Monday, April 4, 2011, 9:23 PM
When light dims
Hey mr bloggie, how I wish you could actually talk. Then maybe you'd talk to me, maybe you'd tell me what exactly to do.
After our little stalemate yesterday, I went up back into bed. I couldn't help weeping, I couldn't help but think of her. I couldn't help thinking of the times we were laughing side by side, enjoying each other's company.
I thought I'd be fine after a night's sleep. Yet when I woke...I just couldn't take my mind off her.
Feeling messed up, I decided to go take a walk somewhere. I took a bus, a double-deck it was. I sat on the second level and I looked out the window as the bus drove along. Then I'd turn to my side, looking at the empty seat...and wishing that she was still there beside me, that I was still holding her hand.
I walked around, and it felt really alien. She wasn't there for me to hold onto anymore, she wasn't there walking beside me anymore. I really wished she was still there, right by my side, taking every step with me...
Then I went on for dinner. Got my food and sat down. Ate halfway, looked across to the other empty seat and it reminded me of how she'd look at me while I eat with that cute face. How I wish she was still there looking at me while I eat.
I didn't walk much, there wasn't really much meaning to it without her walking beside me :(
So I headed home, and I can't help but kept looking at our photos. The smiles on our faces. Then I played the video recording I had of her. She isn't here with me, but at least in the video, well...she's moving ya know bloggie?
I broke down again...
Ya know mr bloggie? I've never shed this much tears within such a short span. I've never shed so much tears for a single person.
Could you do something about it mr bloggie? I miss her so much :(
Then I went on to her facebook, her blog.
It was gone. That thing in her blog, the timer that showed how long we'd been together. It was gone...
Has she really decided to turn the clock off on this? Has the time come to an end?
I'm always the one thinking of giving up...yet...yet this time...I don't want to...
I miss her so much. A large chunk of me seems to be missing without her. I really...don't want this to end :(
Mr bloggie, can you just...please talk to me? Tell me what to do, can somebody...tell me what to do...?
Where do we head...? When the light dims...
After our little stalemate yesterday, I went up back into bed. I couldn't help weeping, I couldn't help but think of her. I couldn't help thinking of the times we were laughing side by side, enjoying each other's company.
I thought I'd be fine after a night's sleep. Yet when I woke...I just couldn't take my mind off her.
Feeling messed up, I decided to go take a walk somewhere. I took a bus, a double-deck it was. I sat on the second level and I looked out the window as the bus drove along. Then I'd turn to my side, looking at the empty seat...and wishing that she was still there beside me, that I was still holding her hand.
I walked around, and it felt really alien. She wasn't there for me to hold onto anymore, she wasn't there walking beside me anymore. I really wished she was still there, right by my side, taking every step with me...
Then I went on for dinner. Got my food and sat down. Ate halfway, looked across to the other empty seat and it reminded me of how she'd look at me while I eat with that cute face. How I wish she was still there looking at me while I eat.
I didn't walk much, there wasn't really much meaning to it without her walking beside me :(
So I headed home, and I can't help but kept looking at our photos. The smiles on our faces. Then I played the video recording I had of her. She isn't here with me, but at least in the video, well...she's moving ya know bloggie?
I broke down again...
Ya know mr bloggie? I've never shed this much tears within such a short span. I've never shed so much tears for a single person.
Could you do something about it mr bloggie? I miss her so much :(
Then I went on to her facebook, her blog.
It was gone. That thing in her blog, the timer that showed how long we'd been together. It was gone...
Has she really decided to turn the clock off on this? Has the time come to an end?
I'm always the one thinking of giving up...yet...yet this time...I don't want to...
I miss her so much. A large chunk of me seems to be missing without her. I really...don't want this to end :(
Mr bloggie, can you just...please talk to me? Tell me what to do, can somebody...tell me what to do...?
Where do we head...? When the light dims...
