woke at 1! Um rather...lingg woke at 1, to prepare for our movie outing. I woke at 3 instead =x And omg my hair was so damn messy D; oh well =/
We bused down to the cathay, got our tickets and headed straight in just in time for the show. Oh and did I mention there was this really nice caucasian ticketing lady who gave the both of us student prices although I only flashed one. Hmm since lingg didn't have hers xD
We watched Rango! Well not too bad, but I was hoping it'd be a little better =x Damn but the indian birdie part was damn funny wtf ~.~ He opened his shirt then got feathers flowing out non stop. Then everyone ask what was he doing and he replied it's time for me to mate LOL! Mate in the middle of a mission =x
Show ended at 6.30 and we didn't wanna head home yet. So we went to plaza sing since lingg wanted to buy some cosmetics stuff from watsons. Unnnnnnfortunately, it appears there wasn't a watsons store at plaza sing, contrary to lingg's belief hehe~~
So instead, we headed down to bugis, since she was certain there is one there. We trained down and and the next part onwards, yep it's the unfortunate event I mentioned at the top of this post, so shan't go about the details again.
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Then saturday, went down to lingg's house in the morning as she requested since she wants to go out. I didn't sleep the entire night, so went over earlier since I didn't had anything else to do. Not to mention I tried playing games but stopped after 5 minutes? Didn't had the mood at all....
After I got there, lingg went back to bed buried under her blanket after opening the door for me. I for one, was hesitant about getting too close to her....cause I don't know what she was thinking...if she was still angry with me or whatnot, and it's best not to piss her off further accidentally. That said, I sat on the chair at her study table and slept there =/
Then then after awhile? Lingg came and covered my mouth =x Yeah that didn't wake me up, the tickling of my ear did. She then told me to sleep on her bed. Yeah...I was hesitant so I sat at the lower bed, then she went on to ask me to sleep on HER bed lol =x Yeah so I did.
Didn't take me long to fall asleep cause I was real tired. Didn't sleep the entire night ya know? Then she woke me up after she was done with her preparations. We took a train down to bugis to get her stuff. She was all back to her sweet smiling, cute self. To be honest...I didn't know how to react....cause I didn't know what was going on. Especially since she was really pissed last night and now all of a sudden, back to how she used to be :O
I was pretty quiet throughout the whole journey and I think it sorta stressed lingg out? sorry...it wasn't intentional. Like I said above....my mind is...well...occupied with thoughts.
We finally got to bugis and we went to artbox. There she found her panda hoody~~ But didn't dare try it on cause she thought it was weird trying something on without a fitting room. Then I told it was just a jacket she could just wear over, not like she had to take her top off or something haha~ I mean...you definitely have to try it on in case it doesn't fit...it's 50 bucks ya know =/ If it doesn't fit, it's good money wasted.
She looked pretty nice in it. After that, she wanted to take it off so we could pay for it. Worried her top may come off with her hoodie, I pulled her top down while she took off the jacket ^^ Paid for it and well, for some reason she seemed reluctant to leave o.o Kept browsing the shop, don't know what she was looking for haha~~
Once she was done, we went for a meal, kinda hungry yeah =/ Ate at food junction. Then then then then we trained back down to her workplace. It was still early so we decided to drop by jurong point first instead. I got caramel coffee and we walked around a little till it was almost time for her work before heading down.
Met Ernest at the MRT platform and off we went! Yeah it was raining and everything was wet and stuff =/ I saw lingg to sakura's doorstep. Hugged her, gave her a kiss and bidded her goodbye. Somehow I didn't wanna leave till she was outta sight...I don't know why. And and for some reason, lingg kept turning back to wave at me too lol~~
After that I headed back home to rest a little and blog before heading back out to fetch lingg off work.
Sigh....to be honest I have no idea what exactly is going on now....but I really hope that everything...will turn out just fine. I really hope so....
Oh and...longest post ever till date I think? Hope it's not too boring a read =x
So to start things off, this little unfortunate event occured in late friday. At night I presume. Lingg requested I work with her at sakura. Well...to be honest, I was pretty put off with that thought. Could be maybe I'm too spoilt for manual labor and that I really haven't any interest in doing such stuff. That said...yeah I rejected her request.
