Friday, January 28, 2011, 1:00 AM
Some Tears Are Worth Shedding
It's Friday, 1 in the morning but yeah technically speaking it's still a Friday.
So talking to ling on msn reminded me that my birthday is a week from now. Ya know, I actually almost forgot about it. After all, the past 7 years on 4th February was never anything special to me. Just ordinary days where I would spend the day alone in my room with my computer, eat alone somewhere for dinner and just pass the day. That was how I passed my birthdays the past 7 years. Well my parents are usually occupied with work, so they just give me some cash to get myself a present. And besides them, no one else really bothers to remember my birthday.
So entering 2011, I thought this year would be the same again. I mean...after 7 years of routine "birthdays", you don't really expect anything to happen besides the usual.
Well, I guess my parents, as much as they understand me...there are still some part of myself they do not yet know. I'm not money minded...alright maybe I used to be a little, but as you grow, you kinda realise money, for all it's worth...is pretty worthless. Yeah true, getting myself a present for my birthday with cash from my parents might make me a little happy, but it's only for that little while..it doesn't last. One good example was a few months before my O levels, I was still pretty much slacking my time away and my mum, worried as she was, offered me 5k cash if I got 12 points and below. For anyone else, 5k~~ that would be more than enough to motivate any living soul. I guess my mum thought it would push me a little harder, and ultimately, when I scored 11, she actually thought the reward motivated me.
But in actual fact, no it didn't. I couldn't care less even when she offered that as a reward. What eventually got me going was luckily, a few months before my Os, I so happened realised what I wanted to do in this life of mine. That was what pushed me. So....money, all it ever gets you is material happiness. It satisfies you physically, but all that is pointless if deep down, mentally, you are never happy.
For me, what I really wanted for my birthday was that much to just really spend time with people close to me, people I love. To know that they care. I don't even care f I had to sacrifice the few hundred bucks worth of present cash. Like maybe a day out, a good meal with people dear to me. That's all I'm asking for, guess something simple can be equally hard to achieve. That much so every time I see people celebrating their birthdays with cakes, candles, friends, family...I really envy them.
Well this really points to another fact, anything no matter how insignificant, don't ever take it for granted. For that little something that you may have, may be like the world to someone else. Cherish everything, every moment, every person dear to you, and create those beautiful memories while you can. It's that something we can hold onto, a comfort when everything else is gone.
Now, there is that someone special. Every moment I have with her, I cherish them. To create beautiful memories while I still can. I'm so afraid I'll lose her, someday she may leave me. When that happens, I'll miss her presence, I'll miss her smile, I'll miss the look in her eyes, I'll miss her laughter, I'll miss walking beside her, I'll miss holding her, I'll miss her personality...I'll miss everything about her. Then should such a moment come, at least...I have memories I can hold onto....to look back to...
Some tears...they are worth shedding.
So talking to ling on msn reminded me that my birthday is a week from now. Ya know, I actually almost forgot about it. After all, the past 7 years on 4th February was never anything special to me. Just ordinary days where I would spend the day alone in my room with my computer, eat alone somewhere for dinner and just pass the day. That was how I passed my birthdays the past 7 years. Well my parents are usually occupied with work, so they just give me some cash to get myself a present. And besides them, no one else really bothers to remember my birthday.
So entering 2011, I thought this year would be the same again. I mean...after 7 years of routine "birthdays", you don't really expect anything to happen besides the usual.
Well, I guess my parents, as much as they understand me...there are still some part of myself they do not yet know. I'm not money minded...alright maybe I used to be a little, but as you grow, you kinda realise money, for all it's worth...is pretty worthless. Yeah true, getting myself a present for my birthday with cash from my parents might make me a little happy, but it's only for that little while..it doesn't last. One good example was a few months before my O levels, I was still pretty much slacking my time away and my mum, worried as she was, offered me 5k cash if I got 12 points and below. For anyone else, 5k~~ that would be more than enough to motivate any living soul. I guess my mum thought it would push me a little harder, and ultimately, when I scored 11, she actually thought the reward motivated me.
But in actual fact, no it didn't. I couldn't care less even when she offered that as a reward. What eventually got me going was luckily, a few months before my Os, I so happened realised what I wanted to do in this life of mine. That was what pushed me. So....money, all it ever gets you is material happiness. It satisfies you physically, but all that is pointless if deep down, mentally, you are never happy.
For me, what I really wanted for my birthday was that much to just really spend time with people close to me, people I love. To know that they care. I don't even care f I had to sacrifice the few hundred bucks worth of present cash. Like maybe a day out, a good meal with people dear to me. That's all I'm asking for, guess something simple can be equally hard to achieve. That much so every time I see people celebrating their birthdays with cakes, candles, friends, family...I really envy them.
Well this really points to another fact, anything no matter how insignificant, don't ever take it for granted. For that little something that you may have, may be like the world to someone else. Cherish everything, every moment, every person dear to you, and create those beautiful memories while you can. It's that something we can hold onto, a comfort when everything else is gone.
Now, there is that someone special. Every moment I have with her, I cherish them. To create beautiful memories while I still can. I'm so afraid I'll lose her, someday she may leave me. When that happens, I'll miss her presence, I'll miss her smile, I'll miss the look in her eyes, I'll miss her laughter, I'll miss walking beside her, I'll miss holding her, I'll miss her personality...I'll miss everything about her. Then should such a moment come, at least...I have memories I can hold onto....to look back to...
Some tears...they are worth shedding.
