Wednesday, June 8, 2011, 11:23 PM
I don't understand. i really don't....
Why? Why force me to forget you? Is it a sin to remember?
Is it a sin to remember the times we shared together?
Is it a sin to hold onto the memories dear to me?
Is it a sin to remember a girl I love?
Is it a sin to continue walking down that path alone if so I will?
is it a sin to keep holding on...?
I don't get it...
You once told me, you once made me promise that I'll never forget you.
Might've been an ordinary promise, but yes, I wanna remember you.
Why force me to forget you??
You also said I'm pretending to be sad. Is there a need to if I'm really pretending?
Would I be in a daze all day if I were pretending?
Would I ever wake up earlier than I need to if I were pretending?
Would I have sleepless nights if I were pretending?
Need I pretend even in front of people I don't know well?
Can I pretend so well people actually ask why I'm looking so solemn, and unusually quiet?
I'm devastated over you...over this end.
Then you claim I'm pretending cause I was the one who gave up...
Did you think I wanna give up? I never did, at least not now. But you said it yourself, even if we got back together, it wouldn't be what you want. That said, would if matter if I fought to win you back, to win you back to an unhappy place?
Do I have a choice here? I'm left with none. That day I saw you turn your back and walk into the exam hall...I so badly wanna cry.
I so sadly wanna run over and hug you, pull you back. Yet...could I?
I cry every time I see our photos, everytime I close my eyes to sleep.
I so much want to hold your hand again, peck you on your cheeks again. Embrace you in my arms again...
You call that all pretending.
And ya know what? I don't have anyone to turn to. I know you aren't having this easy either...but you have your jie, ernest. Even if they're not there, you can easily find a random guy to confide in, anyone would be more than happy to listen. At least you have mediums to get it off your chest.
Me? People I try talking to, they think this is funny. They makes drama jokes outta it, they laugh it off. They tell me why give up the whole forest for a single tree. They make it look like you were some whore I could easily replace and those words hurt me so much.
I deal with it all myself. I cry in my room myself, no one to talk to, no one to turn to, not a single soul bothers to listen, and you call all this pretending.
Yes...pretending...
Why? Why force me to forget you? Is it a sin to remember?
Is it a sin to remember the times we shared together?
Is it a sin to hold onto the memories dear to me?
Is it a sin to remember a girl I love?
Is it a sin to continue walking down that path alone if so I will?
is it a sin to keep holding on...?
I don't get it...
You once told me, you once made me promise that I'll never forget you.
Might've been an ordinary promise, but yes, I wanna remember you.
Why force me to forget you??
You also said I'm pretending to be sad. Is there a need to if I'm really pretending?
Would I be in a daze all day if I were pretending?
Would I ever wake up earlier than I need to if I were pretending?
Would I have sleepless nights if I were pretending?
Need I pretend even in front of people I don't know well?
Can I pretend so well people actually ask why I'm looking so solemn, and unusually quiet?
I'm devastated over you...over this end.
Then you claim I'm pretending cause I was the one who gave up...
Did you think I wanna give up? I never did, at least not now. But you said it yourself, even if we got back together, it wouldn't be what you want. That said, would if matter if I fought to win you back, to win you back to an unhappy place?
Do I have a choice here? I'm left with none. That day I saw you turn your back and walk into the exam hall...I so badly wanna cry.
I so sadly wanna run over and hug you, pull you back. Yet...could I?
I cry every time I see our photos, everytime I close my eyes to sleep.
I so much want to hold your hand again, peck you on your cheeks again. Embrace you in my arms again...
You call that all pretending.
And ya know what? I don't have anyone to turn to. I know you aren't having this easy either...but you have your jie, ernest. Even if they're not there, you can easily find a random guy to confide in, anyone would be more than happy to listen. At least you have mediums to get it off your chest.
Me? People I try talking to, they think this is funny. They makes drama jokes outta it, they laugh it off. They tell me why give up the whole forest for a single tree. They make it look like you were some whore I could easily replace and those words hurt me so much.
I deal with it all myself. I cry in my room myself, no one to talk to, no one to turn to, not a single soul bothers to listen, and you call all this pretending.
Yes...pretending...
