Saturday, April 9, 2011, 5:52 PM
She is the one
It's raining now, all that much adds to the atmosphere doesn't it? It's a pretty solemn day for me after all. In any case, yeah just had my dinner and blogging now so lingg can read it when she gets back from work later on.
Strike while the iron is hot no? I haven't the slightest clue when my net will die on me again.
So let's get started. I did say it was a solemn day for me, and it ain't without reason. We'll touch on that as we move along.
I woke up today at 12.30 after hearing my iPhone's awful sounding alarm =/ Hmm to be exact I actually woke at around 12, and rotted on bed till the alarm made me get up fully. I slept at about 8? So that gives me about 4 hours of sleep in total.
I still woke up without the help of the alarm, I don't know, maybe I was just missing lingg too much =/
I can't stop thinking of her ya know? Hell, I'm crazy over her =/
In any case, after getting out of bed, I went to take a bathe. Well cause sleeping kinda made a bloody mess outta my hair lol~
Of course, before that, I messaged lingg to make sure she knew I was already awake.
She sounded really cold over the messages, and I thought she was angry with me. Thankfully, it's just her PMS, well...that means I'll have to tread carefully too. Don't wanna accidentally make her angry or upset and waste time away from each other.
Soon after, she got here and I answered the door. Walked her to my room, sat on my bed. Yeah, she looked really sad or something. WIth that, I comforted her a little, and cracked some cold jokes. Fortunately, it made her smile :) That was a huge relief ;D
Next we just chatted and chatted till she received a call from Sakura. Guess what? She just got attached to the Yio Chu Kang branch. I don't know why, but I suddenly felt real sad. It's like, if she had to go to Yio Chu Kang, that would mean she'll have to leave about 45 minutes earlier than usual. That leaves us with just half an hour together :(
I really miss her so much, and 45 minutes, which may not seem much to anyone means alot to me =x
Luckily, with the help of Ernest I think? She managed to get a replacement. So that means she doesn't have to head to Yio Chu Kang anymore! I felt so much happier hearing that ya know? More time with her!
Then we started um yeah smooching and stuff. Well, what follows after is anyone's guess.
This was the part that really ruined my day, and maybe hers as well. IT WENT OFF TOO DAMN EARLY AGAIN! Not as fast as when I first discovered the problem, but it's still too fast! D;
I tried again after awhile and same thing happened! I don't get it, it was doing so well the previous 2 times. That really gave me the impression I had finally curbed the problem and I was so overjoyed! Yet...today kinda showed me that I haven't.
Oh well, I should've guessed as much. Solving a problem like this so quickly? Seems kinda impossible, to think I actually believed I could finally give lingg what she wanted.
I felt so useless ya know? A guy....and I can't even give my beloved gal something as simple as that...sigh....
I put in so much effort in rectifying this...and yet this is only how far I have got.
Not to mention...I feel really bad too. I feel like I have let lingg down...again...
Even so, I only wanted to make lingg feel good. To be honest, I didn't really care how good I felt, it was how good she felt that I only really cared about. I just...want her to be happy ya know?
After that everything went downhill, I felt really upset. The previous success brought my hopes so high, and now to let go and have it crashing down. :(
I thought lingg would be sad about it too...but instead, she actually encouraged me with a smile. At first I thought she just didn't wanna hurt my feelings, but it was only after she reassured me that I know she really didn't mind.
That was moment I realised something.
With that, we prepared and I walked lingg to lakeside. Giving her a fullhouse at the station before bidding her goodbye. The smile she gave me while on the lift really made my day. I missed her so much ya know? I miss her so much even as I'm typing this now.
No idea what got into me...I just really missed her so much like never before :O
After that I went to get dinner. Hell, I got caught in the damned rain on my way back. Now I'm sneezing like crazy =.=
Alright so I'm blogging now, oh and I said I realised something earlier.
Yeah this is it.
With lingg telling how she didn't mind despite my....huge failure again...it made me realise this:
It made me doubly, triply or infinitely sure if you'll have it, that lingg is the one I wanna spend my entire life with. SHE is the ONE, NO one else can replace her, ever.
Lingg...thank you so much for your understanding. I'll keep working hard...of course given that it doesn't rot first =p
I love you lingg, ya my one and only. I'm yours to keep forever. You are my first true love, and you WILL BE MY LAST.
