Monday, June 6, 2011, 10:46 PM
Fear
Woke up at 11 today. Lecture at 1, I prepared to bathe...then thought about it. On second thoughts...maybe not. It's just an hour's lecture, and throw in 2 hours of travel time. That is 3 hours, I can do so much more with that time.
With that thought in mind, I dropped the idea of going to school for today and sat down to continue my modeling. Got a damn submission tomorrow. I swear I hate 3D modeling, never gonna be a 3D artist lol =/
Sticking to concept arts. I could feel so much flow and imagination doing concept arts. It's a passion shall I say, it's what I was born to do :O
So yeah...sat down to start on the bloody model :( sigh...
Awhile later at 12 odd lingo messaged me. Asking if we could meet, I couldn't be happier. Then then....some conflict happened again. I didn't want her to be sad again, I didn't wanna affect her mood too much since it's her exams, I didn't want us to be apart again so soon after coming together. Hence I went down to her house.
Got there, then we started chatting and stuff. Later on, lingo tried making me eat something cause I haven't eaten. Well I kept refusing, real lazy =x Yeah lazy to go anywhere so soon when I just came up lol =/
Then we played, talked and all. Then blabla~~~~ araraarara
What happened? :O Oops no idea =p
By then, time flew and it was 5. Finally I decided to get some food cause I was really starving already. So we went down together. I got roti prata, curry puff and popiah! The curry puff was a hoax though! The chicken inside was burnt =.=""
Anyway, went back to lingg's house and I ate my dinner plus lunch lol :O
After that was done. my ulcer started hurting like crazy :( Curry must have aggravated it :( It hurts even when I didn't touch it...
Oh well...still had to work though. So both of us went back into the room to do our work. I continued my model while lingg did her studies for tomorrow's paper.
I got stuck halfway....really had to wreck my brains for a solution. SO worked and worked andddd eventually, at around 9 odd. We both finally did what he aimed to do for the day. The rest of the fine tuning, I'll leave it to tomorrow :O
Soon time came for me to go. Mum was already bugging me =.="
So yeah...she went down with me. 157 came like immediately today =.= So I rushed after it! Best get home as soon as possible before something bad happens again =x
Got home not too long later to realise that my net's down again =.= Zzzzzzzzzzzz
Fortunately, after some fiddling around, managed to revive it. That's how I'm blogging her now :) Since...well...don't really wanna do the model anymore. Had enough of it for the day =.=
Yeah...guess that's about it for today.
She fears suppressing herself, like she said. That's her fear, and I have mine too. Guess each and every one of us...have fears somewhere within don't we?
I live in fear everyday, that one thing that happened back then....will one day come back to haunt me. EVentually take this girl I love away from me. I try telling myself every time I'm just thinking too much. There's nothing of that sort...yet...if you do believe in karma....that's it. It'll come back one day...and I'm just...sitting and waiting for that day to come....
With that thought in mind, I dropped the idea of going to school for today and sat down to continue my modeling. Got a damn submission tomorrow. I swear I hate 3D modeling, never gonna be a 3D artist lol =/
Sticking to concept arts. I could feel so much flow and imagination doing concept arts. It's a passion shall I say, it's what I was born to do :O
So yeah...sat down to start on the bloody model :( sigh...
Awhile later at 12 odd lingo messaged me. Asking if we could meet, I couldn't be happier. Then then....some conflict happened again. I didn't want her to be sad again, I didn't wanna affect her mood too much since it's her exams, I didn't want us to be apart again so soon after coming together. Hence I went down to her house.
Got there, then we started chatting and stuff. Later on, lingo tried making me eat something cause I haven't eaten. Well I kept refusing, real lazy =x Yeah lazy to go anywhere so soon when I just came up lol =/
Then we played, talked and all. Then blabla~~~~ araraarara
What happened? :O Oops no idea =p
By then, time flew and it was 5. Finally I decided to get some food cause I was really starving already. So we went down together. I got roti prata, curry puff and popiah! The curry puff was a hoax though! The chicken inside was burnt =.=""
Anyway, went back to lingg's house and I ate my dinner plus lunch lol :O
After that was done. my ulcer started hurting like crazy :( Curry must have aggravated it :( It hurts even when I didn't touch it...
Oh well...still had to work though. So both of us went back into the room to do our work. I continued my model while lingg did her studies for tomorrow's paper.
I got stuck halfway....really had to wreck my brains for a solution. SO worked and worked andddd eventually, at around 9 odd. We both finally did what he aimed to do for the day. The rest of the fine tuning, I'll leave it to tomorrow :O
Soon time came for me to go. Mum was already bugging me =.="
So yeah...she went down with me. 157 came like immediately today =.= So I rushed after it! Best get home as soon as possible before something bad happens again =x
Got home not too long later to realise that my net's down again =.= Zzzzzzzzzzzz
Fortunately, after some fiddling around, managed to revive it. That's how I'm blogging her now :) Since...well...don't really wanna do the model anymore. Had enough of it for the day =.=
Yeah...guess that's about it for today.
She fears suppressing herself, like she said. That's her fear, and I have mine too. Guess each and every one of us...have fears somewhere within don't we?
I live in fear everyday, that one thing that happened back then....will one day come back to haunt me. EVentually take this girl I love away from me. I try telling myself every time I'm just thinking too much. There's nothing of that sort...yet...if you do believe in karma....that's it. It'll come back one day...and I'm just...sitting and waiting for that day to come....
