Sunday, May 22, 2011, 2:22 AM
Sick and out
Spent the past couple of days rushing through the piles of work...it was all pretty much that. Didn't really had much of a time for lingg.
That was why when she asked me on a trip to vivo to look for her lappy pouch, reluctant as I was cause I wasn't feeling really well...I agreed anyway. I knew I didn't give her much of my time, and I thought...yeah let's just go out on a little date after awhile, since it was friday anyway.
T'was still feeling okay in the morning so I didn't think much of it.
Slugged through the day and my condition got really bad at around 3 odd. Started coughing, sneezing and even headaches came knocking...
I knew it was pretty bad, and I was rightfully ill...but I didn't wanna disappoint lingg since I already gave her my word that I'd accompany her.
With that, I struggled through the next 3 hours in class sneezing away and feeling half dead.
Dismissal finally came and I went off to meet lingo.
She saw the state I was in and suggested we cancel the outing instead. Like I said above, I won't have much time for her, now that I do...not gonna disappoint her. So I insisted on going with her to vivo.
Got there and searched vivo, but couldn't find any nice lappy pouches....there weren't even much to begin with o.o
Finally done and I was barely surviving at around 8 odd...headache was really killing me. So after that headed back to her area. I wanted to go straight home to rest instead...but then decided to head over with her.
Rested a little on the bus, so hopefully I might be in better spirits to accompany her when we're back.
Finally got there, almost tripped on the way too =/
Headache was just real bad that I pretty much laid down on her bed....I needed a rest real bad.
Soon, it was around 9.30 when I woke a little and had to head off. Lingg started to get upset...as she was expecting me to ask her over too. I didn't...cause I didn't see that point.
I was feeling really unwell and the first thing I got back home was to probably get a good rest. I wouldn't have the energy to accompany here. Unles...she'd wanna watch me sleep and take care of her sick boyfie. Knowing her...I doubt that's what she was thinking of, so I didn't ask her to come over.
Of course...she got upset...
Got back, and laid down. Roused a couple of times to message lingg. She gave me some....really sad replies...? If that's how you'd put it...
After that I just slept all the way till the afternoon the next day.
Heck I slept almost the entire day....I just couldn't get up...
Opened my eyes couple of times, body was aching, lungs were burning, head was hurting...tried getting up but always wounded back asleep.
Finally felt better at around 6 odd. Saw lotsa messages from lingg, so i replied her. We had another conversation...not exactly a really happy one I guess...
Sigh....I don't know...
I love this girl, but there's just so much shit in life it's impossible for me to give her everything. I'm so beat after all the work and everything every time I barely have any energy left to do anything else...
Ya know..? I'm kinda afraid we'll wound up like the incident a week back. Where we'll both be on the verge of taking seperate paths from now on. I'm back here, and I'm so afraid something bad will eventually happen.
I did warn her...
Few days in, and she's already feeling so miserable...I wonder how much longer can she last before deciding to pull the plug on this...
In fact...I believe she is already having second thoughts...maybe even thoughts of looking for a better guy elsewhere...
Guess I can't really blame her for that can I? I love her...but how far can that take me? How far can that go to make her believe, or stay true to me.
I don't know...
That was why when she asked me on a trip to vivo to look for her lappy pouch, reluctant as I was cause I wasn't feeling really well...I agreed anyway. I knew I didn't give her much of my time, and I thought...yeah let's just go out on a little date after awhile, since it was friday anyway.
T'was still feeling okay in the morning so I didn't think much of it.
Slugged through the day and my condition got really bad at around 3 odd. Started coughing, sneezing and even headaches came knocking...
I knew it was pretty bad, and I was rightfully ill...but I didn't wanna disappoint lingg since I already gave her my word that I'd accompany her.
With that, I struggled through the next 3 hours in class sneezing away and feeling half dead.
Dismissal finally came and I went off to meet lingo.
She saw the state I was in and suggested we cancel the outing instead. Like I said above, I won't have much time for her, now that I do...not gonna disappoint her. So I insisted on going with her to vivo.
Got there and searched vivo, but couldn't find any nice lappy pouches....there weren't even much to begin with o.o
Finally done and I was barely surviving at around 8 odd...headache was really killing me. So after that headed back to her area. I wanted to go straight home to rest instead...but then decided to head over with her.
Rested a little on the bus, so hopefully I might be in better spirits to accompany her when we're back.
Finally got there, almost tripped on the way too =/
Headache was just real bad that I pretty much laid down on her bed....I needed a rest real bad.
Soon, it was around 9.30 when I woke a little and had to head off. Lingg started to get upset...as she was expecting me to ask her over too. I didn't...cause I didn't see that point.
I was feeling really unwell and the first thing I got back home was to probably get a good rest. I wouldn't have the energy to accompany here. Unles...she'd wanna watch me sleep and take care of her sick boyfie. Knowing her...I doubt that's what she was thinking of, so I didn't ask her to come over.
Of course...she got upset...
Got back, and laid down. Roused a couple of times to message lingg. She gave me some....really sad replies...? If that's how you'd put it...
After that I just slept all the way till the afternoon the next day.
Heck I slept almost the entire day....I just couldn't get up...
Opened my eyes couple of times, body was aching, lungs were burning, head was hurting...tried getting up but always wounded back asleep.
Finally felt better at around 6 odd. Saw lotsa messages from lingg, so i replied her. We had another conversation...not exactly a really happy one I guess...
Sigh....I don't know...
I love this girl, but there's just so much shit in life it's impossible for me to give her everything. I'm so beat after all the work and everything every time I barely have any energy left to do anything else...
Ya know..? I'm kinda afraid we'll wound up like the incident a week back. Where we'll both be on the verge of taking seperate paths from now on. I'm back here, and I'm so afraid something bad will eventually happen.
I did warn her...
Few days in, and she's already feeling so miserable...I wonder how much longer can she last before deciding to pull the plug on this...
In fact...I believe she is already having second thoughts...maybe even thoughts of looking for a better guy elsewhere...
Guess I can't really blame her for that can I? I love her...but how far can that take me? How far can that go to make her believe, or stay true to me.
I don't know...
