Monday, January 31, 2011, 11:59 PM
Exhausted Yet Happy~
Alright, freaggin' woke up at 7 in the morning and as usual, shuffled to school for my lesson at 9. The initial plan for the day was to go to the zoo once I'm done with my lesson. So we arranged to meet at 12.30, and that meant that ling had to wake real early at 10.30 too =x Then then IT STARTED TO RAIN, and it continued all the way into the afternoon. This seriously compromised our plans for the day. Like seriously...who'd wanna visit a zoo where all the animals are hiding from the rain and there are like little oceans all over the place. More like underwater world than a zoo lolol. So sorry ling!! For making you wake so early for nothing =/
Then again, it got me thinking. It's been raining like there's no tomorrow the pass few days. Well, Jebus alone won't have that much holy water to let out. So my guess was, Bubbha got so good in chess it went around pwning all the other gods. So all the losers decided to host a sorrow parade and flood the world with holy water. Well...not that it's a bad thing, I mean, IT'S HOLY STUFF!! But I still think the world would prefer my holy crap. It shines like an exploding sun and smells like paradise. My holy crap is the most stunning and mesmerising thing ever, and second to none. Oh well...on second thoughts, maybe there is something my crap's beauty and elegance cannot beat.....that is.... *for me to know and for you to find out*
Moving on, so with the initial plans for the day screwed, I met up with ling at her house first. There she showed me her new top and heels. I think she looked gorgeous in them ^^ Too bad I didn't get any photos xD Next, we showed me those shimmering eyes again and I melted :( So I gave up and we went on to Henderson's wave haha.
This time, we finally found the damned All-Gods-Combined forsaken place. In order to get to the wave, we had to scale Telok Banglah hill first *oops*. Well I was carrying a bag worth 4kg in load and trekking with it wasn't exactly what I had in mind. But oh well, with her beside me, I really can't be bothered with the weight =p We went on and on till halfway, ling suggested we take a shortcut. I don't know what the heck was going on in my mind and I replied her with gibberish LOL! Then went on to take the longer route. When we finally reached the top, I saw the shorcut and asked ling why didn't we take that in the first place? Then she told me she already suggested it, just that I gave her nonsense instead =x That moment I was like "OMG?? SERIOUS?? I don't recall the part she suggested the shortcut..." =/ Yeah epic fail on my part haha~
We went on and on till we finally got to Henderson's wave. There I tried to disturb her, and while evading me, she accidentally fell down D; Luckily she wasn't injured or I would feel so guilty. SO sorry ling!!! Didn't expect that to happen :( Yeah she was lucky to be fine, but her shoe wasn't =x One of the bearings came off. Then know what? Ling was so resourceful, she used a hairband to secure it LOL! Totally ingenious, I must say I was impressed haha. Like honestly, who would ever think of using a hairband to secure stuff? haha~
After that, we decided to head down to vivo and see if we can find a new pair of shoe for ling. We walked all around vivo and harbourfront center but she didn't find anything to her liking. So we didn't get anything in the end. Fortunately her hairband was really durable o.o It worked like a charm, like as if the bearing never came off in the first place. By the time we were done, it was still pretty early so I suggested we go take a little look around Sentosa. After all, it has been more than 4 years since I last stepped into that place.
We walked the boardwalk thingy to Sentosa. We were so bored that we actually took the travelator travelling in the opposite direction. You shoulda seen the look on the faces of passer-bys, they were like "what are those 2 doing?" LOLOL
We went in, and yeah~~ it was really beautiful. Honestly, I loved the place o.o At least well compared to last time, it was a really huge change! We took photos and stuff with us taking turns to do poses. Yeah, my poses were pretty retarded but meh! Who cares?! So long as we are happy and the pics are unique, why not? AHAHAHA~
We went all over the place. Well we didn't enter the main attractions cause it was already 5 odd and everything was shutting down. So we walked and walked and eventally ended up on a small tower on a small island in the sub island of Sentosa in the main island of Singapore.
At the top of the tower, there was nice wind, nice view, and nice company too ^^ Then then I accidentally blabbered LY LOL! Well ling still doesn't know what it means xD
By the time we left the tower, it was pretty dark so we headed back to the main area. I was pretty hungry so we went around looking for food. We went to RamenPlay. I order Ramen and soft shell crab. Ya know, the image of the soft shell crab on the menu looked so large. But when the order cam, GUESS WHAT??!! It was so freaking small and it cost me 5.80!!!!! It's like about 1/4 the size of a soft shell crab. In fact, 1 entire soft shell crab is barely larger than your fist...so imgaine if I got 1/4 of it? Yeah for 5.80 =.= I felt cheated zzzzzz.....
So after leaving the restaurant with a hole in my heart, we decided to catch the crane showering together thingy at 9pm. Sounds porno =x We found sits and I took an entire area =x Then then then nearing the start of the show, some arseholes came and locked my view!!! MY BEAUTIFUL VIEW!!! I loved that position ._. So forced by circumstances, we moved up a seat lol~
The show then started and it was actually pretty nice. I wanted to say something, but seeing how engrossed ling was with the performance and with the music blasting at 1000000 decibals and all, I decided it was best to skip it haha
By the time the show ended it was 9.30 so we headed home. On the bus, ling was so exhausted she fell asleep for the first time! Her head kept lowering till she looked like she was praying, and it looked uncomfortable. So i wanted to ask if she wanted to lean on me instead, but seeing how deep her sleep was, I decided to just let her be and not disturb her =p
So we finally reached her area and 157 came real fast today. So I had to go T.T oh well...
Anyway, ling, you looked sad every once in awhile today. Well, ya know, if you need me, I'll be there. If you need a listening ear, I will lend you mine. If you ever need a shoulder to lean on, I'll lend you mine. You ain't alone yet alright? So cheer up ling!! Be cheerful, cause those smiles are the best thing in the world! ;D
An exhasuting day, but a happy one :)
Then again, it got me thinking. It's been raining like there's no tomorrow the pass few days. Well, Jebus alone won't have that much holy water to let out. So my guess was, Bubbha got so good in chess it went around pwning all the other gods. So all the losers decided to host a sorrow parade and flood the world with holy water. Well...not that it's a bad thing, I mean, IT'S HOLY STUFF!! But I still think the world would prefer my holy crap. It shines like an exploding sun and smells like paradise. My holy crap is the most stunning and mesmerising thing ever, and second to none. Oh well...on second thoughts, maybe there is something my crap's beauty and elegance cannot beat.....that is.... *for me to know and for you to find out*
Moving on, so with the initial plans for the day screwed, I met up with ling at her house first. There she showed me her new top and heels. I think she looked gorgeous in them ^^ Too bad I didn't get any photos xD Next, we showed me those shimmering eyes again and I melted :( So I gave up and we went on to Henderson's wave haha.
This time, we finally found the damned All-Gods-Combined forsaken place. In order to get to the wave, we had to scale Telok Banglah hill first *oops*. Well I was carrying a bag worth 4kg in load and trekking with it wasn't exactly what I had in mind. But oh well, with her beside me, I really can't be bothered with the weight =p We went on and on till halfway, ling suggested we take a shortcut. I don't know what the heck was going on in my mind and I replied her with gibberish LOL! Then went on to take the longer route. When we finally reached the top, I saw the shorcut and asked ling why didn't we take that in the first place? Then she told me she already suggested it, just that I gave her nonsense instead =x That moment I was like "OMG?? SERIOUS?? I don't recall the part she suggested the shortcut..." =/ Yeah epic fail on my part haha~
We went on and on till we finally got to Henderson's wave. There I tried to disturb her, and while evading me, she accidentally fell down D; Luckily she wasn't injured or I would feel so guilty. SO sorry ling!!! Didn't expect that to happen :( Yeah she was lucky to be fine, but her shoe wasn't =x One of the bearings came off. Then know what? Ling was so resourceful, she used a hairband to secure it LOL! Totally ingenious, I must say I was impressed haha. Like honestly, who would ever think of using a hairband to secure stuff? haha~
After that, we decided to head down to vivo and see if we can find a new pair of shoe for ling. We walked all around vivo and harbourfront center but she didn't find anything to her liking. So we didn't get anything in the end. Fortunately her hairband was really durable o.o It worked like a charm, like as if the bearing never came off in the first place. By the time we were done, it was still pretty early so I suggested we go take a little look around Sentosa. After all, it has been more than 4 years since I last stepped into that place.
We walked the boardwalk thingy to Sentosa. We were so bored that we actually took the travelator travelling in the opposite direction. You shoulda seen the look on the faces of passer-bys, they were like "what are those 2 doing?" LOLOL
We went in, and yeah~~ it was really beautiful. Honestly, I loved the place o.o At least well compared to last time, it was a really huge change! We took photos and stuff with us taking turns to do poses. Yeah, my poses were pretty retarded but meh! Who cares?! So long as we are happy and the pics are unique, why not? AHAHAHA~
We went all over the place. Well we didn't enter the main attractions cause it was already 5 odd and everything was shutting down. So we walked and walked and eventally ended up on a small tower on a small island in the sub island of Sentosa in the main island of Singapore.