As you might have guessed, that ticked her off real bad. So she went along to ignore me. Later on, she requested again...of which....well I rejected again. That was the decisive blow I guess. After that, I had to leave for home, and before parting with her, told her to look out for her phone cause I had something on my mind that needed answers.
So I asked, what am I to her exactly? Shit was the answer I got. Gotta admit...I felt really heartbroken. All that I ever was to her, well...no more than just shit. Then we went on to debate about my feelings towards her. With that, got a "you won't even sacrifice this little bit for me" ticket smacked right on my face. That really hurt me too ya know? I sacrificed so much, things I did for you I never did for anyone else. Yet all you could see was the little bit left that I couldn't do, and turned a blind eye to everything else I gave to you. Much less to say, yeah....she said she was.....disappointed in me....
Every word from her broke my heart again and again till there was nothing else left to shatter. The final straw came when I realised....she never actually did love me...at least....she was trying but never loved from the beginning. Having knew that, I literally broke down. Everything I did for her, was because I believed she loved me. To hold on to that love, to see her smiles, those were my driving forces to do whatever I have done all this time. Yet....at the end of the day...it seems like....all of it were for naught. Cause there was no love from her to begin with.
Then the thought of giving up came to my mind, since....the girl I have been loving all along, never felt the same way towards me. Even if winning her back won't have much a point...since there won't be any love I could regain from her. Yet somehow, there was this part of me that didn't want to let go.
That part of me told me that if I did, I'll regret it, I'll miss her, I'll be back to the life I used to lead. That part of me knew that if I let go, I'll never find another girl like her, she is....well....that special you know? I was really torn apart. I want to go back to her....but I knew she doesn't want me anymore...since she no longer trust the love I had for her.
I was in a dilemma, should I try going back...depsite knowing that she'll never love me? With that, I closed my eyes for a little bit. Then a whole chain of thoughts flashed through my mind. There was still so much I have yet to do, so much more that we have yet to do together. We haven't been to the zoo....she hasn't taught me jap like she promised to....I have yet to get myself a driving license so I could drive her around and she'll no longer need to crowd with people. There was so much so much more...and if I let go now....all of these, will only ever remain as a dream.
Then I saw visions. Visions of me and lingg...
I saw us entering the zoo, chatting, laughing and rotted the entire day away there happily.
I saw lingg wearing my specs tilted downwards and teaching me jap. She looked so much like a teacher and I was the good student...haha... *I smiled here*
I saw myself running out of the driving center with my driving license and hugging lingg. Then we went for a spin, and I made her a promise that I'll always be the ferry in her life. A boat that will never capsize.
Then I saw ourselves in the late 20s. Lingg was wearing her wedding gown, and I was in my suit, she looked....really really beautiful. Then we walked down the aisle, with crowds of people cheering. We gave our vows, exchanged rings and embraced in a passionate kiss. We were husband and wife....I saw us....get married.... *I smiled again*
Next I saw this sea of purple flowers. Lavenders....france....I turned around and saw lingg dancing in the bed of flowers. She was so graceful, then I joined in. We danced hand in hand, laughing away, we looked so....blissful.
Then I saw this kid, this little girl. It was our child, our daughter. She was a beautiful little lass, just like her mother. Can't really remember what we named her....Serah if I recall correctly.
She grew up to a beautiful lady, she was really obedient and filial too.
Next, I saw this image...a family picture. I was on the left, lingg was on the right and our daughter right in the middle. She was dressed in graduation clothes and behind us was harvard university. Could you believe it? Our daughter....graduated from harvard...haha....
Alas, I saw our daughter got married to wonderful guy. She was contented and happy, our role as parents was finally accomplished....
Finally...I saw both us, real old haha....I was hage~~ Yet...despite our age. Me and lingg were still holding hands, chatting and laughing like how we used to when we were young. We were so old...yet still so loving....