Yep, she is the one~
Strike while the iron is hot no? I haven't the slightest clue when my net will die on me again.
So let's get started. I did say it was a solemn day for me, and it ain't without reason. We'll touch on that as we move along.
I woke up today at 12.30 after hearing my iPhone's awful sounding alarm =/ Hmm to be exact I actually woke at around 12, and rotted on bed till the alarm made me get up fully. I slept at about 8? So that gives me about 4 hours of sleep in total.
I still woke up without the help of the alarm, I don't know, maybe I was just missing lingg too much =/
I can't stop thinking of her ya know? Hell, I'm crazy over her =/
In any case, after getting out of bed, I went to take a bathe. Well cause sleeping kinda made a bloody mess outta my hair lol~
Of course, before that, I messaged lingg to make sure she knew I was already awake.
She sounded really cold over the messages, and I thought she was angry with me. Thankfully, it's just her PMS, well...that means I'll have to tread carefully too. Don't wanna accidentally make her angry or upset and waste time away from each other.
Soon after, she got here and I answered the door. Walked her to my room, sat on my bed. Yeah, she looked really sad or something. WIth that, I comforted her a little, and cracked some cold jokes. Fortunately, it made her smile :) That was a huge relief ;D
Next we just chatted and chatted till she received a call from Sakura. Guess what? She just got attached to the Yio Chu Kang branch. I don't know why, but I suddenly felt real sad. It's like, if she had to go to Yio Chu Kang, that would mean she'll have to leave about 45 minutes earlier than usual. That leaves us with just half an hour together :(
I really miss her so much, and 45 minutes, which may not seem much to anyone means alot to me =x
Luckily, with the help of Ernest I think? She managed to get a replacement. So that means she doesn't have to head to Yio Chu Kang anymore! I felt so much happier hearing that ya know? More time with her!
Then we started um yeah smooching and stuff. Well, what follows after is anyone's guess.
This was the part that really ruined my day, and maybe hers as well. IT WENT OFF TOO DAMN EARLY AGAIN! Not as fast as when I first discovered the problem, but it's still too fast! D;
I tried again after awhile and same thing happened! I don't get it, it was doing so well the previous 2 times. That really gave me the impression I had finally curbed the problem and I was so overjoyed! Yet...today kinda showed me that I haven't.
Oh well, I should've guessed as much. Solving a problem like this so quickly? Seems kinda impossible, to think I actually believed I could finally give lingg what she wanted.
I felt so useless ya know? A guy....and I can't even give my beloved gal something as simple as that...sigh....
I put in so much effort in rectifying this...and yet this is only how far I have got.
Not to mention...I feel really bad too. I feel like I have let lingg down...again...
Even so, I only wanted to make lingg feel good. To be honest, I didn't really care how good I felt, it was how good she felt that I only really cared about. I just...want her to be happy ya know?
After that everything went downhill, I felt really upset. The previous success brought my hopes so high, and now to let go and have it crashing down. :(
I thought lingg would be sad about it too...but instead, she actually encouraged me with a smile. At first I thought she just didn't wanna hurt my feelings, but it was only after she reassured me that I know she really didn't mind.
That was moment I realised something.
With that, we prepared and I walked lingg to lakeside. Giving her a fullhouse at the station before bidding her goodbye. The smile she gave me while on the lift really made my day. I missed her so much ya know? I miss her so much even as I'm typing this now.
No idea what got into me...I just really missed her so much like never before :O
After that I went to get dinner. Hell, I got caught in the damned rain on my way back. Now I'm sneezing like crazy =.=
Alright so I'm blogging now, oh and I said I realised something earlier.
Yeah this is it.
With lingg telling how she didn't mind despite my....huge failure again...it made me realise this:
It made me doubly, triply or infinitely sure if you'll have it, that lingg is the one I wanna spend my entire life with. SHE is the ONE, NO one else can replace her, ever.
Lingg...thank you so much for your understanding. I'll keep working hard...of course given that it doesn't rot first =p
I love you lingg, ya my one and only. I'm yours to keep forever. You are my first true love, and you WILL BE MY LAST.
Yep, she is the one~