At the top of the tower, there was nice wind, nice view, and nice company too ^^ Then then I accidentally blabbered LY LOL! Well ling still doesn't know what it means xD
By the time we left the tower, it was pretty dark so we headed back to the main area. I was pretty hungry so we went around looking for food. We went to RamenPlay. I order Ramen and soft shell crab. Ya know, the image of the soft shell crab on the menu looked so large. But when the order cam, GUESS WHAT??!! It was so freaking small and it cost me 5.80!!!!! It's like about 1/4 the size of a soft shell crab. In fact, 1 entire soft shell crab is barely larger than your fist...so imgaine if I got 1/4 of it? Yeah for 5.80 =.= I felt cheated zzzzzz.....
So after leaving the restaurant with a hole in my heart, we decided to catch the crane showering together thingy at 9pm. Sounds porno =x We found sits and I took an entire area =x Then then then nearing the start of the show, some arseholes came and locked my view!!! MY BEAUTIFUL VIEW!!! I loved that position ._. So forced by circumstances, we moved up a seat lol~
The show then started and it was actually pretty nice. I wanted to say something, but seeing how engrossed ling was with the performance and with the music blasting at 1000000 decibals and all, I decided it was best to skip it haha
By the time the show ended it was 9.30 so we headed home. On the bus, ling was so exhausted she fell asleep for the first time! Her head kept lowering till she looked like she was praying, and it looked uncomfortable. So i wanted to ask if she wanted to lean on me instead, but seeing how deep her sleep was, I decided to just let her be and not disturb her =p
So we finally reached her area and 157 came real fast today. So I had to go T.T oh well...
Anyway, ling, you looked sad every once in awhile today. Well, ya know, if you need me, I'll be there. If you need a listening ear, I will lend you mine. If you ever need a shoulder to lean on, I'll lend you mine. You ain't alone yet alright? So cheer up ling!! Be cheerful, cause those smiles are the best thing in the world! ;D
An exhasuting day, but a happy one :)
Sunday, January 30, 2011, 10:16 PM
The Little Pieces
Yeah, you've guessed it, I riled her up today. Don't ask why...cause I haven't the slightest clue either. Each time I accidentally riled her up, I try my best to gain her forgiveness. I might have gotten lucky the past times, but you'll never know when that luck runs out do you?
I messaged her, I rang her up, I msn'ed her, but she would take no notice of any. I apologised and she said there's no point in aplogising if I don't know what I have done. So I begged for her forgiveness, and I got the same answer. I'm at my wits end, I don't even know what else to do anymore.
Now because of this, our outing tomorrow is cancelled...I miss her so much :(
Ya know, just 4 more days and it'll be my birthday. Yet, bad things always seem to happen to be nearing my birthday. It was like this 5 years back, it was the same 2 years back, and now it's happening again. People dear to me have to leave when my birthday nears, and it makes me wonder if my birthday is cursed to me. Sigh....and I actually naively believed that this year's birthday would be something different, something special, something....worth remembering. I guess not....
I really don't know what else I can do, and I don't know when all of this dreams will end, when my borrowed time together with her will one day abruptly end. Sigh...
Ling, if ya even reading this at all, I'm just gonna say I'm very sorry cause for all I know, this time it might be for real, you might actually be hating me for good. Yet there is nothing I can do about it...
Ya know when I was recording your voice back when we were on the swings and when I was at your house, you asked me why I did so? I didn't answer back then, but I will now. I recorded your voice as keepsakes. Why? Cause I'm afraid one day you'll leave all of a sudden. It could be today, it could be tomorrow, I'll never know. But when that happens, at least I still have those recordings to remind me of you. To keep the little dream going, even if it's just an illusion.
When you ignored me earlier, I kept playing those recordings over and over again. It felt like as if you were still beside me, that you're still there, that I'm not alone again, at least not yet.
I know you won't hear my apologies or forgive me...but...
Ling, if you're still reading at this point, I'm very sorry. And just in case this time it's for real, Ling...I love you, you'll always be that part of me, the little pieces that make me complete.
You were my new dream 2 months back, you are my new dream now, and you'll always be.
I messaged her, I rang her up, I msn'ed her, but she would take no notice of any. I apologised and she said there's no point in aplogising if I don't know what I have done. So I begged for her forgiveness, and I got the same answer. I'm at my wits end, I don't even know what else to do anymore.
Now because of this, our outing tomorrow is cancelled...I miss her so much :(
Ya know, just 4 more days and it'll be my birthday. Yet, bad things always seem to happen to be nearing my birthday. It was like this 5 years back, it was the same 2 years back, and now it's happening again. People dear to me have to leave when my birthday nears, and it makes me wonder if my birthday is cursed to me. Sigh....and I actually naively believed that this year's birthday would be something different, something special, something....worth remembering. I guess not....
I really don't know what else I can do, and I don't know when all of this dreams will end, when my borrowed time together with her will one day abruptly end. Sigh...
Ling, if ya even reading this at all, I'm just gonna say I'm very sorry cause for all I know, this time it might be for real, you might actually be hating me for good. Yet there is nothing I can do about it...
Ya know when I was recording your voice back when we were on the swings and when I was at your house, you asked me why I did so? I didn't answer back then, but I will now. I recorded your voice as keepsakes. Why? Cause I'm afraid one day you'll leave all of a sudden. It could be today, it could be tomorrow, I'll never know. But when that happens, at least I still have those recordings to remind me of you. To keep the little dream going, even if it's just an illusion.
When you ignored me earlier, I kept playing those recordings over and over again. It felt like as if you were still beside me, that you're still there, that I'm not alone again, at least not yet.
I know you won't hear my apologies or forgive me...but...
Ling, if you're still reading at this point, I'm very sorry. And just in case this time it's for real, Ling...I love you, you'll always be that part of me, the little pieces that make me complete.
You were my new dream 2 months back, you are my new dream now, and you'll always be.
Saturday, January 29, 2011, 2:16 PM
Ice Age!
Alright, I woke up cause it was so freakishly bloody colddddddddddddd~~ It rained and rained and rained. Oh gosh, Jebus, can you please stop losing? Like c'mon how much holy water do you have dude ~
So so back to topic, it's a Saturday today..already. I didn't blog yesterday cause by the time I got back home, it was already a Saturday, so kinda missed it ;D
In any case, just a little recap of Friday. Nothing special to the day except the fact that I pissed lingg off >.< Then she went ignoring me and I was like "oh crap...this ain't good..." I knew she had to work from 6-10, so I figured I'd go wait at her void deck area, I mean...she has to pass by there right? Unless she prefers sleeping in the open xD So after a little consideration, and hesitation...I thought I'd go fetch her off work instead and hope she'll forgive me. I don't know what made me decide to go down to her workplace...maybe cause I don't wanna risk losing her :(
So after reaching there, since we were seperated by a glass window *apparently she won't hear me even if I apologised*, so I wrote a message and showed it to her. After seeing it she gave a nonchalant face and it made me even more worried >.< Oh and by the way, she was wearing an odd looking dress which made her look like a fluff ball, kinda cute if ya ask me. Moving on, I waited for her until she was finally dismissed. She walked pass me :( I then chased up to her and apologised and stuff. Through the whole journey back to her home, she was pretty much ignoring me. I felt at such a loss, I don't really know what else to do ;(((((((
Then after reaching her area, I realised I didn't bring my keys out, and nobody was at home, at least not till 1 odd. Knowing that, I suggested she go back home first while I wait around till my parents are back. For some reason, she wouldn't budged =/ But yet, she wouldn't talk to me either...