Seeing all those visions...they just seemed a little too perfect. At that moment....I really wished we could have gone that far, till the day we die. But looking back at my current situation....I knew it was impossible. Lingg doesn't trust me anymore, so that means there is no way any of that could happen.
That moment, I knew I was going to lose lingg for good. I...never thought I'd live my life without her. Yet...now it seems like I'll be going back to my old life. A life without her...without her smiles and her presence. Everything I had hoped for....it was all gone. In just one night.
Then....when about all hope was lost...and all the visions were fading away. Lingg asked if I wanna go out tomorrow. She seemed...cheerful all of a sudden....saying that she had already gotten what she was after. I asked, but she wouldn't say. It seems like....she forgave me all of a sudden....the hopes started coming back...
So when I met her today, which was saturday, she seemed...perfectly fine. It was like as if nothing had happened, and that it was all just a bad dream. Yet....it was as real as reality could get, it wasn't a dream.
Lingg, I am really confused....I don't know what to believe now. Should I believe that you actually still trust my love for you? Should I believe that one day you'll love me too? Or should I believe we still have a future together, that all I have hoped and dreamt, is still possible? My driving force was my believe of your love for me, if it's not there....what should I believe in? Please tell me lingg....
This is the very reason why I was so quiet the whole day. I just can't get the thought out of my mind....I don't know what I should believe in...after you shattered the only believe I had. Please lingg...give me something else to believe in. Even if it's a lie, deceive me, make me believe that we will have a future together. Just....just don't kill off the final hopes I have left....
Lingg, you are a very nice girl. You said you thought I was the one who wouldn't make you upset. But I seem to be making you sad every now and then......if that's the case...lingg....it's not that you are a hard girlfriend. But rather....I have been a lousy boyfriend. It's all my fault...I'm so sorry for any kind of sadness I have ever given you.
I don't know if you still want me....if you still wanna believe in the love I have for you. But I wanna let you know, my feelings for you, none of them were fake. Every drop of emotion and love I showered on you, came right from my heart. I love you...I really do...I really wanna spend my whole life with you...no one else but you. Sure, we don't know what the future holds, but I know what I want, what I feel in me. It's the love and certainty that we will be together always, all that's left...is you....whether you still believe in it or not...
Lingg....I need your answer, I need something to believe in again, something.....to bring the fading visions back. I know it may be hard for you to tell me face to face...so maybe...you could do it on your blog yeah? Tell me....what exactly is it that you feel in you? Do we still stand that chance? Can we still build our future together? You and me?
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Alright...so enough about the sad stuff, now I'll move onto the events like I promised. So Thursday morning, I went over to lingg's house at 8. Got myself big breakfast from the nearby macs since I expected myself to miss lunch.
So got there, gobbled up my breakfast and went to sleep =x Yeah real tired haha~~
Then then woke up at 12 odd? Cause of lingg's alarm. Since we intended to catch a movie before heading for lingg's class. But maybe cause we were just too damn tired? We actually got back to sleep and slept till 2? haha~~ then we really woke up and played with each other a little. Then lingg started using my phone, and for some odd reason I felt tired again. So so so I laid on lingg's lap and fell asleep xD hehe~~~
I don't know what went on afterwards but the next time I woke up, I was on her bed and I thought I was in some sorta office. Well yeah, lingg was typing and all that HAHA! Then we watched sleepy hollow till 6 odd? After which lingg went to take a bathe before heading down to take pics for her school stuff and the her jap lesson.
We got down to west mall at 7.30 and went to take her photographs first. She really still looked beautiful even without her makeup :)
After that was done, Ernest came and off we went for lingg's jap class! weee~~~
I bid her goodbye, gave her a kiss and she told me not to PDA xD someone shy OOOoooOoOOoo xD
Next I went back to westmall hoping to get a meal cause I was starving. I saw an ice-cream stand along the way and got myself one xD well lucky I did, cause west mall was so packed I couldn't eat there, at least not alone, since I couldn't book any seats =.=
So I rotted and stoned till lingg was finally out!
