Wednesday, April 13, 2011, 4:17 PM
Necessary?
Wow...woke up at 3:45. Well at least I would have woken much earlier weren't it for another quarrel. Alright, maybe it isn't a quarrel yet, but a conflict of opinions.
Last night, I stayed up the entire way, staring at my phone. So much hoping that it'll vibrate, cause that means lingg is finally willing to talk to me. I was worried about what was happening. I was already dead tired, yet I tried my best to keep my eyes open so I won't miss a response from lingg if it ever came.
Finally, at 6am, it vibrated. Yes it was lingg! Ya know how happy I was when she finally talked to me? I was practically laughing to myself.
So much for that, it was rather shortlived. A few exchange of responses later, she asked me to go over at that time. I was fine with that, but I was real tired so I requested a couple of hours rest before heading over. Guess what? I couldn't even get a little bit of rest after staying up the whole night worrying about her. That was how we ended up in conflict. Besides, hey...it's not like I won't go over ya know?
2-3 hours of sleep at best. That'll be enough for me to recharge up and get myself walking around. That's all I asked for and it's not possible to grant it...
So I spent the whole night worrying about her and this was the response I got...
Heck it's not like I didn't care about her right? If I didn't cared, I would have went off to bed instead of trying to get her talking again or waiting for her response at that.
Hey, and it's not like I blame her. I might sound like I am, but I ain't.
For starters, she was upset about me, about something and it's most definitely related to me. I haven't the slightest clue what it was, but I wasn't mad at her or anything for her being upset that way. Why? Cause I know that's her, and it's definitely my fault something went wrong which led to her behaviour. That was why I tried so hard to get her talking again.
As for the subsequent incident, I was wrong to have even started that conflict of agreements given her current state of emotions. That, I don't deny. Yet I'm not fully at fault too. She does have part of the blame for even disallowing a couple hours of sleep after staying up for her the whole night. I'm no machine ya know?
With that, I accept my faults as they are. If I'm in the wrong, hell I don't deny them. However, in this case. I don't take all the blame. True I have 2 faults hanging on me. First being the one causing lingg to be upset and another for starting the conflict. That doesn't eraze the last fault which falls onto her, for disallowing the simple request and creating the spark for conflict.
Sheesh...those things aside. It's like...5 days? That's all we have left till school reopens and god knows how much time we can spend with each other anymore. Yet such things have to happen? Can't we just embrace the last 5 days where we can fully dedicate to each other?
Is all these necessary at all?
Last night, I stayed up the entire way, staring at my phone. So much hoping that it'll vibrate, cause that means lingg is finally willing to talk to me. I was worried about what was happening. I was already dead tired, yet I tried my best to keep my eyes open so I won't miss a response from lingg if it ever came.
Finally, at 6am, it vibrated. Yes it was lingg! Ya know how happy I was when she finally talked to me? I was practically laughing to myself.
So much for that, it was rather shortlived. A few exchange of responses later, she asked me to go over at that time. I was fine with that, but I was real tired so I requested a couple of hours rest before heading over. Guess what? I couldn't even get a little bit of rest after staying up the whole night worrying about her. That was how we ended up in conflict. Besides, hey...it's not like I won't go over ya know?
2-3 hours of sleep at best. That'll be enough for me to recharge up and get myself walking around. That's all I asked for and it's not possible to grant it...
So I spent the whole night worrying about her and this was the response I got...
Heck it's not like I didn't care about her right? If I didn't cared, I would have went off to bed instead of trying to get her talking again or waiting for her response at that.
Hey, and it's not like I blame her. I might sound like I am, but I ain't.
For starters, she was upset about me, about something and it's most definitely related to me. I haven't the slightest clue what it was, but I wasn't mad at her or anything for her being upset that way. Why? Cause I know that's her, and it's definitely my fault something went wrong which led to her behaviour. That was why I tried so hard to get her talking again.
As for the subsequent incident, I was wrong to have even started that conflict of agreements given her current state of emotions. That, I don't deny. Yet I'm not fully at fault too. She does have part of the blame for even disallowing a couple hours of sleep after staying up for her the whole night. I'm no machine ya know?
With that, I accept my faults as they are. If I'm in the wrong, hell I don't deny them. However, in this case. I don't take all the blame. True I have 2 faults hanging on me. First being the one causing lingg to be upset and another for starting the conflict. That doesn't eraze the last fault which falls onto her, for disallowing the simple request and creating the spark for conflict.
Sheesh...those things aside. It's like...5 days? That's all we have left till school reopens and god knows how much time we can spend with each other anymore. Yet such things have to happen? Can't we just embrace the last 5 days where we can fully dedicate to each other?
Is all these necessary at all?