Then then there was this cat, which walked all around and suddenly jumped onto my lap and started walking ON IT. WTH ~.~ then it laid down on my lap and then I could feel its breathing. Know what the "best" part was? It's stomach area was resting on my crotch =.= and when it breathed there was this vibration LOL! Damn it was awkward and kinda uncomfortable. But then I touched the cat and stroked its fur, not sure if it's clean but it was nice to touch. Alright alright, enough about the cat. Somehow, the cat made ling smile and that much gave me a chance to converse with her again...and she finally replied!!!! =D
Damn, the cat broke the damned ice. I don't know what to say, alright I know the cat won't see this, but even if it did it won't know what gibberish is written here but I'm still gonna say I'm thankful to the cat =) Were it not for the cat, I really don't know how to get ling to talk to me =/
The next time I see it, maybe I'll get it some food? Not sure what it eats though, don't wanna kill it! hahahaha~~
So then we sat there for I don't know how long and it was cold. I know she felt cold too so I offered her my over-shirt, but she declined >.< Then next she brought me to the letterbox area. Probably cause it was built in such a shape that it would block off the wind haha. After standing there like statues for awhile, she suggested going up to her house. Then I was like a little stunned =x cause I didn't know if it was appropriate ya know? But eventually we went up anyway. There, she made me guess which was her unit LAWLS~ Yeah failed epically xD
So went into her house, and slacked, chatted, played till it was around 3.45 AM ._. To be honest, I wouldn't leave if I could cause I wanted to spend as much time as I can with her. Oh well, she appeared tired so then I decide it was better if I go off so she can get some rest. Sorry for holding you up for so long ling!! >.<
I went back home and as expected: TOTAL KNOCKOUT xD
Alright on a last note, I just wanna say: Thank you ling for forgiving me, you don't know how happy I was when you talked to me again; And of course, we can't forget the cat either, thank you kitty for helping me there break the ice age =p
So so back to topic, it's a Saturday today..already. I didn't blog yesterday cause by the time I got back home, it was already a Saturday, so kinda missed it ;D
In any case, just a little recap of Friday. Nothing special to the day except the fact that I pissed lingg off >.< Then she went ignoring me and I was like "oh crap...this ain't good..." I knew she had to work from 6-10, so I figured I'd go wait at her void deck area, I mean...she has to pass by there right? Unless she prefers sleeping in the open xD So after a little consideration, and hesitation...I thought I'd go fetch her off work instead and hope she'll forgive me. I don't know what made me decide to go down to her workplace...maybe cause I don't wanna risk losing her :(
So after reaching there, since we were seperated by a glass window *apparently she won't hear me even if I apologised*, so I wrote a message and showed it to her. After seeing it she gave a nonchalant face and it made me even more worried >.< Oh and by the way, she was wearing an odd looking dress which made her look like a fluff ball, kinda cute if ya ask me. Moving on, I waited for her until she was finally dismissed. She walked pass me :( I then chased up to her and apologised and stuff. Through the whole journey back to her home, she was pretty much ignoring me. I felt at such a loss, I don't really know what else to do ;(((((((
Then after reaching her area, I realised I didn't bring my keys out, and nobody was at home, at least not till 1 odd. Knowing that, I suggested she go back home first while I wait around till my parents are back. For some reason, she wouldn't budged =/ But yet, she wouldn't talk to me either...
Then then there was this cat, which walked all around and suddenly jumped onto my lap and started walking ON IT. WTH ~.~ then it laid down on my lap and then I could feel its breathing. Know what the "best" part was? It's stomach area was resting on my crotch =.= and when it breathed there was this vibration LOL! Damn it was awkward and kinda uncomfortable. But then I touched the cat and stroked its fur, not sure if it's clean but it was nice to touch. Alright alright, enough about the cat. Somehow, the cat made ling smile and that much gave me a chance to converse with her again...and she finally replied!!!! =D
Damn, the cat broke the damned ice. I don't know what to say, alright I know the cat won't see this, but even if it did it won't know what gibberish is written here but I'm still gonna say I'm thankful to the cat =) Were it not for the cat, I really don't know how to get ling to talk to me =/
The next time I see it, maybe I'll get it some food? Not sure what it eats though, don't wanna kill it! hahahaha~~
So then we sat there for I don't know how long and it was cold. I know she felt cold too so I offered her my over-shirt, but she declined >.< Then next she brought me to the letterbox area. Probably cause it was built in such a shape that it would block off the wind haha. After standing there like statues for awhile, she suggested going up to her house. Then I was like a little stunned =x cause I didn't know if it was appropriate ya know? But eventually we went up anyway. There, she made me guess which was her unit LAWLS~ Yeah failed epically xD
So went into her house, and slacked, chatted, played till it was around 3.45 AM ._. To be honest, I wouldn't leave if I could cause I wanted to spend as much time as I can with her. Oh well, she appeared tired so then I decide it was better if I go off so she can get some rest. Sorry for holding you up for so long ling!! >.<
I went back home and as expected: TOTAL KNOCKOUT xD
Alright on a last note, I just wanna say: Thank you ling for forgiving me, you don't know how happy I was when you talked to me again; And of course, we can't forget the cat either, thank you kitty for helping me there break the ice age =p
Friday, January 28, 2011, 1:00 AM
Some Tears Are Worth Shedding
It's Friday, 1 in the morning but yeah technically speaking it's still a Friday.
So talking to ling on msn reminded me that my birthday is a week from now. Ya know, I actually almost forgot about it. After all, the past 7 years on 4th February was never anything special to me. Just ordinary days where I would spend the day alone in my room with my computer, eat alone somewhere for dinner and just pass the day. That was how I passed my birthdays the past 7 years. Well my parents are usually occupied with work, so they just give me some cash to get myself a present. And besides them, no one else really bothers to remember my birthday.
So entering 2011, I thought this year would be the same again. I mean...after 7 years of routine "birthdays", you don't really expect anything to happen besides the usual.
Well, I guess my parents, as much as they understand me...there are still some part of myself they do not yet know. I'm not money minded...alright maybe I used to be a little, but as you grow, you kinda realise money, for all it's worth...is pretty worthless. Yeah true, getting myself a present for my birthday with cash from my parents might make me a little happy, but it's only for that little while..it doesn't last. One good example was a few months before my O levels, I was still pretty much slacking my time away and my mum, worried as she was, offered me 5k cash if I got 12 points and below. For anyone else, 5k~~ that would be more than enough to motivate any living soul. I guess my mum thought it would push me a little harder, and ultimately, when I scored 11, she actually thought the reward motivated me.
But in actual fact, no it didn't. I couldn't care less even when she offered that as a reward. What eventually got me going was luckily, a few months before my Os, I so happened realised what I wanted to do in this life of mine. That was what pushed me. So....money, all it ever gets you is material happiness. It satisfies you physically, but all that is pointless if deep down, mentally, you are never happy.
For me, what I really wanted for my birthday was that much to just really spend time with people close to me, people I love. To know that they care. I don't even care f I had to sacrifice the few hundred bucks worth of present cash. Like maybe a day out, a good meal with people dear to me. That's all I'm asking for, guess something simple can be equally hard to achieve. That much so every time I see people celebrating their birthdays with cakes, candles, friends, family...I really envy them.
Well this really points to another fact, anything no matter how insignificant, don't ever take it for granted. For that little something that you may have, may be like the world to someone else. Cherish everything, every moment, every person dear to you, and create those beautiful memories while you can. It's that something we can hold onto, a comfort when everything else is gone.
Now, there is that someone special. Every moment I have with her, I cherish them. To create beautiful memories while I still can. I'm so afraid I'll lose her, someday she may leave me. When that happens, I'll miss her presence, I'll miss her smile, I'll miss the look in her eyes, I'll miss her laughter, I'll miss walking beside her, I'll miss holding her, I'll miss her personality...I'll miss everything about her. Then should such a moment come, at least...I have memories I can hold onto....to look back to...
Some tears...they are worth shedding.
So talking to ling on msn reminded me that my birthday is a week from now. Ya know, I actually almost forgot about it. After all, the past 7 years on 4th February was never anything special to me. Just ordinary days where I would spend the day alone in my room with my computer, eat alone somewhere for dinner and just pass the day. That was how I passed my birthdays the past 7 years. Well my parents are usually occupied with work, so they just give me some cash to get myself a present. And besides them, no one else really bothers to remember my birthday.
So entering 2011, I thought this year would be the same again. I mean...after 7 years of routine "birthdays", you don't really expect anything to happen besides the usual.
Well, I guess my parents, as much as they understand me...there are still some part of myself they do not yet know. I'm not money minded...alright maybe I used to be a little, but as you grow, you kinda realise money, for all it's worth...is pretty worthless. Yeah true, getting myself a present for my birthday with cash from my parents might make me a little happy, but it's only for that little while..it doesn't last. One good example was a few months before my O levels, I was still pretty much slacking my time away and my mum, worried as she was, offered me 5k cash if I got 12 points and below. For anyone else, 5k~~ that would be more than enough to motivate any living soul. I guess my mum thought it would push me a little harder, and ultimately, when I scored 11, she actually thought the reward motivated me.
But in actual fact, no it didn't. I couldn't care less even when she offered that as a reward. What eventually got me going was luckily, a few months before my Os, I so happened realised what I wanted to do in this life of mine. That was what pushed me. So....money, all it ever gets you is material happiness. It satisfies you physically, but all that is pointless if deep down, mentally, you are never happy.
For me, what I really wanted for my birthday was that much to just really spend time with people close to me, people I love. To know that they care. I don't even care f I had to sacrifice the few hundred bucks worth of present cash. Like maybe a day out, a good meal with people dear to me. That's all I'm asking for, guess something simple can be equally hard to achieve. That much so every time I see people celebrating their birthdays with cakes, candles, friends, family...I really envy them.
Well this really points to another fact, anything no matter how insignificant, don't ever take it for granted. For that little something that you may have, may be like the world to someone else. Cherish everything, every moment, every person dear to you, and create those beautiful memories while you can. It's that something we can hold onto, a comfort when everything else is gone.