Then went back to lingg's house, yeah overnight ^^ Then then we watched liar game. Pretty interesting show, just maybe a tad bit confusing at times LOL! We watched till 3 I think? Then went to bed arararara =p
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The next day, we woke at 1! Um rather...lingg woke at 1, to prepare for our movie outing. I woke at 3 instead =x And omg my hair was so damn messy D; oh well =/
We bused down to the cathay, got our tickets and headed straight in just in time for the show. Oh and did I mention there was this really nice caucasian ticketing lady who gave the both of us student prices although I only flashed one. Hmm since lingg didn't have hers xD
We watched Rango! Well not too bad, but I was hoping it'd be a little better =x Damn but the indian birdie part was damn funny wtf ~.~ He opened his shirt then got feathers flowing out non stop. Then everyone ask what was he doing and he replied it's time for me to mate LOL! Mate in the middle of a mission =x
Show ended at 6.30 and we didn't wanna head home yet. So we went to plaza sing since lingg wanted to buy some cosmetics stuff from watsons. Unnnnnnfortunately, it appears there wasn't a watsons store at plaza sing, contrary to lingg's belief hehe~~
So instead, we headed down to bugis, since she was certain there is one there. We trained down and and the next part onwards, yep it's the unfortunate event I mentioned at the top of this post, so shan't go about the details again.
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Then saturday, went down to lingg's house in the morning as she requested since she wants to go out. I didn't sleep the entire night, so went over earlier since I didn't had anything else to do. Not to mention I tried playing games but stopped after 5 minutes? Didn't had the mood at all....
After I got there, lingg went back to bed buried under her blanket after opening the door for me. I for one, was hesitant about getting too close to her....cause I don't know what she was thinking...if she was still angry with me or whatnot, and it's best not to piss her off further accidentally. That said, I sat on the chair at her study table and slept there =/
Then then after awhile? Lingg came and covered my mouth =x Yeah that didn't wake me up, the tickling of my ear did. She then told me to sleep on her bed. Yeah...I was hesitant so I sat at the lower bed, then she went on to ask me to sleep on HER bed lol =x Yeah so I did.
Didn't take me long to fall asleep cause I was real tired. Didn't sleep the entire night ya know? Then she woke me up after she was done with her preparations. We took a train down to bugis to get her stuff. She was all back to her sweet smiling, cute self. To be honest...I didn't know how to react....cause I didn't know what was going on. Especially since she was really pissed last night and now all of a sudden, back to how she used to be :O
I was pretty quiet throughout the whole journey and I think it sorta stressed lingg out? sorry...it wasn't intentional. Like I said above....my mind is...well...occupied with thoughts.
We finally got to bugis and we went to artbox. There she found her panda hoody~~ But didn't dare try it on cause she thought it was weird trying something on without a fitting room. Then I told it was just a jacket she could just wear over, not like she had to take her top off or something haha~ I mean...you definitely have to try it on in case it doesn't fit...it's 50 bucks ya know =/ If it doesn't fit, it's good money wasted.
She looked pretty nice in it. After that, she wanted to take it off so we could pay for it. Worried her top may come off with her hoodie, I pulled her top down while she took off the jacket ^^ Paid for it and well, for some reason she seemed reluctant to leave o.o Kept browsing the shop, don't know what she was looking for haha~~
Once she was done, we went for a meal, kinda hungry yeah =/ Ate at food junction. Then then then then we trained back down to her workplace. It was still early so we decided to drop by jurong point first instead. I got caramel coffee and we walked around a little till it was almost time for her work before heading down.
Met Ernest at the MRT platform and off we went! Yeah it was raining and everything was wet and stuff =/ I saw lingg to sakura's doorstep. Hugged her, gave her a kiss and bidded her goodbye. Somehow I didn't wanna leave till she was outta sight...I don't know why. And and for some reason, lingg kept turning back to wave at me too lol~~
After that I headed back home to rest a little and blog before heading back out to fetch lingg off work.
Sigh....to be honest I have no idea what exactly is going on now....but I really hope that everything...will turn out just fine. I really hope so....
Oh and...longest post ever till date I think? Hope it's not too boring a read =x
