Sunday, June 19, 2011, 12:32 AM
I still remember you once told me that there were many things I didn't knew about, and that there wasn't any point saying them...since our view on things were so different and you probably didn't want any unneccesary quarrels.
There are things I didn't say either cause I felt the same. And knowing you, any I said probably wouldn't do any good besides making you angry and then we'd just end up quarreling...again.
You said you envied couples still together,
you envied couples anywhere you say them...
Me too.
Each time I'm out, and I see couples walking together, laughing and all...
So happy...
I was reminded of us...
I too so much wish we could be just like them...
Yet..both of us know, and you know better than me...even if we were like these couples out there...
How long would it last before we head to head in a conflict again?
So many couples I know share an amiable relationship. They are always happy with each other. Sure they do quarrel too once in awhile...it's impossible for two persons to share views on every subject, yet such quarrels happen maybe once every few months or even less...
Us....we never exceeded a week without quarreling once. The longest period that we never quarreled was just 4 days. That only happened twice. Besides these two...I would always expect a quarrel to pop out of nowhere.
I definitely loved the times we were laughing happily and all...but how long can these laughter carry us through before the continuous quarrels eat everything up?
I'm afraid of these quarrels now...and I'm so tired of them...
My love didn't fade,
But these quarrels are creating so much fear and exhaustion that even with love there, it doesn't really affect anything anymore...
Now....maybe it's just us having different views again...
I really wished you could embrace and support my ideals, like how I did your's.
When you finally told me you wanted AVT, that it was your passion...I cut no corners to help you get there. I urged you to change school even though I hoped you could be in the same school as me...that we can be together even during school. I helped you write appeal letters. I prayed every night hoping you would get accepted.
I still remember how happy I was when you told me you got in. I remembered that I was even happier than you were....
I supported your ideals...your passion...and helped you get there, even if my efforts didn't mean much. I really wanted to help you get where you wanted to go...
I wished you could do the same, that you would support my passion...yet that was just wishful thinking of my part. All that eventually mattered was whether I gave you attention or not...you never really bothered about what I wanted to achieve right?
To me, love is not about each other, not just caring for that other person. Yet also at the same time, mutual support and understanding...
Yet, guess our views on love is just different...it doesn't really matter how our definitions are does it..?
Today, I finally managed to master a painting technique and I was just...overjoyed. It would probably be the same joy I felt when you got accept into engineering. Yet...if you were beside me now...if I told you this....would you feel the same joy I felt back then? Or would something like this probably mean nothing to you at all? Or would it be such that at the end of the day, what would eventually matter to you...was whether I gave you attention or not?
Love is a wonderful thing....
Yet...I don't know why...
Or how...we would become like this...
There are things I didn't say either cause I felt the same. And knowing you, any I said probably wouldn't do any good besides making you angry and then we'd just end up quarreling...again.
You said you envied couples still together,
you envied couples anywhere you say them...
Me too.
Each time I'm out, and I see couples walking together, laughing and all...
So happy...
I was reminded of us...
I too so much wish we could be just like them...
Yet..both of us know, and you know better than me...even if we were like these couples out there...
How long would it last before we head to head in a conflict again?
So many couples I know share an amiable relationship. They are always happy with each other. Sure they do quarrel too once in awhile...it's impossible for two persons to share views on every subject, yet such quarrels happen maybe once every few months or even less...
Us....we never exceeded a week without quarreling once. The longest period that we never quarreled was just 4 days. That only happened twice. Besides these two...I would always expect a quarrel to pop out of nowhere.
I definitely loved the times we were laughing happily and all...but how long can these laughter carry us through before the continuous quarrels eat everything up?
I'm afraid of these quarrels now...and I'm so tired of them...
My love didn't fade,
But these quarrels are creating so much fear and exhaustion that even with love there, it doesn't really affect anything anymore...
Now....maybe it's just us having different views again...
I really wished you could embrace and support my ideals, like how I did your's.
When you finally told me you wanted AVT, that it was your passion...I cut no corners to help you get there. I urged you to change school even though I hoped you could be in the same school as me...that we can be together even during school. I helped you write appeal letters. I prayed every night hoping you would get accepted.
I still remember how happy I was when you told me you got in. I remembered that I was even happier than you were....
I supported your ideals...your passion...and helped you get there, even if my efforts didn't mean much. I really wanted to help you get where you wanted to go...
I wished you could do the same, that you would support my passion...yet that was just wishful thinking of my part. All that eventually mattered was whether I gave you attention or not...you never really bothered about what I wanted to achieve right?
To me, love is not about each other, not just caring for that other person. Yet also at the same time, mutual support and understanding...
Yet, guess our views on love is just different...it doesn't really matter how our definitions are does it..?
Today, I finally managed to master a painting technique and I was just...overjoyed. It would probably be the same joy I felt when you got accept into engineering. Yet...if you were beside me now...if I told you this....would you feel the same joy I felt back then? Or would something like this probably mean nothing to you at all? Or would it be such that at the end of the day, what would eventually matter to you...was whether I gave you attention or not?
Love is a wonderful thing....
Yet...I don't know why...
Or how...we would become like this...