Now, there is that someone special. Every moment I have with her, I cherish them. To create beautiful memories while I still can. I'm so afraid I'll lose her, someday she may leave me. When that happens, I'll miss her presence, I'll miss her smile, I'll miss the look in her eyes, I'll miss her laughter, I'll miss walking beside her, I'll miss holding her, I'll miss her personality...I'll miss everything about her. Then should such a moment come, at least...I have memories I can hold onto....to look back to...
Some tears...they are worth shedding.
Thursday, January 27, 2011, 11:27 PM
Worth every ounce
It's Thursday! And as usual, I'm soooo gonna accompany lingg to her Japanese class at Bukit Batok's community center.
My lesson was supposed to end at approximately 6, so ling suggested she'd come down and look for me first before heading down for her class (you are awesome ling! ;D) So after lesson I went on to the train station to look for her. After locating her, I attempted to hear what she was listening to, since she had her earpiece plugged in. BUT SHE PAUSED THE MUSIC!!!! AHHHHH~~~~~ But honestly...I'd bet it's Thai music by Bird Thong Chai >>>> As stupid as it sounds, yes there IS such a name and it's hilariously retarded xD Who in the right mind would call himself bird... ~.~
Oh well, the train finally came but we couldn't board it cause it was packed full like a sardine can. That train was headed to the sardine factory I'm sure. And so, we waited for the next train, boarded it and wenttttttttttttttttttt on back to BATOK!
After alighting, I went on to Burger King to have my dinner. Lingg said I was tempted by the advertisments on MRT trains...but c'mon~~ You all know me, I don't fall to temptations! Instead!!!!! Temptations fall for me~~~ Just that when temptations fall for me, I don't catch them. That's how I don't get tempted ^^
LOLOL okay, so talking about the meal. The amount of fries the person packed into the package was like about the size of 2 servings? I ate and ate till I felt like I would explode and flood the world with crap. By then, not even Qin Shi Huang can save this universe ._.
So after awhile, her di came and we headed down for her lesson. I went to look for a seat and did some drawings as I waited for linggyyyy ^^ Man...it was like barely 10 minutes since I left her and I started to miss her =.="""
So I went back up at around 9.30pm and her teacher was still ranting on and on and on and on until 9.50 LOL! Yeah pretty crazy =/
SO finally~ I saw her back home and before that, we waited for my bus together. Then then, I saw this runner with 2 different colour tones to his left leg from a distance. Initially, I thought that dude went for some sorta sun-tan and screwed his skin tones up real good LOL. But when he got nearly I realised it was just a leg band, he probably broke his knee xD
I held onto ling's hand real tight cause I don't wanna let go D; but but my bus came....and pewwwwwwww~~ I had to let go =/ ARARARARARA!
So that was the end of a pretty short day, but I was glad I could see her, even just for a little while - it's worth every ounce of that effort haha :) ALrightyyyy, Nights chaps!
My lesson was supposed to end at approximately 6, so ling suggested she'd come down and look for me first before heading down for her class (you are awesome ling! ;D) So after lesson I went on to the train station to look for her. After locating her, I attempted to hear what she was listening to, since she had her earpiece plugged in. BUT SHE PAUSED THE MUSIC!!!! AHHHHH~~~~~ But honestly...I'd bet it's Thai music by Bird Thong Chai >>>> As stupid as it sounds, yes there IS such a name and it's hilariously retarded xD Who in the right mind would call himself bird... ~.~
Oh well, the train finally came but we couldn't board it cause it was packed full like a sardine can. That train was headed to the sardine factory I'm sure. And so, we waited for the next train, boarded it and wenttttttttttttttttttt on back to BATOK!
After alighting, I went on to Burger King to have my dinner. Lingg said I was tempted by the advertisments on MRT trains...but c'mon~~ You all know me, I don't fall to temptations! Instead!!!!! Temptations fall for me~~~ Just that when temptations fall for me, I don't catch them. That's how I don't get tempted ^^
LOLOL okay, so talking about the meal. The amount of fries the person packed into the package was like about the size of 2 servings? I ate and ate till I felt like I would explode and flood the world with crap. By then, not even Qin Shi Huang can save this universe ._.
So after awhile, her di came and we headed down for her lesson. I went to look for a seat and did some drawings as I waited for linggyyyy ^^ Man...it was like barely 10 minutes since I left her and I started to miss her =.="""
So I went back up at around 9.30pm and her teacher was still ranting on and on and on and on until 9.50 LOL! Yeah pretty crazy =/
SO finally~ I saw her back home and before that, we waited for my bus together. Then then, I saw this runner with 2 different colour tones to his left leg from a distance. Initially, I thought that dude went for some sorta sun-tan and screwed his skin tones up real good LOL. But when he got nearly I realised it was just a leg band, he probably broke his knee xD
I held onto ling's hand real tight cause I don't wanna let go D; but but my bus came....and pewwwwwwww~~ I had to let go =/ ARARARARARA!
So that was the end of a pretty short day, but I was glad I could see her, even just for a little while - it's worth every ounce of that effort haha :) ALrightyyyy, Nights chaps!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011, 11:54 PM
Beautiful Moments
Hiya! Wednesday!!!! And that means yeah I had to wake at 7 dead early in the goddamn morning. Yeah you saw that, 7 =/ Luckily me and ling had plans to go out later in the day so that created a little bit more enthusiasm in me ahahaha~
So reached school at 8.45, went to the studio and waited for the lecturers. The main coordinator was late and so the other lecturer...apparently useless, left us to rot and do our own stuff. And know what? That lecturer is more fail than anyone could ever think he is. So so so he came in and told us to remember we had a common test paper next Tuesday. Upon hearing that, we all stared at him and went.....UHHHH WHAT??? O.O Soooo, being the doubtful little bastards we were, we went on to check the lecture notes, and guess what! It says 8th February, that means it's the damned week after the next! You see? And yet he sounded so confident when he said we had a paper next week and even made the remark that we forgot when we stared at him...when in actual case...he was the one who forgot =.="" How crappy can a lecturer get? >.< Yeah you guessed it right, crappier than my crap LOL!
Alright so lesson ended earlier today. Had tons of spare time so trained down to Ang Mo Kio Hub with friends to have my lunch first before meeting up with lingggggggggggggggggggggggg =D
After some waiting at 313 (why not 424? =x), ling finally rang me up and asked where I was....there I started being real lame, don't ask for details...it was just plain lameness, so much so I had problems walking properly when being lame.
So we finally found each other and decided to go grab tickets for Hereafter 4:20 show. It was pouring real heavily and so we were forced to train a station down back to orchard since there wasn't any direct shelter from 313 to cineleisure. Hmm....Jebus must have been losing quite alot of chess matches today, which made him cry, which led to the downpour. I think the reason why Jebus is always losing to bubbha in chess is because Jebus plays the international chess while Bubbha plays the chinese one. So as you would know, in chinese chess, you can FEI JIANG the enemie's king, while international chess kings can only move 1 step at a time. It's pretty much no wonder why Jebus can never win. Bubbha's king flies straight to Jebus's and kills him straight on the 1st turn =/ Poor him...
Right enough crap there LOL! So while waiting for the showtime, we went walking around orchard, wisma~ taka~ blablabla. Man I so wanted to sing the Takashimaya anthem....but I was shy awwww~~~ So this would most probably be how it goes: *singapore national anthem rythm plays* Ta-ka Ta-ka Shi Ma Ya, Taka-shi-ma-ya maya maya maya, shi shi shi shi maya, Taka shi ma! ~~~~ so on and so forth. I'm not gonna sing the entire thing, cause that would take a whole year to finish =x
Right, time flew past pretty quickly and it was time for the show!
So so so...being really excited since my friends told me it was pretty good. Went in, all hyped up! But came out of the cinema 2 hours later with just 1 thought in my mind: "W.T.F? What on earth was that??!! Even Justin Beiber's songs are more entertaining *BABY! BABY! BABY! OHHHhhhH~~~~* Yeah wasted a good 2 hours of my life watching something real boring >.<
So by the time the show ended, it was around 7 and we wanted to head down to hendersons wave, we should go to kallang wave some day too =D So ling had to top up her EZ link card and got stucked for a good 15 minutes or so trying to do it. The ticketing machines at somerset are all either faulty or racist. yeah....someone should do something about that before racial riots happen between machines and foreigners LOL! Wonder which lasers are stronger? The machines? Or the er-hems xD *not too good to specify the group of people eh*
We were finally done, so took 963 and hoped we would somehow reach our destination. The bus went on and on until we eventually decided to alight in the middle of nowhere since we were apparently, pretty far away from mount faber LOL =x We couldn't find the landmark - a white bridge. So we went to the other side and bused back in the opposite direction. THIS TIME! WE SAW IT! BUT! It wasn't lit up....maybe that's why we missed it. But anyway, there weren't even a single light in the area and it would be pretty much impossible to trek that at night. Thus, we decided to go back to vivo and just take a walk around and enjoy each other's company haha~ It was pretty crazy there, our mouths just went NUA once every so often and didnt barely understood what each other was saying xD yeah it was kinda hilarious. It was like >>> danfqkuvfwjfnnv fsfvsnfdfnsfvd LOL! And ling was pretty high for some reason haha ;D
So in the end, at around 9, we decided to head home. We couldn't get adjacent seats on the bus so ended up sitting on seats seperated by the aisle. Then we held hands LOL, kinda obstructive but mehhhh who cares? xD
So after reaching her stop and waiting for my bus, it finally came up and I went on home.
