Thursday, July 7, 2011, 10:44 PM
Sometimes I hate myself...
I hate the fact that I'm so skinny.
Not that I never tried...I tried eating alot before...I tried weight training before. End result? I didn't put on a single gram despite having done it for months.
I don't want this either...but I can't change it no matter how much effort I put in.
I'm not asking to be some muscular hunk or something...I just wanna be...normal sized...
And that too...seems impossible. It seems so much harder to achieve than my dream, so much so that I've already given up trying to reach a normal sizing.
Sometimes I just wander why can't I be normal sized? I wanna wear T-shirts too....I don't wanna be cloaked in jackets everytime.
But I hate it...I don't want people to see how skinny I am, then tell me about it and reminding me of how much I hate this part of me....
I just wanna be normal....
I hate the fact that I'm so skinny.
Not that I never tried...I tried eating alot before...I tried weight training before. End result? I didn't put on a single gram despite having done it for months.
I don't want this either...but I can't change it no matter how much effort I put in.
I'm not asking to be some muscular hunk or something...I just wanna be...normal sized...
And that too...seems impossible. It seems so much harder to achieve than my dream, so much so that I've already given up trying to reach a normal sizing.
Sometimes I just wander why can't I be normal sized? I wanna wear T-shirts too....I don't wanna be cloaked in jackets everytime.
But I hate it...I don't want people to see how skinny I am, then tell me about it and reminding me of how much I hate this part of me....
I just wanna be normal....