Then ling told me she really enjoyed today ^^ I was really glad to hear that haha. And yeah, it was pretty awesome for me too, in fact, I enjoy every single moment I could spend with her. Ahhhh oh well, if only I could hold onto her forever =/
Yeah yeah, alright that's all for today. Man this is one helluva grandfather story LOL! Hope you enjoyed this read ;)
So reached school at 8.45, went to the studio and waited for the lecturers. The main coordinator was late and so the other lecturer...apparently useless, left us to rot and do our own stuff. And know what? That lecturer is more fail than anyone could ever think he is. So so so he came in and told us to remember we had a common test paper next Tuesday. Upon hearing that, we all stared at him and went.....UHHHH WHAT??? O.O Soooo, being the doubtful little bastards we were, we went on to check the lecture notes, and guess what! It says 8th February, that means it's the damned week after the next! You see? And yet he sounded so confident when he said we had a paper next week and even made the remark that we forgot when we stared at him...when in actual case...he was the one who forgot =.="" How crappy can a lecturer get? >.< Yeah you guessed it right, crappier than my crap LOL!
Alright so lesson ended earlier today. Had tons of spare time so trained down to Ang Mo Kio Hub with friends to have my lunch first before meeting up with lingggggggggggggggggggggggg =D
After some waiting at 313 (why not 424? =x), ling finally rang me up and asked where I was....there I started being real lame, don't ask for details...it was just plain lameness, so much so I had problems walking properly when being lame.
So we finally found each other and decided to go grab tickets for Hereafter 4:20 show. It was pouring real heavily and so we were forced to train a station down back to orchard since there wasn't any direct shelter from 313 to cineleisure. Hmm....Jebus must have been losing quite alot of chess matches today, which made him cry, which led to the downpour. I think the reason why Jebus is always losing to bubbha in chess is because Jebus plays the international chess while Bubbha plays the chinese one. So as you would know, in chinese chess, you can FEI JIANG the enemie's king, while international chess kings can only move 1 step at a time. It's pretty much no wonder why Jebus can never win. Bubbha's king flies straight to Jebus's and kills him straight on the 1st turn =/ Poor him...
Right enough crap there LOL! So while waiting for the showtime, we went walking around orchard, wisma~ taka~ blablabla. Man I so wanted to sing the Takashimaya anthem....but I was shy awwww~~~ So this would most probably be how it goes: *singapore national anthem rythm plays* Ta-ka Ta-ka Shi Ma Ya, Taka-shi-ma-ya maya maya maya, shi shi shi shi maya, Taka shi ma! ~~~~ so on and so forth. I'm not gonna sing the entire thing, cause that would take a whole year to finish =x
Right, time flew past pretty quickly and it was time for the show!
So so so...being really excited since my friends told me it was pretty good. Went in, all hyped up! But came out of the cinema 2 hours later with just 1 thought in my mind: "W.T.F? What on earth was that??!! Even Justin Beiber's songs are more entertaining *BABY! BABY! BABY! OHHHhhhH~~~~* Yeah wasted a good 2 hours of my life watching something real boring >.<
So by the time the show ended, it was around 7 and we wanted to head down to hendersons wave, we should go to kallang wave some day too =D So ling had to top up her EZ link card and got stucked for a good 15 minutes or so trying to do it. The ticketing machines at somerset are all either faulty or racist. yeah....someone should do something about that before racial riots happen between machines and foreigners LOL! Wonder which lasers are stronger? The machines? Or the er-hems xD *not too good to specify the group of people eh*
We were finally done, so took 963 and hoped we would somehow reach our destination. The bus went on and on until we eventually decided to alight in the middle of nowhere since we were apparently, pretty far away from mount faber LOL =x We couldn't find the landmark - a white bridge. So we went to the other side and bused back in the opposite direction. THIS TIME! WE SAW IT! BUT! It wasn't lit up....maybe that's why we missed it. But anyway, there weren't even a single light in the area and it would be pretty much impossible to trek that at night. Thus, we decided to go back to vivo and just take a walk around and enjoy each other's company haha~ It was pretty crazy there, our mouths just went NUA once every so often and didnt barely understood what each other was saying xD yeah it was kinda hilarious. It was like >>> danfqkuvfwjfnnv fsfvsnfdfnsfvd LOL! And ling was pretty high for some reason haha ;D
So in the end, at around 9, we decided to head home. We couldn't get adjacent seats on the bus so ended up sitting on seats seperated by the aisle. Then we held hands LOL, kinda obstructive but mehhhh who cares? xD
So after reaching her stop and waiting for my bus, it finally came up and I went on home.
Then ling told me she really enjoyed today ^^ I was really glad to hear that haha. And yeah, it was pretty awesome for me too, in fact, I enjoy every single moment I could spend with her. Ahhhh oh well, if only I could hold onto her forever =/
Yeah yeah, alright that's all for today. Man this is one helluva grandfather story LOL! Hope you enjoyed this read ;)
Tuesday, January 25, 2011, 8:24 PM
Tues again~
Well it's awesome Tuesday again! But well....this Tuesday wasn't as awesome as the previous one. Little things add up to this. Yeah Suppossedly my general module on Tuesdays for now is on Electronic Music. You see that? Yeah I said Electronic...but when you actually attend the lectures...it's like an entirely different thing. The lecturer went on and on about the history of music...like mate! What on earth has the history gotta do with Electronic music??? Okay, maybe it does, BUT! C'mon, can't we just talk about Electronic music? Nothing but just Electronic music? sheesh ~~~~ To top things off, that beef brisket lecturer is always late and dilly-dallies for half an hour. Doing a dance at the front ~.~
So...with a bullcrap lecture going on, monotonous voice, comfy chairs, air-conditioned lecture theatre...it was pretty much a knockout formula for me. I fell asleep, but never fails to open my eyes to reply lingg's messages haha.
Hmm, talking about ling...she's been through alot. Alot of heartache. She went on to her boyfriend's house to clarify things once and for all, and got dirt treatment by making her wait at his doorstep for hours. I was pretty worried about the outcome of their meeting, so decided to meet up with her later on, well...just to make sure she's fine, and try to at least cheer her up a little. I stoned at her void deck for hours haha but it was all okay~ I got bored and took a hikig session around her neighbourhood. The whole place is amazingly deserted, all I could see (besides flats) were just roads, roads and more roads. It was pretty crazy LOL! It's like imagine getting lost in the desert...but instead of seeing sand, you see miles and miles of nothing but roads haha!
So I waited and waited till she turned up. I took a walk with her (have never been out walking this late at night before lolol) and came up with alot of rubbish in the hopes of making her laugh...well to cheer her up. Not too sure if it worked, but oh well...I tried =x So we went on a swing, YES ITS MY FIRST TIME ON A SWING *no childhood comes to mind*. And guess what, never knew swinging on the swing could be so exhausting...or maybe cause I'm a little too tall and I had to strain my legs to keep them from touching th ground LOL. I went on and on, rubbish really came to my mind and I just spewed them out xD By then it was around 2.30AM and I thought it was time I head home, since ling seems to be fine. I took a cab back (comfort FTW!) and got back to home sweet home at around 2.45 or so. Bidded ling good night, collapsed on bed and fell asleep xD
Not too bad considering the previous night I only had 5 hours of sleep hahahahaha~
After reading ling's blog post for today, somehow I could sense the happiness she felt back then, and then mixed with the pain and sadness now. It was like a bitter-sweet experience. At that moment, I was pretty much staring into space and alot of thoughts went through my mind....yeah alot of it.
Oh well, on a final note, ling what's past is past. As much as we sometimes wish we could turn back time, we know it's not possible. So the only choice left is to look ahead, and hope for a better and brighter road ahead. I was in alot of pain when I last broke up with my ex, but ya know what? If I could eventually recover from that wound, I'm very sure and confident of the fact that you can too! Ganbatte ling! I'll be there if you ever need anything ;)
So...with a bullcrap lecture going on, monotonous voice, comfy chairs, air-conditioned lecture theatre...it was pretty much a knockout formula for me. I fell asleep, but never fails to open my eyes to reply lingg's messages haha.
Hmm, talking about ling...she's been through alot. Alot of heartache. She went on to her boyfriend's house to clarify things once and for all, and got dirt treatment by making her wait at his doorstep for hours. I was pretty worried about the outcome of their meeting, so decided to meet up with her later on, well...just to make sure she's fine, and try to at least cheer her up a little. I stoned at her void deck for hours haha but it was all okay~ I got bored and took a hikig session around her neighbourhood. The whole place is amazingly deserted, all I could see (besides flats) were just roads, roads and more roads. It was pretty crazy LOL! It's like imagine getting lost in the desert...but instead of seeing sand, you see miles and miles of nothing but roads haha!
So I waited and waited till she turned up. I took a walk with her (have never been out walking this late at night before lolol) and came up with alot of rubbish in the hopes of making her laugh...well to cheer her up. Not too sure if it worked, but oh well...I tried =x So we went on a swing, YES ITS MY FIRST TIME ON A SWING *no childhood comes to mind*. And guess what, never knew swinging on the swing could be so exhausting...or maybe cause I'm a little too tall and I had to strain my legs to keep them from touching th ground LOL. I went on and on, rubbish really came to my mind and I just spewed them out xD By then it was around 2.30AM and I thought it was time I head home, since ling seems to be fine. I took a cab back (comfort FTW!) and got back to home sweet home at around 2.45 or so. Bidded ling good night, collapsed on bed and fell asleep xD
Not too bad considering the previous night I only had 5 hours of sleep hahahahaha~
After reading ling's blog post for today, somehow I could sense the happiness she felt back then, and then mixed with the pain and sadness now. It was like a bitter-sweet experience. At that moment, I was pretty much staring into space and alot of thoughts went through my mind....yeah alot of it.
Oh well, on a final note, ling what's past is past. As much as we sometimes wish we could turn back time, we know it's not possible. So the only choice left is to look ahead, and hope for a better and brighter road ahead. I was in alot of pain when I last broke up with my ex, but ya know what? If I could eventually recover from that wound, I'm very sure and confident of the fact that you can too! Ganbatte ling! I'll be there if you ever need anything ;)
Sunday, January 23, 2011, 5:22 PM
The sky's the limit
Something happened yesterday...something i thought was real serious, and I lost my temper for the 1st time in years...and I cried too for the 1st time in years. But it's all cleared up now, don't know if I should thank god for it haha...
Woke up at 1pm and still felt really tired. Rotted in bed till 1.30 and lingg made me get up hahaha! Well nothing much happened today. Ling's gonna go to work later on at 6, and I'll be fetching her off work at around 10. Can't wait to see her again ^^Actually I had intentions to ask her out today, since next week is gonna be really hectic...but ah well I guess not, since she has to work =/ Hope I don't have to cab again today lol! Missed the last bus yesterday ._.
Well was chatting with her via text while she was on her way to work and she said I'm no good...cause I always make her upset. I don't know how true that is, but I always take her word for it, and I will again.
Ling, I know I'm not much, I'm just an average guy who was fortunate enough to meet a girl of his dreams. Sometimes, I don't even know what I did or said that made you unhappy, but I just want you to know, I'm trying my best. I'm doing what I can to make this work. I'm just an ordinary guy, and the sky's the limit for me, I'm doing what I can within my capabilities and I hope that ultimately.....I won't be all that bad to you. I'm doing all I can to put that smile on your face, because at the end of the day, that's just what I hope to achieve...to see you happy, to see that smile, to hear that laughter from you.
Ling, the sky may be the limit for what I can do...
But you are my new dream, and you'll always be :)
Woke up at 1pm and still felt really tired. Rotted in bed till 1.30 and lingg made me get up hahaha! Well nothing much happened today. Ling's gonna go to work later on at 6, and I'll be fetching her off work at around 10. Can't wait to see her again ^^Actually I had intentions to ask her out today, since next week is gonna be really hectic...but ah well I guess not, since she has to work =/ Hope I don't have to cab again today lol! Missed the last bus yesterday ._.
Well was chatting with her via text while she was on her way to work and she said I'm no good...cause I always make her upset. I don't know how true that is, but I always take her word for it, and I will again.
Ling, I know I'm not much, I'm just an average guy who was fortunate enough to meet a girl of his dreams. Sometimes, I don't even know what I did or said that made you unhappy, but I just want you to know, I'm trying my best. I'm doing what I can to make this work. I'm just an ordinary guy, and the sky's the limit for me, I'm doing what I can within my capabilities and I hope that ultimately.....I won't be all that bad to you. I'm doing all I can to put that smile on your face, because at the end of the day, that's just what I hope to achieve...to see you happy, to see that smile, to hear that laughter from you.
Ling, the sky may be the limit for what I can do...
But you are my new dream, and you'll always be :)
~
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Saturday, January 22, 2011, 12:53 AM
Eternal Dreams
Friday, yeah in the blink of an eye, another week has passed. Wasn't exactly looking forward to today actually....especially when I had my walk cycle animation to clear up (it's a mean pain in the ass). I spent like 3 hours re-doing the animation 4 times last week and still got nowhere. Well...maybe I got mind blocked last week, or by a stroke of luck this week, when I tried on the walk cycle animation again today...hell damn yeah, it was so easy =.=" Now I'm actually wondering what I was doing last week LOL!
Yeah coupled with that, I missed ling so much earlier today...no idea why >.< So when she suddenly mentioned that she would come over to look for me....I felt this sudden surge of happiness lol. It felt like as if shit stuck in your bowels for over a year came out all at once!!!! Ya know? The joy? hahaha~
So I met her at Yio Chu Kang MRT station and we trained down to vivo to catch a movie. Well actually...my initial plan for today was just to finish up my animation and go catch a movie...well alone ahaha cause ling didn't really like the kinda movies I'd wanna watch. Sooooo I was really surprised when she agreed to accompany me. So a suppossedly lonely day, ended up with good company ^^ Thank you ling ;D
Oh oh oh and ya know what? I have this feeling the teletubbies series are gone for good...like seriously. Maybe the baby face on the sun grew old.....jian bu de guang ya know? haha~
So yeah, the movie ended pretty late at around 10.30 and well, ling had to go home before 11 sooooooo off we went haha =p Just looking at her in the bus kinda reminded me of how all of this feel so much like a dream.
It's like I NEVER ever thought I would get a chance to meet a girl like ling...really...but...I did. Despite knowing her, I never that much thought I would ever get a chance to go out with her, to walk beside her...but this day I did. Alas, holding her hand...that would probably ever only happen in my wildest dreams....but ya know what? This day I did....
All of these, come together and makes it all feel like a dream, a fantasy. But ya know what? If this really is a dream...then I would rather stay, and never wake up from it. Eternal dreams eh? Haha
Yeah coupled with that, I missed ling so much earlier today...no idea why >.< So when she suddenly mentioned that she would come over to look for me....I felt this sudden surge of happiness lol. It felt like as if shit stuck in your bowels for over a year came out all at once!!!! Ya know? The joy? hahaha~
So I met her at Yio Chu Kang MRT station and we trained down to vivo to catch a movie. Well actually...my initial plan for today was just to finish up my animation and go catch a movie...well alone ahaha cause ling didn't really like the kinda movies I'd wanna watch. Sooooo I was really surprised when she agreed to accompany me. So a suppossedly lonely day, ended up with good company ^^ Thank you ling ;D
Oh oh oh and ya know what? I have this feeling the teletubbies series are gone for good...like seriously. Maybe the baby face on the sun grew old.....jian bu de guang ya know? haha~
So yeah, the movie ended pretty late at around 10.30 and well, ling had to go home before 11 sooooooo off we went haha =p Just looking at her in the bus kinda reminded me of how all of this feel so much like a dream.
It's like I NEVER ever thought I would get a chance to meet a girl like ling...really...but...I did. Despite knowing her, I never that much thought I would ever get a chance to go out with her, to walk beside her...but this day I did. Alas, holding her hand...that would probably ever only happen in my wildest dreams....but ya know what? This day I did....
All of these, come together and makes it all feel like a dream, a fantasy. But ya know what? If this really is a dream...then I would rather stay, and never wake up from it. Eternal dreams eh? Haha
Thursday, January 20, 2011, 11:42 PM
Just for you
Drawing class today, yeah as pretty fun. So we had a live model (dude) who came in and did multiple poses for us to draw. We were given approximately 2 minutes for each drawing...sooo in a sense, yeah speed drawing. It was all rush! Hands got pretty tired after awhile and I couldn't find the time to that much put down my pencil and reply linggg hahahaha.
Despite that, yeah it was fun doing speed drawing....well besides the fact that the dude was in his undies and it felt....odd? Yeah it felt odd drawing some dude in his undies but oh well, haha. Oh oh oh and did I mention he seriously resembles a chimpanzee? I mean...damn his face....he looks like a freaking chimpanzee outta the zoo LOL. I was pretty much laughing to myself when his face appeared on my paper xD
Yeah I guess it's pretty mean laughing at others....but ahhhh who cares? xD
And after class, I rushed down to meet lingg at westmall. Well actually to accompany her to her Japanese class...partly cause I wanna see her too...missed her :( When she turned up, there she was folding hearts outta pamphlets she got from god knows where xD We went to Koufu where I had my dinner. After the meal, lingg threw her folded hearts into my food tray, so i arranged them nicely ^^ I bet the look on the cleaner's face will be priceless HAHA. He'd most probably go "What? Why got hearts here?? Who so nice to me? =D ohhhhh~~" LOL yeah cleaners need care too =p
We met up with lingg's gan di before heading down to the CC for her class. While waiting for her class, I was looking at her di playing Riviera, of which...he kept going all over the place and ending up back at the same spot LOL! It was kinda hilarious xD He kinda gave up eventually lolol~
So after ling's class started, I went to sit somewhere and did some sketches. Then then, I saw on tis stretch of wall, there was a whole line of ants, 2 lines in fact, 1 going left and another going right. The funny thing was, each time a pair of ants travelling in opposite directions met each other, they would stop and do something....maybe like a handshake or something? LOLS, was an interesting sight, so I kneeled for a closer look. Then then this evil thought came to my mind, I had the sudden urge to disturb them xD Like maybe pretend I'm some gigantic giant coming to wipe them out, or or create a tsunami for them (ants like surfing no? xD), but ahhh, those tiny creatures looked kinda occupied wth something so i spared them =p
Well....I then decided to let them go on a holiday since they were working so hard. I let them JIA HONG! And and started blowing air in their direction xD Man it must'v felt like a hurricane or something LOLs cause they started scattering and running away like as if they were gonna die haha.
After the little event, I sat down again and waited for ling :)
Later on accompanied home and waited for my bus. When 157 came...I got on...ya know...after that I regretted :( I wished I had instead taken the next bus...cause I so wanna spend more time with lingg. Even now...I kinda miss her...
Lingg, I know now it feels like everyone is pushing you aside, but ya know what? Believe or not alright, I'm still here. I was here 2 months back, I'm still here now, and I intend to be here in the future. I wanna hold on to you, hold on tight, and never letting go, and I want you to know...even if the world forsakes you, I still won't let go, I'll hold on even tighter. You are the kinda girl I've been looking for, and I've never felt this way. I will be an utter fool to ever let go, so if people won't cherish you for who you are, I WILL.
Despite that, yeah it was fun doing speed drawing....well besides the fact that the dude was in his undies and it felt....odd? Yeah it felt odd drawing some dude in his undies but oh well, haha. Oh oh oh and did I mention he seriously resembles a chimpanzee? I mean...damn his face....he looks like a freaking chimpanzee outta the zoo LOL. I was pretty much laughing to myself when his face appeared on my paper xD
Yeah I guess it's pretty mean laughing at others....but ahhhh who cares? xD
And after class, I rushed down to meet lingg at westmall. Well actually to accompany her to her Japanese class...partly cause I wanna see her too...missed her :( When she turned up, there she was folding hearts outta pamphlets she got from god knows where xD We went to Koufu where I had my dinner. After the meal, lingg threw her folded hearts into my food tray, so i arranged them nicely ^^ I bet the look on the cleaner's face will be priceless HAHA. He'd most probably go "What? Why got hearts here?? Who so nice to me? =D ohhhhh~~" LOL yeah cleaners need care too =p
We met up with lingg's gan di before heading down to the CC for her class. While waiting for her class, I was looking at her di playing Riviera, of which...he kept going all over the place and ending up back at the same spot LOL! It was kinda hilarious xD He kinda gave up eventually lolol~
So after ling's class started, I went to sit somewhere and did some sketches. Then then, I saw on tis stretch of wall, there was a whole line of ants, 2 lines in fact, 1 going left and another going right. The funny thing was, each time a pair of ants travelling in opposite directions met each other, they would stop and do something....maybe like a handshake or something? LOLS, was an interesting sight, so I kneeled for a closer look. Then then this evil thought came to my mind, I had the sudden urge to disturb them xD Like maybe pretend I'm some gigantic giant coming to wipe them out, or or create a tsunami for them (ants like surfing no? xD), but ahhh, those tiny creatures looked kinda occupied wth something so i spared them =p
Well....I then decided to let them go on a holiday since they were working so hard. I let them JIA HONG! And and started blowing air in their direction xD Man it must'v felt like a hurricane or something LOLs cause they started scattering and running away like as if they were gonna die haha.
After the little event, I sat down again and waited for ling :)
Later on accompanied home and waited for my bus. When 157 came...I got on...ya know...after that I regretted :( I wished I had instead taken the next bus...cause I so wanna spend more time with lingg. Even now...I kinda miss her...
Lingg, I know now it feels like everyone is pushing you aside, but ya know what? Believe or not alright, I'm still here. I was here 2 months back, I'm still here now, and I intend to be here in the future. I wanna hold on to you, hold on tight, and never letting go, and I want you to know...even if the world forsakes you, I still won't let go, I'll hold on even tighter. You are the kinda girl I've been looking for, and I've never felt this way. I will be an utter fool to ever let go, so if people won't cherish you for who you are, I WILL.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011, 11:20 PM
HAPPY!!!
Wednesdays now were all about waking dead early in the morning and shuffling to school like a walking corpse ._. But Wedesday today was something different haha! Why, I hear you ask? (Ok, you didn't ask, but i'm gonna say it anyway) Cause I get to see Linggggg again! ;D
So the initial plan for the day was spend a little time at vivo before heading down to labrador park to admire the sunset. But before that, I had school of course, man it was just handing in assignment and a short lecture...yeah that was about it. A boring start to the exciting day lolol.
So yeah, after school I trained down to vivo. I went to GV to slack while waiting for ling ling~ and it was surprisngly deserted....a really rare sight o.o I waited and waited and ling was complaining about how slow the damned bus was xD And when she finally turned up, she had pamphlets in her hands! and and she folded them into weird little thingies...and I didn't realise they were hearts till she told me LOL!
So yeah, as according to plan, we walked a little around vivo and and and and I held her hand ^^
SO after awhile we decided it was time to head down to labrador so we went to the bus interchange, only to realise......the buses we were supposed to take (10, 30, 143) weren't there at all! Fortunately Lingg still knew another bus to labrador xD
So we took the bus and yeah....missed our stop LOLz. We alighted at the next one and walked back down. It was searing hot, I had my jacket on and the park was sooooooo far away. I felt like I was trekking through the desert....just that the difference was that I had a companion =p Sosososososo we trekked long stretches of roads, crossed mountains, grass plains, oceans, faeces and we finally reached labrador!!!!!! YAY!!!
We took a little walk, was pretty soothing with the sound of the sea haha. We wante to walk down the jetty, but to our dismay, whe we got there....it was freaggggggin locked!! So....well without any other choice we made do with the side benches. SO after waiting, me throwing bombs into an ant's nest, scaring squirrels (which i though was lizards) with lightning and spending time with ling ling, we noticed a couple of guys managed to get into the jetty....which was locked O.O So yeah, the only logical explanations were: 1) They are ghots 2) They know magic like david copperfield 3) They can somersault 3 meters into the air 4) The climb over the fences 5) They became reallllllyyyy tiny and squeezed through the holes.
Yeah it has to be one of those LOL! Right so getting pass that, we waited for the sunset.....which never came :( Yeah the sun must be taking a break after waking up real early to appear in the teletubbies series. But fret not lingg! The sun can hide for once, i can't hide forever! We will catch it someday together yeah? ^^
So after missing the sunset, we decided to head back to vivo, where I had SUPERDOG for dinner, yeah hotdogs *sob* reminds me of yesterday....
Then then then, after the meal we headed up to the Sky Garden, and sat down on crosses, which were actually marked landing pads for UFOs. Luckily no aliens turned up today ^^ So we relaxed there for like about 2 hours? It was real windy, beautiful scenery, and Lingg beside me, I have to say, nothing can get better than this ;D
At the end, at about 9.30, we had to head back home haha. Although well....I really wished time could stop there >.< but yeah.....time won't stop lolz
I saw linggg home and then went home myself =p So today, we spent 8 hours and 45 minutes together! Never that long before haha~ I held her hand for at least half the time too :) So in conclusion HELL YEAH today was FREAKING AWEEESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! We should do this again sometime lingg ^^ Alright, longest post to date i think, long day, fun day, and this...my friends, is definitely not a crap filled post. It's filled with joy! =D
So the initial plan for the day was spend a little time at vivo before heading down to labrador park to admire the sunset. But before that, I had school of course, man it was just handing in assignment and a short lecture...yeah that was about it. A boring start to the exciting day lolol.
So yeah, after school I trained down to vivo. I went to GV to slack while waiting for ling ling~ and it was surprisngly deserted....a really rare sight o.o I waited and waited and ling was complaining about how slow the damned bus was xD And when she finally turned up, she had pamphlets in her hands! and and she folded them into weird little thingies...and I didn't realise they were hearts till she told me LOL!
So yeah, as according to plan, we walked a little around vivo and and and and I held her hand ^^
SO after awhile we decided it was time to head down to labrador so we went to the bus interchange, only to realise......the buses we were supposed to take (10, 30, 143) weren't there at all! Fortunately Lingg still knew another bus to labrador xD
So we took the bus and yeah....missed our stop LOLz. We alighted at the next one and walked back down. It was searing hot, I had my jacket on and the park was sooooooo far away. I felt like I was trekking through the desert....just that the difference was that I had a companion =p Sosososososo we trekked long stretches of roads, crossed mountains, grass plains, oceans, faeces and we finally reached labrador!!!!!! YAY!!!
We took a little walk, was pretty soothing with the sound of the sea haha. We wante to walk down the jetty, but to our dismay, whe we got there....it was freaggggggin locked!! So....well without any other choice we made do with the side benches. SO after waiting, me throwing bombs into an ant's nest, scaring squirrels (which i though was lizards) with lightning and spending time with ling ling, we noticed a couple of guys managed to get into the jetty....which was locked O.O So yeah, the only logical explanations were: 1) They are ghots 2) They know magic like david copperfield 3) They can somersault 3 meters into the air 4) The climb over the fences 5) They became reallllllyyyy tiny and squeezed through the holes.
Yeah it has to be one of those LOL! Right so getting pass that, we waited for the sunset.....which never came :( Yeah the sun must be taking a break after waking up real early to appear in the teletubbies series. But fret not lingg! The sun can hide for once, i can't hide forever! We will catch it someday together yeah? ^^
So after missing the sunset, we decided to head back to vivo, where I had SUPERDOG for dinner, yeah hotdogs *sob* reminds me of yesterday....
Then then then, after the meal we headed up to the Sky Garden, and sat down on crosses, which were actually marked landing pads for UFOs. Luckily no aliens turned up today ^^ So we relaxed there for like about 2 hours? It was real windy, beautiful scenery, and Lingg beside me, I have to say, nothing can get better than this ;D
At the end, at about 9.30, we had to head back home haha. Although well....I really wished time could stop there >.< but yeah.....time won't stop lolz
I saw linggg home and then went home myself =p So today, we spent 8 hours and 45 minutes together! Never that long before haha~ I held her hand for at least half the time too :) So in conclusion HELL YEAH today was FREAKING AWEEESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! We should do this again sometime lingg ^^ Alright, longest post to date i think, long day, fun day, and this...my friends, is definitely not a crap filled post. It's filled with joy! =D
Tuesday, January 18, 2011, 8:39 PM
Tuesdays!!!
Tuesdays....tuesdays were always pretty awesome for some reason. Used to have contact times during secondary school on Tuesdays....which means early dismissal!! And now, even in poly, lessons on Tuesdays start at 3, 3pm!!! You get to sleep so late. Life can't get any better than this ^^
So~so~so, lesson's supposed to start at 3, the boring lecturer was late!!! And when he finally turned up, he dilly-dallied until we eventually started lessons at 4 T.T" Of course, no need to mention I wasn't paying attention to what he was rambling about >>>> history of electronic music (LIKE WTF??) Didn't mean I slacked though xD I did work for my other more meaningful modules hahahahahaha ;)
Despite the delay of the lesson, fortunately we were let off promptly at 6. Yeah, that was one helluva boring crap filled lecture ~.~
So was walking to Yio Chu Kang MRT station, with a cheeezzzzy hotdog in my hand, some humongous farrrrrty dudeeeee who apparently had stickers with the words (I CAN'T SEE) pasted onto his eyes knocked straight into me!!! No, MY HOTDOG!! =.=""" SO so so I looked at my poor lil hotdog as it snapped nto half and fell to the floor. It was like the end of the world..... D;
Alright, uhhh jokes aside, that doublecheesburger dude just looked, smiled and walked away T.T
That was the worse part...he smiled instead of apologising...man I felt like stuffing the other half of my hotdog up his nose.
That wasn't the end, on the train, at Admiralty station I was standing near the grab pole with my hands cupped together. Then this whole group of mobsters charged in and squeezed like no tomorrow. Then there was this aunty, who started shoving her ass near my hands. I was like wtf!!?? So I moved my hands to the side, and she continued pushing backwards, like so damn near my er-hem....DAMN PAISEH LA WTF =.="""" So i removed my bag and wore it at the front zzzzzz. Seriously....I think the auntie too much fats can't feel what her ass is leaning on....
So after a long long long ride on the uber slow SMRT train, I finally got back to Lakeside and walked home. Then then Ling ling ling~~ told me her stuff got ransacked again, and supposedly not by anyone she knows...weird >.< Haha and she was screaming away, kinda scary xD
But but but ahh well, it's kinda cute hahahaha. She was really touchy today, not very sure why, but yeah CHEER UP LING!!! ;D Don't be too down ^^ Life don't always go your way~
Right right, that's all for today, kinda alotta bullcrap here since I didn't set off a crap nuke this morning. Tata~~
So~so~so, lesson's supposed to start at 3, the boring lecturer was late!!! And when he finally turned up, he dilly-dallied until we eventually started lessons at 4 T.T" Of course, no need to mention I wasn't paying attention to what he was rambling about >>>> history of electronic music (LIKE WTF??) Didn't mean I slacked though xD I did work for my other more meaningful modules hahahahahaha ;)
Despite the delay of the lesson, fortunately we were let off promptly at 6. Yeah, that was one helluva boring crap filled lecture ~.~
So was walking to Yio Chu Kang MRT station, with a cheeezzzzy hotdog in my hand, some humongous farrrrrty dudeeeee who apparently had stickers with the words (I CAN'T SEE) pasted onto his eyes knocked straight into me!!! No, MY HOTDOG!! =.=""" SO so so I looked at my poor lil hotdog as it snapped nto half and fell to the floor. It was like the end of the world..... D;
Alright, uhhh jokes aside, that doublecheesburger dude just looked, smiled and walked away T.T
That was the worse part...he smiled instead of apologising...man I felt like stuffing the other half of my hotdog up his nose.
That wasn't the end, on the train, at Admiralty station I was standing near the grab pole with my hands cupped together. Then this whole group of mobsters charged in and squeezed like no tomorrow. Then there was this aunty, who started shoving her ass near my hands. I was like wtf!!?? So I moved my hands to the side, and she continued pushing backwards, like so damn near my er-hem....DAMN PAISEH LA WTF =.="""" So i removed my bag and wore it at the front zzzzzz. Seriously....I think the auntie too much fats can't feel what her ass is leaning on....
So after a long long long ride on the uber slow SMRT train, I finally got back to Lakeside and walked home. Then then Ling ling ling~~ told me her stuff got ransacked again, and supposedly not by anyone she knows...weird >.< Haha and she was screaming away, kinda scary xD
But but but ahh well, it's kinda cute hahahaha. She was really touchy today, not very sure why, but yeah CHEER UP LING!!! ;D Don't be too down ^^ Life don't always go your way~
Right right, that's all for today, kinda alotta bullcrap here since I didn't set off a crap nuke this morning. Tata~~
Monday, January 17, 2011, 7:08 PM
New post in yearzzzzzzzz
As you can see from the date of the post below...yes this blog is ANCIENT! Dead too =x kinda surpising why I'd post out of the blue again, well reason being: someone special reopened my dusty rotting blog for me , gave it new life and incentive for me to update again~~~ ^^
Right right, saaooo it's a monday today, monday blues anyone? (yes i know the sky is blue) Yet yet yet, for some reason, today wasn't all that blue--yyyyy (IS THAT A WORD??!!) Haven't felt this way in a long time wahahaha ;D
Oh oh and ya know what the sucky thing was? I rushed my work out over the weekends....only to have the lecturer tell us they won't be collecting today T.T I was like >>>>
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T
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Had i known i would have taken my own sweet time xD So i put in that effort, sacrificed sleep and time for nothing..........hmm....on second thoughts....maybe it was worth something...hehe
Alright, i guess that's all the crap i have for today~ i shitted this morning, so not as much crap left now =p Hope you enjoyed this crap-filled content post for the first time in like 1000000000000000000000000000000 years =D
Oh and on a final note, Thanks ling ;D
Right right, saaooo it's a monday today, monday blues anyone? (yes i know the sky is blue) Yet yet yet, for some reason, today wasn't all that blue--yyyyy (IS THAT A WORD??!!) Haven't felt this way in a long time wahahaha ;D
Oh oh and ya know what the sucky thing was? I rushed my work out over the weekends....only to have the lecturer tell us they won't be collecting today T.T I was like >>>>
W
T
F
Had i known i would have taken my own sweet time xD So i put in that effort, sacrificed sleep and time for nothing..........hmm....on second thoughts....maybe it was worth something...hehe
Alright, i guess that's all the crap i have for today~ i shitted this morning, so not as much crap left now =p Hope you enjoyed this crap-filled content post for the first time in like 1000000000000000000000000000000 years =D
Oh and on a final note, Thanks ling ;D
